Yeah, I have anorexia

[Pro anything • -18 • Argentina • hw:77.9kg• cw:69kg • gw:63kg • ugw: as low as I can]

[reifaun-deactivated20180520]

[unstoppmind]

I'm back on tumblr after a long time, my mom noticed that I wasn't eating and started to force me to eat, she even planned to intern me, I apologize for being absent.

Sorry if I have any misspellings, english is not my native language

[pr1nceshawn]

Tips That Can Save Your Kid’s Life.

[hiddlesherethereeverywhere]

THIS IS IMPORTANT 

When I was a child, from the time I was about four and could understand things, my mom told me and my brother that we should have a secret word. That way, if we were ever in trouble or felt unsafe and we didn’t want the people around us to know we needed her to come get us, we could let her know. So she let us pick the word and my brother and I chose the phrase “peanut butter cups.” (I’m happy to share the phrase now since both my brother and I are adults now). 

I used the phrase twice in my life. Once, I was at a friends house when I eight years old. Her dad got really drunk and was throwing things against the wall. I was really scared and I didn’t want to draw attention to myself on the phone when I called my mom to come get me because I didn’t know if he would get more violent if I asked her to come get me. So I called her and was calm and after a couple minutes I asked “Hey mommy, did you get me those peanut butter cups from the store?” And she said “I’ll be right there.” And she came and got me within minutes. 

Second, I was a teenager spending the night at a friends house. Her brother and dad were drinking and they started talking about things that made me uncomfortable - ie: what they liked to do to women. My friend didn’t seem perturbed and said that was normal for them and that I shouldn’t worry. But I was worried because they were really drunk and I was 15 and the only ‘woman’ around that wasn’t related to them. I went in my friends room, told her I needed to call my mom and say goodnight. Before I hung up with her I asked “Next time we go to the store, can we get some peanut butters cups? I’ve been craving them.” And she came and got me, just like that. 

Two incidents, one as a young child, one years later as a teen. Don’t discredit this stuff, it fucking works. My brother used it a few times too. Let your child pick the word and no never, ever, ever, ever get mad at them for using it no matter what it is. 

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DO NOT SCROLL PAST THAT.

[honeybeehusky-blog]

Off topic, but very important! I was taught to yell “this is not my mom/dad.” A young kid freaking out in public is likely to be ignored out of embarrassment, but a kid telling you right out that they don’t know who is messing with them? That will turn heads.

[tkthegoddess]

Reblog this.💯🗣💋

[jaggedrib]

im so happy cringe mukbangs exist

[anxietyproblem]

[deityblind]

Reblog if…

You’re doing it so you can be confident in public, but not for the attention

The weight loss is not for the gender you’re attracted to, but because you don’t feel attractive

You’re tired of people making petty comments about your weight

You want people to stop trying to put your weight in a sugarcoated box by saying you’re ‘big boned’ ‘thicc’ ‘more to love’ ‘curvy’, etc.

One comment sent you into the start of your ED

A traumatic experience caused you to gain weight that just wouldn’t come off

New medication caused you to gain weight

A Doctor, family, teacher, or friend has ever called you fat

You feel this is the only way you’ll truly be comfortable in your own skin

You’re lying to family & friends

You feel a little bittersweet when they comment on your weight loss

It started as a ‘diet’ that spiraled out of control

You know recovery is an option, but you don’t want to

You used to deny your eating disorder

🌪I want to follow the people who reblog this🌪

[unstoppmind]

My stomach: Did you hear that? IT'S ME, I'M HUNGRYYYY

Me: *drink 5 glass of water*

My stomach:

[dont-eat-emmeline]

Stop shaming people with EDs for sometimes not being able to stick to a tiny calorie limit.

Many us are young and living with our parents and can’t exactly get away with skipping every meal or eating a suspiciously small amount for days in a row. Many of us have parents who cook food for us and we can’t deny it. Many of us have to eat at restaurants and can’t just not order anything. Many of us have big family gatherings where we have to sit down for a meal. Many of us rarely have the chance to fast all day. Many of us are in situations where we can’t always control what we eat and you know, that’s already painful enough for us without other people shaming us for it, okay?

[i-ran-over-the-easter-bunny-dea]

Here’s the other thing: There is no calorie limit where you suddenly have an eating disorder. The diagnostic criteria for a restrictive eating disorder is eating under your daily maintenance. Not eating 500 calories a day. Not 800. Not 100. Under maintenance.

You can be eating 1500 calories and still have a restrictive eating disorder. You can be eating 1500 calories and still be diagnosed with anorexia.

Take me, for example. When I was diagnosed with anorexia, I was eating 1500 calories a day. I was underweight for my height (I was hovering around 100 lbs). I exercised a lot, but my daily calorie deficit was about the same as a regular person who was just trying to lose weight. I was eating 1500 calories while burning a total of about 2000 calories a day (a 500 calorie deficit).

I still was diagnosed with anorexia because I had a fucking restrictive eating disorder. It doesn’t matter how much or how little you consume, or how much or how little you exercise. The main criteria for eating disorders are a warped perception around food, your body, and an obsession with weight.

[sansastark]

a weird thing about having developed mental illness at such a young age is i honestly don’t know sometimes how much of me is a symptom and how much is down to personality, like i honestly do not know my core self and it troubles me A Lot

[skinnybird16]

Who else is laying in bed… Scrolling through tumblr… Hating themselves… Wishing they were skinny

[aanaamiarhyeislo]

“If you don’t eat youll go into starvation mode”. “That can’t be healthy”. “Youre only doing it for attention”. “You know, guys actually prefer…”

[zanytrickster]

Me:*walks into a party with cuts and bruises*

Someone: Damn, you look like you’ve been fighting!

Me: I’ve been fighting depression for 5 years, Brenda. Thanks for finally noticing.

[laxatives-n-roses]

Reblog if you have an eating disorder but no one realises or cares because you don’t fit the “criteria” ✨

[ba6a]

amazing

[angelic-scale2]

Hourly thinspo✨

[godhatesbrooklynn]

Need Ana friend

🍓ages 13-17🍓

🍓We can vent to each other🍓

🍓Be honest about binges and calories🍓

🍓Any gender🍓

🍓We can message on here or wherever you want🍓

[blood-drops]

They call you fat, then ask you why you're not eating.

[macrescit]

anybody else have an ED bc of their mom?

as long as i have remembered, my mom has been obsessed with losing weight and fad diets

she has always been the first one to comment on what im eating and how much, especially after i’ve had my growth spurt when i was 9

in my teens she would ask me how much i weigh just so she could tell me that she weighed 2kg less than me - she was so proud of herself when she did that, when she realized that she couldnt hand me down her clothes bc they were too tight

now that the situation has inverted and i am the skinnier one for once, i also feel the same weird pleasure when we compare weights each morning and i weigh less

the cycle repeats, i guess.