deer in headlights rizz

sapphic aroace w AuDHD || vent acc for the brainworms i look at in the morning and decide theyre too embarrassing to share w my therapist || genuine warning this WILL cringe at times props to internet anonymity || occasionally shit id be bullied for by my friends so we're posting it on the secret alt

[the-mighty-dragon]

Wanting a romantic relationship as a (most likely) aroace not in a "If you want a girlfriend you can't be aroace, it doesn't work like that" kind of way but in a "I want someone to choose me. I want someone to choose me, day after day, for the rest of our lives, because they want to. I want to be someone's partner, I want to be someone's first pick, I want to be their favorite one. I don't want to be shunted aside in favor of husbands, wives, and kids, because our schedule changed, because we've moved on to different things. I want to be a priority. I want them to fight to keep me, I want to fight to keep them. I want to hold someone, I want to be held. I want to exist in their space, I want them in mine. I don't want to find out they mattered so much more to me than I did to them. I dream of a love so heavy it makes my spine throb." kind of way

[kosmogrl]

[universillyquiet]

anyone else craving physical intimacy like a dying man? but alas. aspec.

[juniper-petunia]

they should make a version of socializing that doesn’t make you feel like you’re still the weird 12 year old kid that doesn’t know why she’s not normal like the other kids

[guiltyidealist]

Am I demiromantic or am I an aromantic codependent who thinks codependency feelings are romantic feelings because of amatonormativity and the romanticization (lmao) of codependent relationships, behaviors, and attachments in media

[janeacular]

Inside I'll always be the little girl following around her best friend like a dog, seeing if I can figure out personhood before recess ends.

[stardial]

missing someone is crazy because you’ll have dreams that r like “we went on a nice walk together :)” and you’ll wake up feeling like you’re gonna throw up

[universillyquiet]

do I want a romantic relationship or do I want someone to promise to stay by my side and then not only take that promise seriously but also keep it

[universillyquiet]

"so who do you kin" a background character from a kids show that appears in exactly one (1) episode with approximately 5 whole lines.

[shadowhaert]

i wish i was easier to love

u.k / u.k / yves olade / japanese breakfast / ross gay / u.k / u.k / u.k

[stargirlsuicide]

his and hers drip 😻

[universillyquiet]

if I were to describe myself in three words, just from the top of my head, I would use mild-tempered, ashamed & lonely

there's something about the only positive trait being years of hard repression morphed into a character trait

[asoftepiloguemylove]

LOOK AT ME, LOOK AT ME, LOOK AT ME / BECAUSE I EXIST, I EXIST, I EXIST

Franz Kafka Letters to Felice // リリイ・シュシュのすべて All About Lily Chou-Chou (2001) dir. 岩井 俊二 Shunji Iwai / Phoebe Bridgers Funeral // Emily Palermo // Ocean Vuong Someday I'll Love Ocean Vuong // 堕落天使 Fallen Angels (1995) dir. Wong Kar-wai // Margaret Atwood // Bell Hooks All About Love // @mango-season // Mitski Nobody

[flyingchickennuggetbaby]

The pure pain, when somebody isn't giving you the same energy back, is killing me

[raposar]

A small series of sketches about severe co-dependency, each one was made during a meltdown last year.

[spaceventrilo]

No one talks about how much having a favorite person sucks. I'm attached like ATTACHED I will wait like a dog just for a "hi" from you. pay attention to me, look at me, tell me how much you missed me. My mood depends on how much you spend time with me. If you're upset I'm upset and overthinking and a mess just as you are. You don't understand how much that SUCKS especially when you get attached to someone who doesn't show you a lot of attention. I feel so stupidly dependent on you damnit it's your fault you have to make up for it >:(

[anxeious]