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I love you

I write it here because I can’t send it. For if I do, I know you’ll respond with thanks or something equally as unemotional and that destroys me everytime. Loving you in silence while you love someone else is death without dying. So I write it here in hopes that somehow you’ll see it. And just know that my love is real. Because all my heart can do is think of you. And I’m sorry for loving you, I know you don’t want me to, but there’s nothing I can do. I love you, Always

Headfucked over you..

So much male attention, they are as dogs chomping at the bit just to catch my gaze, to steal an ounce of my time. Compliments and praise spew from their eager lips, hopeful I'll not only accept their affections, but also allow them to call me theirs. Yet what a pitiful rut I've fallen into. So many pairs of adoring eyes look upon me, and still I continue to foolishly hope and search for that look in yours. I sit and wait in vain and in silence for you to sit with me in eternity and heal each others wounds, to speak to me, to notice how much I want you around. This life plays painful tricks on me, offering the heart of so many, while you keep yours locked away. I held it in my tender care once so briefly, only for you to snatch it back and break mine. It's been so long and I still feel sick when I crave you and you aren't there. None of this is fair, and I wish you would just answer your phone..