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my mother's love

why does my day literally depend on the quality of the relationship i have with my mom

i don't like how it predicts how the rest of my day would go

it's better if i don't interact with her tbh

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WHAT THE FUCKKK

OH MY GOD im actually dating someone right now i cant fucking believe this is happening i love tumblr ong ong im so happy with him hes so precious and loving istg AFTER YEARS OMGGGGGG we were school friends and i had a crush on him for yearsssssssss anywyas kdfjghkdfjhgkfdjh he said he likes me and asked me out!!?!?!?!??!?!?! MFW when my crush asks me out FUCK YEAH i love life everything is wonderful pls let this last plsplspls + its my first time dating someone and his as well <3 god bless

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wonder

i have always wondered what it means to have a special person in my life . it makes perfect sense to me when i see other couples . but why can't i find my person . why is it so hard . my romance cells are on the verge of dying . when do i get to meet them ? are they even alive ? what are they doing as i type this ? i no longer feel butterflies . no longer feel excited . when will i get them back ? i blame u . yes . YOU ! i blame u for this . i want to see u . whoever u are . come forth and show urself to me . when i see u i will know . maybe u will too .

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sour

since when did i stop liking strawberries?

its been so long since i last had a strawberry which tasted sweet

i used to get excited every time i saw a box of strawberries along with the grocery my mom used to buy

but nowadays they all taste so sour it makes me depressed

hopefully i will find a sweet strawberry again

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became our song after u passed

hope ur happy with ur new friends up there

hope u will always remember me

i will come to meet u as soon as possible

please wait for me

and welcome me like u always do when i return home

until then

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i wish she could realize it and be proud of herself too

u r a wonderful person, i hope u get out of the mess u r in right now

i will try my best to help u out

but at the end of the day, change should come from within

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sometimes

sometimes i feel grateful because i have changed drastically as a person

sometimes i hate myself because its so easy to return back to who i was in the past

sometimes i forget myself and indulge in others

sometimes i want everyone to indulge in me and forget about themselves

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starting over

good morning starshine, the earth says "hello!"