Everybody knows 2020 has been a weird year. Maybe I’m thinking everybody has to be having a weird of year as I am. As if it’s a choice I keep seeing posts saying “if you could go back to when quarantine started, would you?” Asking if you’d erase all the things that have happened. I mean 1 million people have died now, maybe if you could go back and this never would have happened. 1 million people wouldn’t have died and you wouldn’t be who you are. The past 7 months have made me grow in different ways that would have taken longer for me to get here, part of me wants a redo. Part of me is glad I’ve grown into more of an adult, but was mostly possible bc of the alone time of quarantine. Sigh. My year was ruined early on and I got myself together finally by April. It’s September and I’m doing so much better. Life is weird, it’s so weird, it feels like something is going against everyone. Things are not just flowing or going great, it’s just day to day. Until a day happens with so many things it changes everything. I guess I’m just waiting for each of those random days that’s gonna hold an important event. My grandpa passed away and I miss him so much, it’s been 2 months and I still start crying when I think of him. It’s not that I don’t want to think of him, but I still feel so sad he died still so young in compared to my other grandparents. I’m sure he’s with God. Life doesn’t stop for anyone. I’m glad I’m not depressed about anything, mentally I’ve been doing better than before. I’m glad I’ve handled so many things like an adult. I’m glad I’ve made better friends this year. I’m glad I became more independent. I need to work on how nervous/anxious I get, I get so set off easily now. In reality, I wouldn’t mind going back, lives would be saved, I could have spent more time with my grandpa, I could have changed some things. A lot of things. Everything is still going to happen how it’s meant to happen. This is the first time I dwell on the past bc I don’t want to live there, I want to be here.
stormborns
2087
izzy806
romaincrisis
gracieabrams
tangentwithtanner
