[nekem-te-vagy-neked-pedig-en]

[geopsych]

I stood here and looked and the only sounds were crickets and the stream behind me.

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

I don't like this day.

I feel awful...

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

I can't sleep...

I'm drowning in my own thoughts again...

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary... (Trigger warning)

It's been long since I've relapsed...

But by now... I know it's not a matter of if, but when.

I miss it... And at this point I don't know if I actually want to recover. I don't think I even deserve it in the first place.

At any moment, I'll go back to where I was at the beginning of this. Like always.

It always ends the same... And I don't know how to feel about it anymore.

I'm sorry for being such a failure. I'm sorry for not trying my best...

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary... (Trigger warning)

I'm not actively suicidal, and I haven't been in a while.

But the thoughts are still there...

They still haunt me the same way they always have.

I guess after so many years of this... I've become sort of numb to it all.

My mind still wants me dead... And I know it's only waiting for me to break down again.

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary... (Trigger warning)

I hate how a single chromosome can fuck up your life.

I just wish I didn't have a body at all.

[worthless-misery]

"The thought of healing is unappealing to the voice inside my brain."

Slaves, "Like I Do"

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

I try to be here for people...

I try to be enough...

But... I'm always a disappointment.

I always ruin everything...

And when I try to help, I only make everything worse.

I'm useless. I'm worthless.

I'm never good enough.

I will never be good enough...

[worthless-misery]

"Try to save myself, but myself keeps slipping away."

Nine Inch Nails, "Into The Void"

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

It's so... Hard to hold on to life...

But... I try.

I have been trying lately, more than ever, to hold on to the little things that make this life a little less unbearable, and to ignore everything else...

And it's hard to ignore all the shit my mind tells me everyday... But I think I really am trying.

I don't know if life is worth it. And I know I won't think this way once I break down again. But this is how I feel at this moment, I guess...

[youmatterlifeline]

[moan-s]

[spiritofthemeadow]

spring tulips vii

ig : afternoondreams

[yeyjj]

[minuty]

[fvkked-in-the-headd]

i feel like i’m suffocating