Conner.

Conner Blake. A lot has changed since I've been here. And since I've been gone. I'm not the way I was before. [Conner's interactions are going to be extremely limited. Please read the disclaimer for more information.]

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Reunion.

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Cas pulled back to look into Conner’s eyes. “I’m having trouble believing this is real.” Cas said kissing him again. He ran his hands slowly down Conner’s torso, remapping things he thought he would never get to feel again. The dip under his ribs, the arch of his hips. With shaking hands, Cas moved to unbutton Conner’s jeans. “We…We don’t have to you know.” Cas said quietly. If Conner wanted, they could just hold each other. Cas knew what heaven was capable of, and he didn’t want to think about what could have happened to his mate there. At the thought, fierce love, and possession shot through the bond they shared, and Cas kissed Conner softly once again, waiting for his decision. 

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Conner was shaking a little, but he reveled in the touch. A soft, gentle touch he’d not been allowed in what felt like years. His skin felt hot and cold at the same time, something he couldn’t really understand. He was shaking a little harder when Cas’ hands made it to his jeans. His words had him pausing, as well. Then he shook his head. “Please.” He breathed out, looking up at Cas through dark curtains of hair. “None of this feels real. I haven’t… felt whole since we were separated. I don’t know if I will ever feel whole again, without our girl…” His voice got rougher as he spoke, the pain still fresh. “But I can have you. Just… please, just give me a reminder that this is real. That I have you. That they didn’t take everything. Make me forget it hurts, please, Cas.”

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Understandably. -She nods, still thinking about it and gently circling her thumb on her palm-

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[Conner looks away, biting his lip and taking a deep breath.] I should never have left... [He breathes, sighing softly.]

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"Conner." Cas said breathily, his name sounding like pure worship falling from his lips. With shaking hands, Cas tugged Conner shirt over his head, parting only long enough to remove it before kissing him again. Cas’ hand slipped back to the hand print, as he whimpered into Conner’s mouth. Gods there was so much need. Not just physical, though that was very real, but the need to feel the love pulsing through their bond, the need to give Conner some semblance of happiness, no matter how fleeting. That was all he wanted, was to give Conner everything he could give. That was all he ever wanted.

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Conner shuddered slightly as his shirt was pulled up and over his head. He bit his lip and then was pulled right back into the kiss, the other’s hand pressed against his chest, against that scar. He shuddered and groaned softly, biting at Cas’ bottom lip softly. But he was nervous, if that was even the word. He’d been denied any type of physical contact, even his daughter’s. All the pain they’d given him was emotional, mental. But it hadn’t seemed that way. He trusted Cas, though. He had to. Cas was the last solid thing he had. He pressed into Cas, and giving a soft whimper.

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Cas’ hand went up to tangle into Conner’s hair, kissing his brow. He tilted his mate’s head up to kiss him slowly, but heatedly, relearning his taste, his texture. His other hand slid to his hip pulling them closer together with a needy noise into his mouth. Teasing up along the hem of his shirt, Cas got a feel of bare skin with a shudder. Deepening the kiss, he breathed Conner’s name across their lips, before capturing his mouth again nipping gently before tangling their tongues once again. His love for the man in his arms flared across the bond, if he wasn’t holding on to Conner, it might have just knocked him off his feet.

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Conner shivered slightly, leaning into Cas’ touch, pressing into the man’s body. His heart raced and he took a deep breath, closing his eyes. He reached for one of Cas’ hands as it slipped up under his shirt. He kissed the Angel back and lead Cas’ hand up, shuddering as the love he felt from his mate shot through him. He guided Cas’ hand, beneath his shirt, to the raised scar that fit his palm perfectly, their bond. “C-Cas…” He breathed, leaning heavily into his mate.

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I don’t want to talk about it. -She swallows and lowers her hands, not quite looking at him.- How… are you handling it? -She winces-

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[Conner bites his lip but nods, accepting that. He looks away and laughs.] I d-don't know... Aside from swearing revenge on all but two angels.

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"I…I need you Conner." Cas said kissing along his jaw line. “Need this." He said, almost feeling ashamed that he craved the physical touch of his mate at such a dire time, but it was the way the bond worked. Which was why Cas was half way to dead anyways. The bond they had between them was brutal, Conner most likely didn’t feel the full affects, because he was in heaven, but once Cas was back on earth, it took it’s toll quickly, and now, that they were together, it demanded what it was made for. Craving the touch and love of the other. 

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Conner’s heart raced and his head fell to one side when Cas started to kiss along his jaw. He bit his lip, taking a breath and pressing into Cas. He didn’t know how ready for this he was, but he needed it, he did know that. He needed to be close to Cas, and he needed a distraction from the pain searing his chest. He ducked his head into Cas’s neck, moving so that he sort of straddled the man’s legs, just a little awkwardly due to their positioning. 

