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#if u call urself a ‘communist’ in kerala and are not a maoist ur fkn useless ngl #the party today makes the life hell for literally everyone else

#tested negative for covid bichhh i can finally hang w my friends again 🥳🥳🥳#also my cousin’s non desi bf (not fiancé!!!) proposed tn!!!!#this is the first time ive seen this happenig in the fam here #good shit 💯#2022 is a good year #music #(now* fiancé!!!!)

Tbh im so glad im from a mallu christian fam (w my dad as my role model 🤣). Today i went to get a covid drive thru test, the dude at the window was some type of desi. My parents just always taught me to be kind to ppl. This man couldnt even look me in the eyes wtf 🤣🤣🤣 n in the end before driving away, i said thank u and waved, he was so flustered. Mf RELAX 🤣🤣🤣 wtf

#prolly north indian lmfaooo #mallus arent this weird i dont think??? idk my mallu friends i grew up w were never like this 🤣🤣

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#if theres commies following me. talk to me bro wtf #i want updates on whats going in back home. n i also wanna talk to u abt what my plan is for when i move back i need opinions on #if it’s dumb or not #esp mallu commies #From kerala lol dont rly wanna hear anyone else’s opinion hehe

There’s this one chechi, my 2nd oldest sisters friend in college in India, she’s so sweet. She heard that my other sis (4th one lol) was getting married in 2020. This was the first wedding we’ve ever had not in Kerala. She heard we were visiting india for a bit, wanted to come dress shopping w us for the wedding, told us what was in and out of style lol. So sweet. I was talking to her nonstop when we met lol just excited to connect w ppl who arent like. Idk weird n cliquey bc thats ltrly all the mallus in my state. Anyway, we’ve kept in contact since, she sends pretty pics she took of flowers n stuff? :”)) anyway i was talking to her abt how i plan on moving back eventually. How I’m trying to learn to read malayalam again but i keep giving up bc i have no one to practice w here. She was sending me pics of workbooks n was like. I can teach!! I dont mind. 🥰 anyway, havent rly tried in a while. She posted a selfie with the caption “with my students” and i was like ohhhhhh. That’s why ur such a good person hehe. Makes sense

#she was like. if u move back to kerala we can be best friends 🤞🏽#like bruh wtffffff ily #anyway i found a $5 work book #sent it to her. idc if she teaches me or not. she deserves a break from teaching lol #but i think it’ll make her happy hehehe

Literally so excited to move back. It’s not even gonna happen for like 3ish years?? But it gives me hope lmao

#rly need to try to learn to read malayalam bc going back n not being able to read anything is so fkn sad lol #before we moved here :/ i was Just learing the alphabet in kerala but i could read rly well??#kunjammachi always said i could be a teacher #depressing as hell thinking back now tho #gonna try to find some work books online

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#i am literally on a list in the US 🤣#fkn hilarious bc all i talk about is community care and mental health and trauma #that’s a threat here apparently??#people realize u have to take care of each other r lose their minds #oh noooo evil communism #dumb as hell #anyway. excited to moved back eventually #i have my dad n my ancestors tho so im chillin #god too #😎

The way that every qtpoc ik from college is struggling rn, cuz we have each other on our close friends on insta, but we were all too hurt and traumatized and kept triggering each other bc as qtpoc we have literally been traumatized our entire lives

#our love was so pure #how sick is it @ god to bring a community together. show us a love that pure. only for all of us to have opposite trauma responses #n hurting each other n not talking again

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#i think qtpoc finding each other n creating our own families is beautiful #but goddamn i wish we were all ostracized from our communities #actually the person i was talking to yest wasnt even qtpoc lmao #just such a good friend that inconsider them qtpoc in my head #WE WERENT* lmao #why would i wish for us to be ostracized. we already are

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#being qtpoc is so fkn exhausting just yesterday i was updating a friend on life and they were like. im glad things are better. but make #sure u protect ur heart. n i was like haha okie. ignored it. they were right #why do i have hope lmao #🤡

I’m moving back to Kerala. Made up my mind. Only after a couple yesrs of working here tho, so i can do useful shit back home

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I will be healing my entire family in 2022 bich n i will do it on my own if i have to!!!!!

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Nvm all these biches dumb as hell bro im not wasting my time

I will be healing my entire family in 2022 bich n i will do it on my own if i have to!!!!!

#including the extended ones that piss me off #theyre ltrly me. just brainwashed lmao

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#if i turn into an alcoholic it’s bc of my fam in the US im so serious #like damn now i understand why both amma n appai drinks every night

Debating if i stay here or move back at some point. As soon as i save up some money from this new job, im sending my parents back to Kerala. At least they should have some peace of mind. I think it would be more impactful if i work here and send money back home?? Instead of going back and doing some community work there. I fkn hate it here tho ugh

#i could move to where my sis is in in tx #huge mallu community. immigrants. working class #every time i visit im like damn. this is what it feels like to have a community?? lol #theyre so welcoming

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