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dont let her know you were sinning
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when are you going back to your katniss blog. asking for a friend.
holy shit how do YOU know i’m the same mun?!?!?!?i guess…… sometime?!?!? when there’s a peeta around?!?!?! i’m an eve r lar k ho d o n ‘t judg e me
fire-walk:
“Wish I could remember what that was… I…I’m glad I didn’t leave you though,” she says in what’s practically a whisper. “I don’t think…I’d want to do that.” It seemed impossible when she felt so attached to her, even before remembering a single thing.
There’s a pause in which she worries that the hug is too soon–or worse, unwanted. It’s all made worse by the way her dumb, gay brain focuses on the way her friend’s lips are parted. On how pretty she is. But, finally, she moves.
Max all but teleports into her arms, which find their way around her with ease. For whatever reason, Max shivers, so Chloe holds her a little tighter. And if holding hands felt right, then embracing her was perfection… The leftover cold from the memory she can’t quite reach fades for the warmth of this moment. She feels bolder suddenly, familiarity making her comfortable. “There. Feel better?” Though she pulls away to look at her, she keeps her hands on her arms, flashing Max a smile.
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‘Better’ was a small word in comparison to what she was feeling. I feel whole again, she wanted to say, but the sentence got stuck inside her throat along with the sobbing noises she wanted to make. Out of pure joy, of being there again, inside her embrace. She raised her chin to find her cocky, confident smile, the one that could only belong to the Chloe she knew. Nothing could go wrong if Chloe could still smile like that.
“Let me know if it... if it gets weird at some point. I’m basically a stranger in your bed...”, her laugh was weak and subtle but there, tainted with a little bit of fear of leaving her spot. “Doctors said you should take it easy and here I am, invading your personal space... Way to go, Max”
But everything about Chloe’s body language said comfort. She was holding her tightly and Max didn’t feel the slightest hint of rejection there. Far more emotional, but the hug felt like every other night they’d spend tangled to the other, finding peace in each other’s warm.
“Is there... something you want to ask? Know...?”
fire-walk:
“Max, if I was a dream, would you really conjure me this tired?” Chloe presses her forehead to hers, closing her eyes to demonstrate the bags under them up close, a soft chuckle falling from her lips. Yeah, things sucked, but…they could get better. Max proved that.
Opening her eyes back up again, she shifts a hand, her fingers starting to weave through her girlfriend’s hair. They find her scalp and brush softly as if they can coax the worries out and away from her head.
“You’re going to wake up right here, in my arms. You might even have to pry me off,” she says with playful smirk. “Even if I wake up first…I’ll just keep holding you and probably fall back asleep. Fair warning though, I’m also hella tired, so I might be passed out for a while. You can totally grope over where my heart is though, so you can feel it in all of its living glory.”
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Her soothing touch had an effect so huge no words could describe it. She was sure Chloe herself wasn’t aware of the power her hands carried--- But her body was the one relaxing. Her brain was a whole different tale.
It wasn’t the first time that her mind gave her a glimpse of a better world for her, only wake up to an empty bed, or even worse, wake up to another nightmare where red was the only color.
To give Chloe credit, something about this time felt different. The photojump felt real. Her beating heart didn’t sound distant, but it’s sound echoed inside her head... And the kiss. The kiss was a new thing, so pure and mindshattering... And for that, she was a hundred percent sure her imagination wasn’t that good, to come up with something as perfect as her lips. The thought of the kiss made her blush and tremble slightly, but she managed to gather up the courage to speak.
“... Goonight kiss before I sleep?”, she asked with a weak, shy smile on her lips.
I am the worst, I know. Sue me. I’ve been TRYING to write and I’m just stuck, can’t write shit. I swear I’ll get my inspiration back. I just need these awful weeks I’ve been having to go aWaY. I’m really really sorry.
fire-walk:
It didn’t come back to her like the other memories had. This must have been part of the block. What did happen was that she felt rain as if it were still happening, as if she was being pulled into a memory instead of remembering it. Cold. The warmth of Max’s hand. Both then and now, she was sure of it.
“…you’re doing it again, Super Max” she points out, almost playfully, the nickname rolling off her tongue because muscle memory is easier than the normal kind, apparently. It’s serious, she knows it’s serious, but it makes her head hurt trying to remember this part and something tells her that Max takes things seriously enough for the both of them anyway. If whatever irritation she had felt back then isn’t going to come back for her, then why even try to bring it back? “Blaming yourself when that’s probably what got my panties in a twist in the first place,” she takes an educated guess.
