An Unquiet Mind

[unquiet-mindx]

Concert was awesome. Having a male EMT trying to freaking chastise you for going to Vegas while pregnant was not. Umm 1) I’m only 14 weeks, 2) I live in freaking hot temps with humidity but grew up in dry heat like Vegas and know how to handle heat, 3) I kept out of the sun, 4) I kept well hydrated before and during the concert, 5) I wasn’t sitting there wanting to go back to the floor and was willing to consider finding a way back to the hotel if the venue couldn’t seat me in what I knew would be a downgraded seat during Rammstein’s portion because I know my body well enough to know when the ER is necessary. The female EMT was pointing out smells made her nauseated during pregnancy and my BP came down in a reasonable amount of time to fit with my theory that I overexerted because I love Korn and was dancing up a storm. For the love of all things good, guy, you’ve never been pregnant and a 29yo should know her body. I’ve had your level of medical training and was licensed to do it til I let it lapse due to no jobs in my area at the time. -.-

But I felt baby move for the second time the next morning. So, ha!

But I do know I will choose to sit out this year’s Aftershock festival despite wanting to see Ozzy and FFDP.

Shout out to the Toyota Amphitheater’s staff and the rest of the EMS personnel that night who helped me and knew my stats firsthand.

[animatorzee]

People will tell you that emotional abuse isn’t real and what you’re dealing with isn’t that big a deal and you’re just exaggerating, but let me tell you something.

If you’ve ever been wary of everyone you know, even people you trust, because you’re expecting them to get angry with you over literally anything, make fun of you, or start making threats, something’s wrong.

If you’ve ever had to plan things in anticipation of a potential tantrum that you fear will be taken out on you, something’s wrong.

If you succumb to someone’s demands because you’re never sure if their threats are empty or legit and you just want to play it on the safe side, something’s wrong.

If you find yourself jumping at smaller noises in anticipation that they’re a warning sign for a tantrum, something’s wrong.

If you hide things - especially things that make you happy - because you’re so afraid that they’ll make fun of you for liking them, scold you for liking something they don’t, take them away, destroy them, or that they’ll defile them and ruin that love you have for them, something’s wrong.

If you find yourself being silent in the face of mild disagreements or thinly-veiled insults, rather than standing up for yourself because you just don’t want to start an argument and make things worse, something’s wrong.

If that very lack of standing up for yourself eventually leads to you never offering your opinion in any sort of discussion out of fear of ridicule or being scolded because that’s what you’re so used to, something’s wrong.

If you end up spending a lot of your time in your room keeping to yourself and keeping any trip outside of your room to an absolute minimum because you don’t want to risk putting one toe out of line and setting off a tantrum, yet you’re also aware that hiding out will also cause an issue and you’re probably just minimizing the risk instead of erasing it entirely, something’s wrong.

If you ever habitually glance outside the window to keep watch for your supposed abuser’s car to return from their work, errand or trip, and then heading to your room or other hiding place to keep out of their way, erasing any obvious signs that you’ve been out and about in the rest of your living space, something’s wrong.

If one of your greatest fantasies involves not a dream career or winning the lottery but instead an escape plan succeeding, something’s wrong.

If you could basically summarize your life as living in constant, subtle fear, Something. Is. Wrong.

Emotional abuse is very, very real, and it has lasting consequences that can affect people’s relationships, their jobs, and their lives all-around.

Don’t you dare tell me it isn’t real.

[delcat177]

Okay but seriously please reblog because if I had seen this as a teenager maybe I would have booked it outta That Relationship instead of putting up with 14 years of hell and before the abuse escalated

thank you

[pottre-archive-blog]

[unquiet-mindx]

Hanging out with this guy while watching the Doctor Who premiere. <3

[unquiet-mindx]

Currently searching for....

My muse.

A TV show to sew by tonight.

Send halp.

[juvenile-reactor]

Fantastic hammer but niffler isn’t worthy

Drew sth strange again, about how to capture a niffler 

It’s gonna be crazy about Asgard lol

[littlecofiegirl]

This is way too cute omg

[unamusedsloth]

[star-spangled-jackass]

I was not expecting that last one

[unquiet-mindx]

I really hate how hard it is to get the actual brightness of the yellow to pick up. Silly phone camera. Now the work begins. Still need to get some lining for the orange and a bit more of the orange for the jacket. And thread for the Luna costume. But it's nice being at the point where you can start cutting out and prepping to sew.

[victorianimmortal]

Note to self: in order to write, you have to actually do more than stare at a Word document rereading what you’ve already written. For example, maybe typing new words would be a good strategy.

[nicasiosilang]

sounds fake

[shanology]

What about just thinking of new words in the shower does that count

[unquiet-mindx]

I haven't slept and I have to transcribe at 9. And I've been having paranoid and racing thoughts and I'm barely tired and it's hopefully not meaning I'm somehow going from down to hypomanic.... Blah. Hopefully I'll be able to nap when I get done typing today because, otherwise, I need to start being concerned.

[sherlockisntgay]

The man behind the powers. 

Source:

https://www.comixology.com/Superman-Grounded-Vol-1/digital-comic/337786

[sherlockisntgay]

Reblogging so more people can see this

[dusterluster]

so i started a new book

*drags hands down face*

[lilbittydragon-deactivated20241]

reblogging this again because this is from Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents and I’m reading it right now and it’s incredibly awkward to read about my entire life’s problems neatly described by a complete stranger

[unquiet-mindx]

Well, no more weekly dose of Damon.

Will admit I was hoping for a lot more from that finale after the emotional rawness of the goodbye after Kai wreaked his havoc and was a bit underwhelmed but still teary nonetheless.

[marauders4evr]

Finally!

We get to see Belle’s signature dress!

There’s nothing else like it! That design, the texture, the way it puffs out but manages to be elegant and regal!

Look at these cosplays!

Those are just cosplays!

Disney’s pouring 160 million dollars into this remake!

So tell me, Mickey, how did you and the gang manage to recreate the signature yellow dress?

…Ah.

[gamerphobic-deactivated20200727]

she looks like a banana tree

[unquiet-mindx]

I really need to eat but today is a, "Good job. You woke up," sort of day. But I do have to actually get up at some point for babysitting. Blaaah. Thankfully this kid is super easygoing so long as you keep cabinet doors closed.

[unquiet-mindx]

I’m planning to start #pumpkinqueenmadness’ human Luna cosplay tomorrow or Thursday.  I need to get one piece of fabric for her Aquaman cosplay, but I’ll grab that when the one I had to order comes in. Right now, as I try to turn my sleep schedule around, I’m trying to find a good costume study for Cersei.  A year ago, it was freaking easy to find an in-depth page of pics of the gorgeous embroidery work.  Now?  All the people who are more concerned about having a collection of pictures of all her costumes have made pages, so the others got buried.  And these pages don’t bother to get pics of the costumes without her in it, meaning her long hair covers a lot of the embroidery work.  I’m saddened by that and really wish I’d bookmarked the one I found a year ago. I can’t make Cersei costumes any time soon but I do have the pattern, so I figured I’d get a look at those sorts of details and kind of try to figure out the layers and types of embroidery thread I need to get and determine which of the three dresses she wears that are the same style as my pattern (a red and gold one, a sky blue one, and a black and gold one) I want to make.

[unquiet-mindx]

Ugh.  I am so tired of the baby bug.

Make it go away. *headdesk*