Unpredictably_me

CW: 112 SW: 220 GW: 100

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F**K IT WE FAST

FULL STOP

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I am ready to have a nervous breakdown! I have been busting my ass nonstop and I lost inches in my waist, my boobs got a little smaller 🙃...but my THIGHS GOT BIGGER AND MY ARMS STAYED THE SAME!!!!!

I purposefully waited like 3 weeks before taking measurements!!!! I'm absolutely terrified to take my weight now especially since my period isn't fully over!

I CANT TAKE THIS WEEK!!!!! THROW IT AND ME AWAY PLEASEEEE 🗑🚮🥺🙏🏾

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I ate so damn much yesterday! Way more than I normally eat at least. I know I haven't slept for 2 days and that's what was making it impossible to not eat but DDDDDAAAAAMMMMMMIIIIIITTTTTT IM DOING SO GOOD!!!!!! i don't wanna go back....

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I haven't posted anything in forever! I've just been creepin like a creeper on here for awhile, but I have been fully invested again for over a month now and I finally feel like I will hit the goal that I have been trying for this time. I maintained, but it wasn't maintaining my goal.

I didn't even feel worthy of saying anything until I felt fully committed. I have consistently been intermittent fasting, going past my 18 hour fast mark, staying below my calorie limit and drinking way more water and way less soda which I never thought would happen.

This time I am really going to do it...I will really get there...

HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE!!! GAAAHHHH

[marxhmxll0wz]

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....yes

[thinmaster97]

Any 25yo+ active 4n4 accounts pls reblog ♥

[pinkblemishesblog]

girls be like: not eating (I'll either get skinny or die, both are good)

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I just lost my shit 💀

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I appreciate Tumbler as a place I can vent things that for the most part no one I know will ever see.

I'm sitting here watching a video on YouTube of a Korean woman going from basically my weight to almost my goal weight or getting close enough in a week!

I keep yelling in frustration as I watch the video because everything she is doing is basically what I have been doing for much longer than week. I know everyone's bodies are different...but it doesn't make it any less maddening that I am putting in the same if not more effort, but it's not translating to the same type of results I am watching happen on real time on the screen.

Sigh...I just want to be small...

[boyfrk]

[tinyself01]

Reminder, there is no such thing as a wannar3xic UNLESS it’s a person faking an 3D who isn’t scared of the c@lories and is just doing it to impress people, but can easily go back to 3ating whatever whenever.

You are NOT a wannar3xic because you @te a little over your limit or you @te maintenance for a few days or b!nged. It causes you extreme fear, when normally food isn’t supposed to cause fear.

You tear yourself up when you go over your limit or when you b!nge, that’s because you have an 3D. You can’t help it. It’s a mental disorder.

Something I’ve learned when I was in recovery is the reason you b!nge is because your body kicks into survival mode when it thinks there’s no f00d around for you to survive, so it’ll grasp what it can to keep you alive. B!nging is NOT your fault. You don’t have to blame yourself even though it feels like it’s your fault. Your body is just trying to keep you alive. (The survival instinct is carried onto us from our ancestors back when humans had to fight to survive and hunt for their own f00d)

In conclusion, you are not a wannar3xic. If you eat under 1,200/day (or higher but do high amounts of exercise), you ARE sick (3D). Because extreme deficits is not a normal thing for the average person. For non-sick people, 1,200kc@ls is considered d@ngerously low.

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I needed to read this today

[sk1nnylatte0]

lose the weight so you can scroll through thinspo and find your own pics <3

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This...so much this...

[sweetl-3-ss]

Unpinning when i’am at 55kg.

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I will change this for me. I will unpin once I am at 50 kgs.

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I ate way more than I was supposed to yesterday. I've been trying to keep it together and went from fasting every other day to doing 21:3, but yesterday was a mess. I don't even want to get on the scale today. I exercised as my husband would say "all day" to make up for it, but I ended up waking up in the middle of the night and eating 3 different snacks!

I don't want my butt to shrivel up and die like my boobs have but I want to get to my ugw. This balancing act sucks and having to make sure all of my kids and people in my life still eat as much as they are supposed to is starting to become harder now. I have to be a good role model and still look like I am eating without actually eating.

How the hell am I supposed to do that! My kids are starting to make comments that is telling me that I am not hiding it as well as I am thinking. Plus I am getting more exhausted in the middle of working out than I used to before. I want to not exercise today, but I am absolutely terrified. Plus I work with my parents so my mom is starting to ask if I'm eating and customers are making unending comments about how small I am WHEN I NOT!

THIS SUCKSSSSSSS....

[wannabeana555]

Me once I move out:

(I’m only half back btw- not dieting till new year)

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Hit me with the coke zero and then we are talking. Put a bunch of different flavors...I'm an adult why I haven't I done this yet!

[anxietyproblem]

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🙃

[deityblind]

Reblog if…

You’re doing it so you can be confident in public, but not for the attention

The weight loss is not for the gender you’re attracted to, but because you don’t feel attractive

You’re tired of people making petty comments about your weight

You want people to stop trying to put your weight in a sugarcoated box by saying you’re ‘big boned’ ‘thicc’ ‘more to love’ ‘curvy’, etc.

One comment sent you into the start of your ED

A traumatic experience caused you to gain weight that just wouldn’t come off

New medication caused you to gain weight

A Doctor, family, teacher, or friend has ever called you fat

You feel this is the only way you’ll truly be comfortable in your own skin

You’re lying to family & friends

You feel a little bittersweet when they comment on your weight loss

It started as a ‘diet’ that spiraled out of control

You know recovery is an option, but you don’t want to

You used to deny your eating disorder

🌪I want to follow the people who reblog this🌪

[dumbbitchdisaster]

I don’t think i’ll ever be able to truly let go of these thoughts. How do you lose a habit you’ve had your whole life…

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This hits so much! Everyone wants me to just be okay like I haven't had this issue since age 6.