Concern is still laced through Max’s features in a way that makes her want to kiss her forehead, but they’re…friends, so… “Hey, Max…bring it in,” she says, gesturing with her free hand for the other girl to come closer for a hug.
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Just before making a funny comment about ‘doing it again’, the nickname started to echoe inside her head. Her heart pounded madly against her ribcage with that discovery, one thought: she was still her Chloe. She remembered her, what she did, the nicknames-- Max was a part of her beyond her memories and the need to yell to the top of her lungs was there.
“It’s not... like you left me. You looked like you had a reason to come back here. But I have no idea why, you left so quickly and---”
She knew she looked stupid with her lips parted like that, staring at her wide eyed as she offered a hug. Max knew there was no way she’d leave without touching her hand, her hair, but she also knew it was going to take a while to go full touch-- and now, she knew that was a stupid thought. Chloe had always been touchy with her, since the very beginning-- so why would that change?
“Chloe...!”, without waiting for more confirmation, she lauched herself into her arms, and the smell of her skin and her hair made a strong chill ran down spine in what felt like a spasm.
fire-walk:
“Remember when we fell asleep after breaking into the pool?” Chloe asks, knowing that if she’s tired, then Max must be exhausted. She gets it–nightmares had been common for the bigger chunk of the five years they spent apart…and the last week too. But it felt different, to have Max in her arms like this…to have her girlfriend in her arms like this. Like the time she brought up, but better. “I hadn’t been getting good sleep for months and then, with you…I fell asleep like a baby.”
Putting a gentle pressure on Max’s cheeks with her fingertips, she leads her head closer and down slightly so she can press a kiss to her forehead. “Sleep first for once, all right? I’ll keep holding you and maybe you’ll have a good dream like I did.”
Shifting so they were looking at each other again, she looked into her eyes with newly confident ones of her own, trying to inspire it in Max.
@unangenoir
The soft pressure on her cheek was enough to lead her right where Chloe wanted her, snuggling there. She had no words to explain the comfort it brought: by itself, being in her arms was the definition of peace but in that position she felt protected. Shielded from everything that could harm her.
“It reminded me of our sleepovers when we were kids...”, she whispered, trying to gather the strenght to speak her thoughts without keeping anything, “But I just... I don’t want to sleep. I’ve had dreams like this, and then... you were gone. I woke up and you were still dead, Chloe, and the void was there and it was meaner than before...”
Staring into her eyes, she tried to find some of that confidence, that courage and take it for herself. But in that moment she knew that’d take time.
“What if I wake up and you’re not here? What if I wake up in the other reality, where you’re dead...? I can’t go through that again... I can’t!”
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· There’s a lady in Chicago, man, wrote a book. Dr Kübler-Ross, with a dash. This chick, man, without the benefit of dying herself, has broken the process of death into five stages: anger, denial, bargaining, depression and acceptance.
Anger. Damned be it all! Why? Why?! · All right, if you happen to get to denial… denial… We’re gonna make it. “Not Harry! Please, not Harry!” · Bargaining. Remember her? “Take me, kill me instead! I’ll do anything!” · Depression… “You’re so loved, Harry” · So… acceptance. “Be safe. Be strong.” Hold it. ·
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Everything felt so cold. And Chloe decided that she hated nothing more than the silence.
When they had drove through the destructed town, it had been eerily quiet. Buildings that had once stood tall and proud were now tragically tattered, their unlucky inhabitants slaughtered into nothingness. The only death that should have been known by the town today was Chloe’s. Now, there was not a single soul to so much as hear about it if it had happened.
Guilt weighed down on her conscience, a knot tied in her throat, reflecting on their decisions and the whirlwind that had been this entire week. Suddenly, Chloe felt tired, so very, very tired. The type of tired that made her feel hollowly empty.
Yet she knew she had to keep going. If not for herself, then for Max. Her Max, who sacrificed absolutely everything for her.
Looking over at the other, Chloe saw Max staring out the window. There was no doubt in her mind that in this moment, Max felt similarly to how she did. And that was enough to motivate Chloe to reach out and touch her shoulder, comfortingly, the contact offering them a sense of warmth in the briskness of their grief.
They had each other. And for Chloe, for now, that thought was enough motivation.
She kept driving until Arcadia Bay was long past them.
They drove for a whole day, with little to no words shared. There was nothing to be said, not yet. They had no plans, no sense of direction.
