Vile💌 {lain irl}

☆But I won't stop until that boy is mine... ☆He/Him ☆I have Social anxiety [Super slow responses, I'm very sorry]

[underweightcvnt]

woo hi diary clicksns to see more of me venting and oversharing on this app 😳😳😮

uehhhb i feel so WORTHLESS 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥 i noticed this a bit ago but my friends seem kinda,, idk scared or ashamed to show me off like at all. I love showing off my friends i love postijg abt them and openly saying thar i love them. Its so painful scrolling on my secret tiktok acc snd seeing a bunch of ppl make appreciation posts or do fun little trends together w their friends knowing mine would lwk never do that. And if they did they'd quickly delete the video or whatever it is that they might do 🕊 but then i realized im probably a side friend for everyone so no wonder why nobody wants to show me off hello. Vile after being the most replaceable friend evr 😮😮😮😮 Vile after being NOBODY'S favorite 😮😮😮😮 Vile after being nobody's number 1 friend 😮😮😮😮😮😮 Vile when all his friends go ajd get new friends 😮😮😮😮😮 😮😮😮😮😮😮 i rlly only realized this when i was wonderinf when my tiktok streak w a few kf my friends would reach a milestone so i can post it to my story and show them off and add them all to my story highlights forever,, 😮🕊

😮😮😮😮😮 this entire post was wrtitten while i was bawlijg my eyes out owwwwww this is also reminding me that I'll never be seen as someones best friend whos cute and innocent and adorable and small oh okay 💥 "hi guys this is my friend Vile he only texts me every 80 days and hes a fat big old tall ugly thign but hes my friend" this is how i imagine my friende talk abt me 💔

[underweightcvnt]

I'm thinking of doing it tonight but I'll keep what it is a secret muahah

[underweightcvnt]

do you still love me

[underweightcvnt]

how the fuck am i supposed to cope w the fact that my best friends don't seem to gaf abt me anymore 💔 I think I got replaced I'm the side hoe now,,

I want to delete all my socials and try again wtf my life has 0 purpose now I have nothing to live for now 🕊

[underweightcvnt]

Hi diary, no i can't take this anymore the guilt is HORRIBLE its so bad its so ba ditssss so badd 😭😭😭😭💔😭💔😭💔😭💔😭 long vent okay

I don't know what I can do with my life anymore. I'm officially unemployed now hooray i guess? i dont know I feel horrible. I hate this i hate being an age regressor who can't even properly regress in a household like this I HAVE NOWHERE SAFEBTO GO?? i don't have anyone, anybody, who can take care of me like I need them to. what do i doo i always knew this so whenever i looked for friendships i was always hoping to get one where itd be someone who's constantly calling me 'cute' or treating me like a kid mayb,, i never got that treatment i don't have good parents i never got the care i really needed as a kid but i still feel so guilty and disgusting for being like this and havinf those wishes even tho I know they're completely innocent 🕊 owwww it's okay I'll be gone soon hopefully gulp. This is all especially difficult i want to talk abt thisbso bad with a friend but i dont know. I dont know I feel like theyd all be disgusted with me whag thr hell

[underweightcvnt]

happy birthday to me !

[underweightcvnt]

gulp,, hello diary 😳 new things to complain about, proceed w caution ok maybe tiny TW for the last sentence.

Boyy I wanna be seen as precious wthf oh my days im the worst kind of person to have as a friend or partner, i need daily almost hourly reassurances and reminders that u love me think im cute ajd stuff oh ok. I kinda miss when my brother would touch me almost everyday 🕊

[underweightcvnt]

i kinda like the fact that nobody really sees my posts and that i dont add tags to them, i feel like i have nothing to be afraid of when posting here,, (my personal diary). But what if i get too confident and post some super personal secret and EVERYONE on tumblr suddenly finds that specific post and i get doxxed oh okay

[underweightcvnt]

wanting to be seen as cute and small when Im an ugly beast is a nightmare GOD 😭 like okay i just wanna be held and taken care of and protected by someone is that too much to ask for? 💔 (can u tell that my parents never loved me)

[razorbladed-sugarcoated]

[underweightcvnt]

little secret I want to share tonight: i'm an age regressor AARHGUF IM EMBURRSSEDD... (lazy to add tags wow who's shocked 😅😅 nobody? Thanks, i love everyone, like genuinely i love all of you)

[ra1nysnowdrop]

for 玲音

[underweightcvnt]

i hate being dependent on other people to survive, like why do I at my grown age constantly need someone to take care of me (no tags im too lazy)

[dnaayu]

Pride duo shshsh

[underweightcvnt]

cradling my papas vape rn cuz he doesn't take good care of it 😢💔

[underweightcvnt]

Had my weekly realization today that I genuinely suck at EVEYRTHING, I have 0 talents absolutely none. I'm supposed to be good at art, I've been drawing since I was a toddler but no, I still suck ASS at art 💗 And on top of that I'm ugly too, aa thank you God I guess.

[underweightcvnt]

i don't know what to do with my life anymore lol 🪽 i ruined my only chance at this wow