unaiza

- a teacher by dusk and a writer by dawn

[unaizanoor]

he had eyes full of dead dreams and a heart of a wild rose. he had summers dying on him, his skin unforgivable. addictive. caramel hair, smoky scent and he laughed like a child and his accent was delicious, I could taste it every time he kissed me. the way he looked at me like the world is ending, like I have ended it for him. love spills out of his eyes and I curl my hands to catch every drop of it.

unaiza n, wearing him on my sleeves.

[unaizanoor]

i wanted to ask him,

to kill me

to end my suffering.

to let me breathe properly,

for once.

or not breathe at all.

for the air is dense

with his absence.

and the emptiness of his words.

i'm swinging dangerously

amidst life and another hell.

unaiza n.

[unaizanoor]

We stopped existing months ago and yet i stand here, watching you walk away over and over again. How do I turn back when the ghost of all we were still haunts me everywhere I go? How do I finish what you started when i can still feel the touch of your hand lingering over my skin?

unaiza n, rather be haunted than let go

[unaizanoor]

You will always be everything and so much more. Tell me, how do I stop loving someone who resides so deep in my bones? Tell me, how do I stop loving you when I only exist with you?

- unaiza, to love is to suffer

[literaryvein]

L. V., excerpts from the afterword

[paper-wounds]

[unaizanoor]

Doesn't matter if it burns me alive, for as long as this love flame keeps me breathing and haunts my memories, I'd keep running towards it like a helpless moth drawn to flame.

[unaizanoor]

For as long as I'm breathing, I'd love you, again,

and again,

and again,

and again,

and again,

and again,

and again,

and again,

and all over again,

till forever.

but what is love if not pain? - unaiza.

[lunamonchtuna]

to be seen without performing. to be heard without screaming. to be missed without disappearing. to be enough without proving it. to be held without falling apart. to be understood without explaining. to be wanted without conditions. to be. to be.

[unaizanoor]

I hope I accidentally didn't leave myself in between the cheap metaphors and empty words of your poems. I hope I don't linger in between those closing lines. -- I always want to be something you lost.

-- unaiza n, a story you'll write an ending to.

[unaizanoor]

I am running away 

from the abyss of your dark eyes 

But every path leads right back to you.

- unaiza noor, destined to ruined

[unaizanoor]

The world isn’t cold, darling. The cold resides within my bones. Hold me for a little longer, will you? While I wait for a sadist God to rescue me.

unaiza n.

[unaizanoor]

I need to stop looking at your eyes like they hold something for me.

unaiza n, as empty as my words

[unaizanoor]

things i regret

not picking my mess up sooner/ not eating my breakfast/ my heart skipping a beat for you/ not listening to what my heart had to say/ working all day/ just to keep my mind from thinking about you/ breaking your heart/ still wishing to lean in your arms/ for you're the only person/ who wouldn't let me down/ loving you/ denying it/ your love for me/ mistaking it for nothing/ come home/ i need you.

- unaiza n, the list never ends. put it to an end, will you?

[unaizanoor]

loving you was never pretty, it was a war zone. fighting to love you or to let you go.

- unaiza n, how did i think i'll get out of this without bleeding?

[unaizanoor]

and i've been trying to find excuses to kiss you at the places only the sun has touched.

- unaiza n, selling myself to stars just to spend more time with you.

[unaizanoor]

something about you cutting me in so deep feels like home.

unaiza n, boy bye