Nonetheless, Chloe knew they needed to rest, or at least stop for awhile. So when she was sure that the distance between them and that wretched town felt practically infinite, she pulled them up to a hotel and paid for it with what little money she had on her.
When they were up in their bedroom, Chloe didn’t bother with pulling the curtains open. It was raining outside anyway.
She could only collapse on the bed and stare at the ceiling for a long while. Nothing could distract her, allowing for her thoughts to wander, her soberness worsening them. It wasn’t until she felt a dip in the sheets besides her that she snapped out of it and rolled over.
Within a matter of seconds, her arms were around Max’s waist, and her face was buried deep within Max’s shoulder. Before Chloe could stop it, that knot in her throat mercilessly untwisted itself, and forced her to release a choked sob.
“Oh, Max,” was all she could say, fingers pressing deeper into the back of the other’s jacket, “This is all so fucked. I can’t believe that- I just-”
Another sob broke out, and then another, and another, and another.
Empty, and then full.
She refused to stop looking through the window. When Max was little and one of her grandparents died, Max refused to actually see the man during the funeral. She was little, she was tiny, corpses were a big no-no. But her mother, calm and collected, explained that if we refuse to face the end of life, we’ll never fully understand it. That concept grew up with her, but she only fully understood it at the exact moment they drove away from Arcadia.
Max stared at every piece of destruction she had caused. At every corpse lying on the ground. I killed you, she repeated inside her mind. And you. And you. And you too.
It would have been selfish to share the burden with Chloe--- after all, she had been the one fate chased around, and she had been through so much death in her life she did not need something like this. So Max took it all. Made all the sacrifices, and decided to live with them, because Chloe was worth all of it and more.
The hand on her shoulder was the only thing that took her out of her misery, turning slowly to face her and flash the most weak, broken, but real smile she had. She didn’t smile to please Chloe or to ease her burden--- no. She smiled at her because she had changed. At the beginning of that week, Chloe had found her powers something awesome to play with. But at that moment, her best friend was just trying to be there for her.
She wasn’t entirely sure why, when or where the truck had stopped, but her first instinct was to follow Chloe around, and that she did. It’s cold, she noticed, before the realization that it was her damp clothes that were causing the cold. Before she fully understood what was going on, she was inside a room. Oh, hotel. Her body searched for Chloe’s warmth without her noticing, laying next to her and soon she felt her arms around her. It took her no time to wrap Chloe in a soothing hug, her hand running through her hair.
“I know... I know, Chloe, I know...”, she whispered, holding her as tightly as her weakened arms allowed her, “But right now, you’re all that matters. We’re always going to be together-- Always”
And she meant every single word.
kawasakichaoschloe:
Chloe shakes her head, stopping to take a long drink from the beer bottle in her hand. “Don’t give me excuses Max. So what? You came back to Arcadia for photography I assume? Stupid of me, I hoped you might come back for your best friend someday. You have no idea the hell these past few years have been Max.”
Chloe knows, she knows she’s being harsh on the girls. She also knows moving is tough, and Max had every right to settle in. But somehow, it hurts more than it should that Max hadn’t reached out to her sooner.
Taking a deep sigh, the punk opens the fridge, and retrieves another beer. “You’re not drinking that full cup in your hand, maybe try a beer. If you haven’t had alcohol before, hard liquor isn’t the best way to start. Also, a beer is a safe drink. Nobody can drug a closed bottle. Trust me, you need to be careful especially when the vortex freaks start to show up. I should know. And speaking of vortex freaks, I don’t know who you came here with, but you’re with me now. I don’t trust any of these Arcadia Bay assholes and if you don’t know enough about partying, it can be dangerous. I’ll stick with you and we can have some fun okay? Like old times. Welcome home Max.”
Chloe offer Max a warm smile and a bottle. She doesn’t know if it’s the alcohol already getting to her head, but Max had grown up a lot. And had grown even more crazy hot than Chloe remembered. Her hurt feelings would mend in time, right now, she was actually excited to be with Max.
The contrast between the physical changes, like her height, hair, and the way she barked orders at her just like she did then they were young was doing a great job at making a mess out of Max’s head. From one moment to another, Chloe was scolding her and then saying she’d protect her. Unpredictable, like she had always been-- Max realized then that maybe, her fears about not gaining back the precious friendship she had with Chloe were unfounded. After all those years, Chloe still felt like home.
