spider bite.

ind. & priv. black widow

[ukuspauka-blog]

sometimes, nat treats herself. it's not often. she's more concerned about the case, the job, the hit-- whatever it may be at the time-- over the delicacies of life. but every now and then she'll break her diet of work, sleep, repeat. a massage every once in a blue moon is a great way to tend layers and layers of grind, or a bath-bomb-filled soak in the tub. (the latter makes her feel less vulnerable.)

[tiffsmemes]

book meme / the inexplicable logic of my life, benjamin alire sáenz content warning for blood and violence.

i like holding your hand.

hey, it’s okay. it’s just me.

well, you have to eat more.

it’s good to hear your voice.

and we’re a family, aren’t we?

crying is good.

for the fever.

but there are certain things you can’t keep from the adults around you. adults who care about you.

it’s weird, the honest things you say when you’re sick. 

how’d you sleep?

well, i’m worried about me too.

look at you. you’re still shaking.

you ever think about your mom?

sometimes i was full of halfhearted yeahs.

i’m sorry i’m such a pain in the ass.

i’ll always be with you.

maybe you think you need to be perfect. if you think of that word, don’t listen to it. 

yeah, try and get some sleep.

it’s all that crying.

just a bloody lip.

i guess you could say i was feeling sorry for myself.

you won’t always be sad.

i had bad dreams, but at least i slept.

i’ve been getting into a lot of fights lately.

why are you taking care of me? 

i don’t want you to be sad either.

but we have to find a way to discipline our hearts so that their cruelty doesn’t turn us into hurt animals. 

you really think a punch to the nose changed a damn thing? 

i’ve heard worse.

you stay up all night talking?

but you just have to learn to walk away from people who growl. they might bite you. they might hurt you.

dad always said that there was nothing with crying and if people did more of it, well then, the world would be a better place.   

people get angry when they’re afraid.

that word doesn’t carry any truth.

the world has changed.

maybe those things should keep themselves hidden. 

[ukuspauka-blog]

Starter call.

[zionqt]

Bae Doona for Elle ♥

[ukuspauka-blog]

     every time nat sees someone from s.h.i.e.l.d. shows back up in her life, she always gets just a little nervous. she has mixed feelings about them now-- especially when she’s unsure of who is and isn’t hydra.

     sheri, at least, is someone she really hopes she has a good read on.

     “...hey.”

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starter callll

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tenccs:

   he’s wiping down the counter when the new chick rolls in, a spill from moments ago when some asshole blindly knocked over someone else’s beer. it’s only like three minutes into his shift and it’s already off on a bad foot. sam glances up at the greeting, dipping his head in a low nod before throwing the rag in the sink. “hey.” he washes his hands and takes a slow, steadying breath before turning around to face the bar. it’s going to be a long night, but at least there’s company.

   “what’s up?”

     she checks her phone-- not that there’s anything new there-- before looking back to sam. with thirty minutes to spare, she drops herself onto a stool.

     “not much. just got done with uber. --traffic was awful.” but when is it not? she didn’t mind in the least. nat’s as patient as they come. “can you get me a glass? of water.”

     “--whats up with you?”

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[ukuspauka-blog]

     starter call. like this and I’ll probably jump into your IM about a thread.

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tagged  by:  @gotthedevilinem

1ST RULE: tag muses you’d like to get to know better: @owncenotaph if you haven’t done this already, and @panetter

2ND RULE: BOLD the statements that are true for your muse

APPEARANCE:

I am 5'7" or taller

I wear glasses

I have at least one tattoo

I have at least one piercing

I have blonde hair

I have brown eyes

I have short hair

My abs are at least somewhat defined

I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY:

I love meeting new people

People tell me that I’m funny

Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me

I enjoy physical challenges

I enjoy mental challenges

I’m playfully rude with people I know well

I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it

There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY:

I can sing well

I can play an instrument

I can do over 30 pushups without stopping

I’m a fast runner

I can draw well

I have a good memory

I’m good at doing math in my head  

I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute

I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling

I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch

I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES:

I enjoy playing sports

I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else

I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else

I have learned a new song in the past week

I work out at least once a week

I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months

I have drawn something in the past month

I enjoy writing

FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION

I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES:

I have had my first kiss

I have had alcohol

I have scored the winning goal in a sports game

I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting

I have been at an overnight event

I have been in a taxi

I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year

I have beaten a video game in one day

I have visited another country

I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIPS:

I’m in a relationship

I have a crush on a celebrity

I have a crush on someone I know

I have been in at least 3 relationships

I have never been in a relationship

I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them

I get crushes easily

I have had a crush on someone for over a year

I have been in a relationship for at least a year

I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE:

I have at least one person I consider a “best friend”

I live close to my school

My parents are still together

I have at least one sibling

I live in the United States

There is snow right now where I live

I have hung out with a friend in the past month

I have a smartphone

I have at least 15 CDs

I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT:

I have breakdanced

I know a person named Jamie

I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce

I have dyed my hair

I’m listening to one song on repeat right now

I have punched someone in the past week

I know someone who has gone to jail

I have broken a bone

I have eaten a waffle today

I know what I want to do with my life

I speak at least 2 languages

I have made a new friend in the past year

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[evepolastrl]

and i rarely let them

[ukuspauka-blog]

@agenths

     she’s confused when he comes up to the counter. as in, why is howard stark at a bar? as in, i thought he was sober. as in, of all the people i see again first, it has to be a stark. natasha leaves one side of the counter to walk over to the side howard sits. she lets the barest hint of a smirk fall onto her lips.

     “what can i get you?”

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                                               time cannot forgive the things I’ve done.                                                independent and selective black widow.

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@tenccs

     she’s not the first one to get here, but nat comes in well before her shift starts. there’s no expectation to get on the clock. making small talk is easy as a driver, but everything that comes out of her mouth when taking people to and from one place to the next are usually a ladle-full of lies. it keeps her separate from everyone else. it’s at wreck room, at least, that nat at least tries to make a point of not entirely isolating herself from the other workers.

     she gives a small, near-nonexistent wave when she sees the other bartender.

     “hey.”

[ukuspauka-blog]

     starter call. like this and I’ll probably jump into your IM about a thread.

[ukuspauka-blog]

                                               time cannot forgive the things I’ve done.                                                independent and selective black widow.