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-Miranda pulls her hand back and holds it to her chest, looking away- You’ve… missed a lot. Angels are clever for being so thick. They know things. Can do things. -She shivers again and edges back slightly-

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[He frowns slightly, but lets his hands fall into his lap, not chasing after Miranda, though he looks concerned.] Miranda… [He frowns, shifting his weight a little bit.] 

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-She swallows thickly, tears still streaming down her face, and pushes back his hair; his sudden arrival meant she hadn’t had time to put her gloves back on to hide the bandages- It’s not your fault, Con. I’m so sorry. I worried about you and her out there all on your own.

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[He leans into her slightly, still sniffling, doing much the same. He trembled ,though he noticed her hand and gently took her wrist.] W-What happened? [He hiccupped, momentarily distracted, though he almost smiled bitterly.] T-They f-found us before we g-got far… 

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Reunion.

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Cas knew it wasn’t going to be okay, he knew that it was going to be better with Conner here, that was for sure, but they were far from okay. Cas reached up with shaking hands and cupped Conner’s cheeks before moving into kiss him softly. He pressed against him nodding at the lie. “I know…I know we will be Conner." He kissed him again, it felt like a dying man in the desert finally being able to slake his thirst. His kisses grew a little more frantic, Cas sliding a hand into Conner’s hair. He wasn’t asking for anything his mate wasn’t ready to give, but gods he needed this.

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Conner felt tears starting to fill his eyes again. It seemed to come in shockwaves, little jolts of pain that made him shake. But he kissed Cas back, his hand sliding up around the angel’s neck, pressing his body close to Cas. Searching for warmth and something to keep him grounded. To keep him from falling into the darkness that pulled at him so insistently. 

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-Without a second thought she zaps them to the back, where she can pull him to sit, still not letting go. They took that innocent little girl, who hadn’t done anything other than be born. Her whole body feels numb—which is not a good thing, considering the last time she shut down like that. Miranda jerks, almost shoving him away before she stops herself-

[Sniffling a little he pulls back when he feels Miranda jerk, far too sensitive to movement now.] I-I'm s-s-so sorry... w-we t-tried... a-and now...[He tries to take a breath, to keep from starting to sob again.] I-I've b-been gone so long... A-and I come b-back with this news... 

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Reunion.

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"I love you too Con, god I missed you." Tears were running unchecked down his cheeks as he pressed in closer to him. Everything he never thought he would have again, and it was in front of him. “I missed you so fucking much, and they made me see you, and I hurt you…I didn’t mean to hurt you Conner, I swear, but I was confused and they made me think things that weren’t true." He babbled. “And I just wanted you, and to be home with you."

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“Shhh,” Conner hushed his mate softly, holding himself close to Cas and burying his head against Cas’ throat. “I’m here, we’re here. It’s gonna be okay… we’ll be okay.” That was a lie. With their daughter gone, nothing would ever truly be ‘okay’, but they would get by. They were strong enough for that. He buried his head into Cas’ shoulder and held the man close to him. “We’ll be okay…”

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Cas could feel Conner’s turmoil through the bond. Frowning he kissed his brow. “I won’t either. I promise Conner. I was stupid to think that I would be stronger without you." Cas sighed, and shook his head. “I just thought they would leave you alone if they had me." He was a fool. They were stronger together. Better as a team. “Forgive me?" Cas asked his breath hitching, tears forming in his eyes. “Forgive me please?" He asked sinking to his knees and wrapping his arms around his mates waist. “Please…please…I’m so sorry baby…"

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“Cas,” the moment Cas fell to his knees, Conner followed him, sinking down and wrapping his arms around Cas’ neck. “Cas, I love you so much. I wouldn’t have come back to you if I was angry. I love you, I couldn’t think of not forgiving you.” He mumbled, pulling the other close and kissing him hard. “I love you…I love you so much.” He breathed again and again, clinging to Cas.

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"My god, you must be exhausted." Cas said supporting him. He didn’t hesitate so transport them back to the house. Into their room, which neither of them had set foot in since Cas had left he suspected. He mojoed the room clean with a thought, and the space looked exactly as it had before….just before. 

Cas wanted to sob at the fact that Conner and him were together again. He was worried that this was just part of what heaven did to him, but somehow, even with the enormous tragedy looming over them, with Conner he felt more grounded. More stable. He ran his hands down Conner’s body with a smile, making him clean and healing  anything aches as he went. “Sorry, I feel like I need to touch you…So I can reassure myself you’re actually here."

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Conner almost laughed. Exhausted was an understatement if he’d ever heard one. He stumbled just a little bit as they were transported back into their old bedroom. His stomach hurt when he looked around at the memories that lingered here. Particularly the ones that involved Carrie. The first time he had held her in his arms, with his family around them… He took a deep breath, sighing and leaning into Cas’ touch. “I’m here, Cas. I promise I’m here. And I won’t leave again. Not if I can help it.” He murmured, leaning into his mate slightly.

