oops i have got a name now - well, tradition dictates it

A journal page -- find me if you can

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goddamn juggling lab is gonna make me pick up juggling again

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sometimes self care is doing is anyway

i will eat so help me god

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Hyperacusis is a bitch, but I’m wearing earplugs under noise canceling headphones with music playing softly and I’m fully in control in my little sound bubble and maybe it’s ok actually

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She Ramanujan on my Summation till I “the series of all positive integers is equal to -1/12”

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Trick or treat?

TREAT!

591

BY EMILY DICKINSON

I heard a Fly buzz - when I died -

The Stillness in the Room

Was like the Stillness in the Air -

Between the Heaves of Storm -

The Eyes around - had wrung them dry -

And Breaths were gathering firm

For that last Onset - when the King

Be witnessed - in the Room -

I willed my Keepsakes - Signed away

What portion of me be

Assignable - and then it was

There interposed a Fly -

With Blue - uncertain - stumbling Buzz -

Between the light - and me -

And then the Windows failed - and then

I could not see to see -

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I am taking the Night Train

Which is like a normal train but at night and with beds

And you can go between two places that are far away from each other at night.

Isn’t that amazing?

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I love being aromantic and all

but also there's that little nagging metaphorical voice in the back of my head that says "All my friends, the people closest to me, everyone I want to share my life with, will fall in love one day and have their fairytale romance, and get married and leave me sitting at the kids' table" And then I spent years getting to the point where I was okay with that, all of it, finite is okay, second-best is okay, being left is okay, my love is not less meaningful, I will love in every way I can and it's okay if that's not enough, the kids table is probably the best place to sit anyways. And I didn't think that was fucked up, I thought that was the best I could hope for and now I'm here -- with you and a hope for forever -- and it isn't anymore, and I'm just now realizing that I was always, always bracing for impact.

I know I'll fall softly now. I can relax.

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Why is food so difficult?! I thought I had it down and now I’m hungry with normal hunger cues, no futzing about with secondary and tertiary clues and I CANT EAT. I’m standing in the kitchen and nearly crying and I can’t eat.

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Can’t believe this plan worked

Queer yearning

…

QPR

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Home [ˈhoʊm]

1. A voice next to me when I wake up

2. Domestic life simulator

3. I’ll make bread for you someday

4. You know who you are

“Home is where your heart is set in stone”

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Gods save Appalachia

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wow

people really need to love more things, it's so much fun

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I feel terrible, so it’s time for everyone’s favorite game show

What does my brain want from me???

A) go on a walk

B) eat a food

C) oh my god sleep

D) water

E) social connection

F) divine intervention

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Divine intervention could fix me

Or maybe just sleep i dunno

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If you saw me reblog things here — no you didn’t

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so much business today woah