1. I wonder if I've changed the way we are and could have been. Was it my hair? Did I not text you soon enough after? Is it you? Are you as unsure as I am? Are you writing these stories instead of messaging me? I don't like hypotheticals; and I'm still glad it was you.
2. It's not like any song or poem that I've heard. It's so different, every relationship; there aren't any boxes. I can't call it any name but I need many words.
3. I want to kiss your fingers and read to you my books. I want to hear your music and if we don't know each other by then, I'm okay with that.
4. Could you give me another chance to prove myself better? I don't really know how to ask you, how to slide back in. I'll try.
5. You seem so genuinely invested in our friendship. And you seem genuinely invested in my body. I'm happy for you to have both as long as neither falters. You're so genuine. So invested. When you leave me unsure I don't know what's up.
6.I used to want to see you embarrassed or exhausted. Somehow without your calm and without your charm. I only realised that it was as much you as what I wanted to see and what I wanted to see was in you around me often. When you told me about your fear and stress before the competition, crying, anger and your moral compass. I'm talking to your housemates. Your emojis. They were what I wanted to see and they didn't all into those two categories.
7. Are you still going to hug me and tell me you love me when we part? No matter how messy I was, one hour of an enjoyable night couldn't take that away.
I'm fooling myself again, but only in the way that seems least likely.
8. You're stories and music. I don't write poems for or about you because to me your are songs, and a reason to play them. Stories and the emotions and work with them. Wether trying to catch your eye, please you, or get you out of my system for you I'll write stories, sometimes inspired by yours, and play music for you for me.
9. When I am not with you my anxiety about you is so high. But then together I am calm.
10. I touched your hair after you got a haircut and you were chill with that. Most people I ask are weird about it, or act that way as if it's strange to do something so normal but so rarely asked. I dreamt that I was touching your hair and when I told you that instead of finding it weird I dreamt about you, your response was that I could touch your hair any time I liked. That's a risk for you considering you have such good hair. I told you that after too much wine, in what I was hoping would be a classic downtime as it's depicted in the films. You sounded unsure but you said 'cheers' and how I want to touch your hair
11. I fell in love with the songs you listen to like I fell in love with you. Let's be friends, less than more than, let's be us and our version of friends.
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