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"Zack?" Cas asked looking confused. “Zack helped you." and now, he could feel it, that Zack had been around, he could feel it through Conner. “You…you trust him Con?" Cas asked. He wasn’t sure, but after Conner pressed his head against his shoulder he nodded. “Okay…Shhhh." Cas said stroking his mates hair. “So Zack is about the only person we know we can trust…" Cas said, and at least that was one more person than he thought they had on their side. 

"I think so too, but I wanted you to be sure." Cas said standing up and offering Conner a hand. It had been a long time coming, but even with the tragic events that had happened, with Conner back, he felt more home than he had in a long while. 

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Conner nodded without missing a beat. “He’s the r-reason I’m back. A-After they made him…” He swallowed thickly. “He would’ve s-saved her too, if he could’ve… b-but he’s the o-one who sent me back here. They were going to keep messing with my mind but he said no…” He breathed, shaking a little bit He nuzzled into Cas and took a deep breath. When the other stood up, he took the hand and stood with him, shaking slightly and looking around the garden, his eyes half-closed.

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He nodded. “They have no use for either of us anymore." Cas said pulling Conner in for a hug. He shook his head. “I’m so sorry Conner, I wasn’t strong enough, I wasn’t fast enough." He looked down and his mate with tear stained cheeks. “You’re right though Con, we were stronger together, and those sanctimonious fucks knew it." Cas growled lowly. 

Now, wasn’t the time. He just wanted to be with his mate. Conner. Nothing was even close to being okay, but at least he had found him. “I dunno if you wanna stay here… and sleep in our bed or…I have an apartment if not." He just didn’t know if Conner would want all the memories of their old home.

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“I don’t know about that.” He muttered, his eyes closing. “They seem to want us apart. B-but… but Zack… Zack’s helping…” He breathed, taking a deep breath. “He’s the one that let me back… h-he m-made sure sh-she didn’t…” His words caught in his throat and he buried his head into Cas’ shoulder. He still couldn’t believe Carrie was gone – or that Zack had shown up and helped. At least the best he could. He'd been sure after their last meeting Zack would want nothing to do with him.

He glanced up and smiled weakly, his arms tightening around Cas a little bit. “I think… I think we need home… even if…” He pursed his lips and took a breath. “Even if everything’s different.”

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"Y-you were in H-heaven too?" Cas asked shaking his head…and then it all made so much more sense. Why he was drug upstairs in the first place. They couldn’t have fought both him and Conner. He was the factor, so they had come to collect him. And they KNEW if Cas found out they had his mate and his daughter, well Cas would have tore the fucking place down around their ears. which is why they tortured him and kept trying to get him to tell them where they were. Of course Cas would never give in, which is why they tortured him. It was all an elaborate ruse to keep him busy, holding out, so they could murder his child. He growled lowly. How far the Host had fallen, he wasn’t even sure Lucifer was capable of such treachery. He kissed the top of Conner’s head. “I will make every last one of them pay for what they did to us, if it’s the last thing I do." Cas said lowly, his voice absolute.

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Conner nodded in response to the question, burying himself against his mate and shaking. Everything hurt. His head, his heart, every muscle in his body. Too. That meant that Cas had been there, been with him. Or near him, at least. He closed his eyes tightly, wondering if Zack had known. But he couldn’t have, he wouldn’t have kept him from Cas, or Cas from them. So this was something the angels had done behind the Archangel’s back. “We will.” He breathed, looking up at Cas. “A-And we’re safe now…”

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Cas kissed him back, grip tightening more, as if he thought Conner would simply disappear. He shook his head at Conner’s words. “I have no idea you were just…gone….and  I-" Cas looked around at the group of people who had stopped to witness the commotion they had caused. 

"We should go somewhere…less here." Cas mumbled. And how articulate could he not be really? He kissed Conner again, this time softly, and suddenly they were in the strawberry garden at their old house. It was on the market, but it seemed every time someone would put in an offer, there was something wrong with them, or their credit, or a slew of other things. Cas grinned, it was a bitter sweet smile. “I thought here would be a good place to talk." Cas said mojoing up a porch swing and tugging Conner to sit down. “Where have you been, I looked everywhere for you Conner. He slid an arm around him, refusing to give up the contact for even a second.

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Conner huffed a little bit and looked around with Cas, nodding just slightly and then returning he soft kiss. He looked around the garden, his brow furrowing a little bit.  It had been so long. He let out a shaky sigh and moved with Cas, curling into the other man’s side. Everything hurt. Physically and mentally. “Heaven.” He muttered, burying his face against Cas’ shoulders. “They took us to heaven. C-Cas… Th-they took her… o-our baby girl…” He whimpered softly, shaking slightly.