She smiled at her as she took the bottle with both hands, as a child would. The words she wanted to say were stuck in the middle of her throat. The impact of their reunion took her ability to voice a simple sentence—- I came back for you. Do you really think I came back from Seattle because I love small town’s programs on photography? Arcadia Bay, of all places..? I came back for you, Chloe. Come on, say it, Max. I came back for you.
Oh yes, it was easy to say inside her mind. But another thing to explain out loud, so she settled for the things that were easier to answer.
“I came with Warren, one of my friends but I... kinda lost him. Parties can be way too confusing, and I wanted to avoid the members of the Vortex club”, she managed to say, her index finger tracing patterns on the bottle, “I’m... so glad to see you, Chloe”
fire-walk:
Chloe smiles, the relief breathed out audibly when Max tells her she won’t leave her. It’s comforting–the other girl’s presence is comforting. Maybe she doesn’t know where to start, but she knows there isn’t someone she’d rather start with.
And then Max tells her she needs her.
She likes the importance that seems to strengthen her heart, but not the way her friend’s eyes fall away.
We live together…? And even…?
The questions quickly give way to another. “…I left?” Chloe asks before she can even think about how she’s probably ramming right into the subjects she should go slow on. But something about the wording throws her off and she needs to know. “Like, to go grab something or…?” Something serious? Why would I leave you when I’m so worried about it happening the other way around? What if I’m scared because I did leave and regretted it? Because I don’t want you to go like I did? The thoughts twist horribly in her gut and her head hurts a little, but she gets the feeling that it will hurt more if she keeps wondering.
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It felt as if she could see the rainbow of emotions flowing from Chloe’s face, and there was no curse word big enough to scold herself with at this point. ‘Take it easy’ was the sentence she had repeated like a mantra inside her head to avoid pushing things with her, knowing she’d need her time, and there she was, pouring her heart out.
“We had... we had a fight. We argued because— well, things have been tough. We’ve been through a lot of shit together, more than you can imagine... than anyone with a sane mind can, actually...”
She took her time to measure every word she was going to say next, but at the end, it came out straight from her heart without a filter.
“And I kept... blaming myself. Refusing to... to share with you every burden I carried. And we argued. You had something in mind... Grabbed your keys, drove back to this town...”, she could feel her concern growing heavier and heavier inside her chest, “I called you and called you and called you and you didn’t pick up! And then Joyce told me what happened and... And I came here-- but you were right all along. And it’s my fault”
fire-walk:
How new Max was to this all only made it clearer to Chloe that Max was and is the best thing to ever happen to her. Because she couldn’t possibly know how much the ‘I love you’s between kisses do her in. Or how naturally their bodies find each other and fit together drive her crazy and make her feel loved all at once. It’s dizzying and Chloe has to actively remind herself that it’s new–that she probably shouldn’t open her mouth against hers just yet, and so she hums into the kiss instead.
“I love you too,” she breathes. “I love you so, so much, Max…” Chloe’s voice is a low whisper, overflowing with the truth of her words. Her thumbs continue to brush softly over her face as if she could imbibe the love right into her freckled skin.
And maybe happiness wasn’t something so far away, but the vehicle they’d get through in.
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She was, for the first time in what seemed an eternity, relaxed. After that fateful week, nothing seemed to have a real answer, never the peace of know she had made the right choice. Max had nothing even remotely close to real answers or peace. Right now, inside Chloe’s embrace, protected by her warmth and most importantly, her beating heart, Max realized she could finally bring down all the walls of protection--
And as she did, she felt sleepy-- she wasn’t entirely shocked about this. In fact, she had forgotten what it felt like to sleep well, or through an entire night. Feeling the wamrth on the sun on her back, she realized it was still early. The photojump had been made right before the funeral, so it couldn’t be too late. But Max did not want to fall asleep.
“Distract me”, she whispered, turning her face towards the thumb that brushed it, “I don’t want to fall asleep. I don’t want nightmares, not now that I have you...”
fire-walk:
Their words synchronize and Chloe can’t begin to describe what it does to her. The ‘was’ breaks her confused heart and the ‘am’ pieces it back together. What are we, really?
It’s hard not to focus on the way both of her hands are on hers now or how gently her thumb runs over her skin. To focus on what she’s saying instead.
Which is…hard to answer. There’s just so much there. There’s so much she’s feeling and she doesn’t even have the context. Because the memories are happy, she can tell, but there’s something aching there too. Longing. She wants to hold onto them and she wants more of them. She wants the rest of their past and also a future.
