Faith.Hope.Love

It's about the Moments that take your Breath away..

[unsp0kengeml0ve]

sleepless night

dealing with a lot of pain right now, can’t sleep.  wide awake.  figured to write out whatever is going on in my mind currently.  

Do you ever wish that you could do things differently? like, maybe some events that happened , did you ever wish it could be done differently? ended differently? anything?  so many situations are running through my head right now and i wish some weren’t the way they are.. yet some have been out of my hands and all i could do is wipe them clean and keep it moving.  i don't know. may be its just me thinking this way. maybe i wish some people were still a part of my life, or that some things that happened didn't happen or ended another way than it did.  but then my life wouldn’t be the way it is now.  is my life better without it all? or would it be better if some things were different? neither i nor anyone could know the truth about that. all i can do is think what if and maybe say it is what it is and keep it moving along. 

[hplyrikz]

“I need a life that isn’t just about needing to escape my life.”

— Robert Polito (via hplyrikz)

[unsp0kengeml0ve]

Back from the hospital. Trying to rest up as much as possible. Dealing with this pain sucks. Luckily, tonight I’ll be able to take my mind off things and go out for the show. We need a night out since we’ve both been so busy with everything. Can’t wait.

[unsp0kengeml0ve]

TRUE OR FALSE?

the past few months i’ve been pondering on this.  

[hplyrikz]

Positivity Here

[purplebuddhaquotes]

Stop hating yourself for everything you aren’t. Start loving yourself for everything you are.

(via purplebuddhaquotes)

[purplebuddhaquotes]

Perhaps the most important thing we bring to another person is the silence in us, not the sort of silence that is filled with unspoken criticism or hard withdrawal. The sort of silence that is a place of refuge, of rest, of acceptance of someone as they are. We are all hungry for this other silence. It is hard to find. In its presence we can remember something beyond the moment, a strength on which to build a life. Silence is a place of great power and healing.

(via purplebuddhaquotes)

[unsp0kengeml0ve]

2O2O

i’m back again. the year is 2020. goodbye to 2019. full of tears, heartaches, happiness and smiles. 

Where did 2019 leave me? still the same old me. still indecisive in soooo many things, still the wonder woman mama i can ever be. Still in my relationship which has so much work to do. 

Where do i begin????

Today is January 21 2020. as i’m sitting here on my bed trying to figure out what life is right now.  Lately, i’ve been feeling like i’m being pulled to so many different directions. trying to stretch myself out thin.  I still don’t know how i can do it at times. So much stuff on my plate, and me already being the type of eater that i am. it sucks trying to balance everything.  I try to be the best mom i can, the best version of me, to be the best girlfriend i can try to be. best sister, daughter, cousin, niece, etc.  Life will always have its ups and downs.  I can only do whatever it is i can handle.  Lately, i’ve been getting myself into bible studies.  I figured that I get in touch with God, that maybe some of it will rub off on me.  I can only do as much as i can.  sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.  Hopefully this year i can get in touch with myself and work on a better version of me.  Let’s cross our fingers and hope for the best. 

To a new me this year.  Still a work in progress. 

[unsp0kengeml0ve]

I hate that I feel ugly. Look ugly too. I hate it all. Shit sucks.

[unsp0kengeml0ve]

Been a while...

It’s been a while sine I’ve written in here.. I can come up with many excuses, but none would matter.

Tonight, or should I say today, something told me I just need to let out everything I’ve been feeling. Maybe it will lift some weight off my shoulders that I’ve been carrying...

[unsp0kengeml0ve]

[thepersonalquotes]

[unsp0kengeml0ve]

How do I feel??

Cen is a very observant person.. she loves people watching and see how people are & see their body language.. She definitely loves telling me how she observes things in our surrounding..

She did bring up a particular one today & since then it’s been on my mind...

She started talking about how gogo gadget is whenever we’re both around.. she threw the L Word at me 😖🤦🏻‍♀️

I told her that scares me. And that she’s probably reading him wrong because we’ve been friends for soooooo long. Then she went into detail & then asked about me.. I’m not gonna lie.. do I? Yes. But is it the type that’s more or less? Idk..

So how do you determine which is it??

It made me think a lot.. how much we talk, see each other, us trying to find time together. I’ll be honest, it’s been hard the past month & he has been nothing but understanding with EVERYTHING. And trust me... I hate that I’m difficult at times.. it sucks.. but he puts up with it.. more than he has to. he’s too much of a great guy & always has been. Always looking out for not only me, but the kids as well. BFF is too good to be true & still think how I got so lucky.. hmmmmm.....

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“It’s important to keep your feelings and self worth in different places - because when your feelings get hurt, it shouldn’t view the way you see yourself.”

—

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“Trust yourself. You have survived a lot. And you will survive whatever is coming.”

—

[schaax]

I’d rather have an enemy who slaps me in the face than a friend who stabs me in the back.

[unsp0kengeml0ve]

💯

[schaax]

The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.