Do you ever feel like you’re jumping from one anxiety inducing environment to the next? I feel that way constantly and it’s suffocating me. It’s as though every time I try to catch my breath the ability I have to breathe gets weaker and weaker each time. It is hard to keep yourself functioning when you aren’t breathing in the amount of oxygen you need.
I don’t remember the last time I was able to breathe freely with my entire body feel light and not gasping for my air just to have more weight added to me.
Yes, I do want to be a psychologist but that doesn’t give people the right to take their trauma fueled anger out on me. And not right now when I’ll struggling to keep myself alive. To just be nice to myself. So just because I will try my hardest not to rise to your emotional state because that helps no body, doesn’t mean you keep going. I not prepared nor able to de escalate the situation properly. *plus I’ve had some wine. So please if you can’t do this right now or have me here then kindly leave my in my own anxiety bubble because I can’t handle being part of yours too.
I just need the world to fucking leave me alone right now. I’m holding on by tiny threads.