But it’s too much to say right now. She doesn’t know where it’s coming from or if Max is even staying for longer than this visit…
Her eyes steal a glance at their hands before they flit back up to Max’s. “Like…I want to know more,” she settles on. And she does. She wants to know everything about them…everything about her.
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Unable to take her eyes off Chloe, Max wondered if it’s the comfort that she’s alive and well or the fear that she won’t remember everything they’ve been through--- Probabilities said it was a mixture of both, because she was indeed gleaming with joy at the fact that she was alive. But the second one? The fear? Someone was going to have to explain time travelling, the death of half of the people they grew up with, the destruction of a town, Rachel...
“Then ask”, she tightened the hold on her hand, “I will never leave you, Chloe. You can ask me anything-- but you have to let me know if it becomes too much. You are injured and need time to heal, and I know you’re stubborn enough to push your limits just because you want answers but... please. Just know when your brain says stop, this is too much”
A mixture of both.
“Ask and I’ll tell you everything, but take your time to recover. I need you back, I...”, her gaze lowered to the floor, thinking of a way to make sure she took care of herself, and the idea “We live together, you know? We... sleep on the same bed and I... I haven’t done that since you left. I just can’t sleep. So I need you to get better--- for both of us”
fire-walk:
Even though she knows the answer, part of Chloe is still holding her breath. Like Max’s answer would change somehow between asking her to do this and answering her. But it doesn’t.
Max gives her not one ‘yes,’ but three. Three and a beautiful smile she hadn’t been seeing enough of. Three and a kiss to her hand.
God, only Max could pull her out from misery and into bliss so quickly. Moving her hands so both of them are cupping her face again, Chloe uses her thumbs to wipe away tears that she’s actually happy to see. Because she feels it too. It makes so much sense to her that home was never a place, but a person.
It took too long for her to realize that, so she decides to make up for lost time by pressing a kiss to her love’s lips. And, finally, she feels at ease.
@unangenoir
And each time Chloe’s lips touched hers, everything made sense again. Every little piece of the puzzle came together, and every touch made those memories of the storm, of her dead body, of her tears— all of them, just a blurry image with no connection to reality. Because she was there.
She was sure that the effect would only last as long as Chloe remained with her, in the most literal, physical way, acting like a shelter from the heaviest rain. A small piece of her mind, right in the back, started dreading the moment she’d have to let her go.
Rising her leg to tangle it around Chloe’s, Max returned the kiss with eagerness, a hand cupping her cheek while the other wrapped around her neck. “I love you...” her voice was a whisper, amplified by the silence of the afternoon but still just a soft murmur, as she dived in to kiss her again, “I love you”, she repeated, barely moving away from her lips and quick to press them again against her, her body making sure the arch of her back helped press her chest against Chloe’s, “I love you”
zodiac sign.
aries | taurus | gemini | cancer | leo | virgo | libra | scorpio | sagittarius | capricorn |aquarius | pisces
myers briggs.
ESFP | ISFP | ESTP | ISTP | ESTJ | ISTJ | ESFJ | ISFJ | ENFJ | INFJ | ENFP | INFP | ENTP | INTP | ENTJ | INTJ
four temperaments
sanguine | melancholic | choleric | phlegmatic
celtic zodiac.
birch (the achiever) | rowan (the thinker) | ash (the enchanter) | alder (the trailblazer) |willow (the observer) | hawthorne (the illusionist) | oak (the stabilizer) | holly (the ruler)| hazel (the knower) | vine (the equalizer) | ivy (the survivor) | reed (the inquisitor) | elder (the seeker)
soul type.
hunter | caregiver | creator | thinker | helper | educator | performer | leader |spiritualist
alignment.
lawful good | neutral good | chaotic good | lawful neutral | true neutral | chaotic neutral | lawful evil | chaotic evil
dark triad.
psychopathy | machiavellianism | narcissism
the animal in you.
lion | tiger | dolphin | bear | wild cat | fox | weasel | badger | dog | otter | wolf | sea lion| wild dog | walrus | gorilla | deer | rhinoceros | hippo | sable | horse | sheep |mountain goat | warthog | zebra | baboon | elephant | bison | giraffe | cottontail | mole | bat | porcupine | beaver | prairie dog | shrew | mouse | eagle | rooster | owl | swan |peacock | vulture | penguin | crocodile | snake | rabbit
the rosenberg self esteem scale.
0 | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 |23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30
brain lateralization scale.
left [ 51.6%] | right [48.4%]
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