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cameron   huxley   (   evan   roderick   fc,   28,   lawyer   )

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an   eyebrow   dances   up   on   cam’s   forehead   and   he   tries   not   to   feel   irritated   by   seeing   her   here   .   yet   ,   the   slight   paranoia   itches   in   his   chest   .   it   shouldn’t   .   there   was   no   need   for   it   (   not   here   ,   not   in   a   public   place   ,   not   at   the   gym   where   he   could   have   run   into   anyone   )   though   he   could   only   assume   ,   even   if   falsely   ,   that   the   encounter   would   turn   into   a   good   gossiping   session   for   her   and   the   other   residents   of   glenn   allen   .   at   least   those   who   lived   here   long   enough   to   care   .   .   .  

❝   following   me   or   something   ?   ❞   dirty   blond   throws   the   gym   towel   over   his   shoulder   after   he’d   rubbed   it   through   his   hair   ,   leaving   it   spiky   and   standing   away   from   his   head   .   @svrvivrs

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❝   you’re   not   eyeing   up   her   ,   are   ya   ?   ❞   cam’s   eyelids   hang   low   as   he   follows   the   direction   in   which   the   other   man   gazes   to   a   girl   he’s   known   since   high   school   .   a   girl   who   grew   in   town   much   like   he   did   – a   girl   who   was   invisible   for   him   much   like   all   the   other   girls   he’d   gone   to   high   school   with   and   laid   later   once   he   and   ada   were   broken   up   .   now   they   all   vanished   in   a   pool   of   faces   he’d   shared   bed   with   before   .   ❝   you   are   ,   aren’t   ya   ?   ❞   dumb   smile   growing   wider   .  

❝   i   can   introduce   you   ,   man   .   no   problem   .   ❞   drunk   blond   landing   his   hand   on   the   other’s   shoulder   to   squeeze   it   .   ❝   come   !   ❞ @scre0m

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❝   gonna   buy   those   ?   ❞   dirty   blond   points   at   the   last   box   of   fruit   loops   the   guy   holds   at   hand   .   his   own   fault   to   have   gone   shopping   last   minute   before   it   was   his   weekend   of   parenting   .   his   fault   .   like   everything   always   was   .   and   yet   .   .   .   somehow   probably   still   more   relaxed   to   rush   through   the   store   within   just   half   an   hour   than   to   rush   through   the   store   within   just   half   an   hour   with   a   toddler   stopping   at   every   other   aisle   because   ‘   daddy   can   i   have   this   ‘   and   him   battling   the   big   brown   eyes   to   saying   no   because   he   knew   ada   would   not   be   happy   about   it   .  

but   these   –   the   fruit   loops   –   the   treat   his   ex   allowed   ,   he   needed   to   get   them   .   ❝   is   the   last   box   .   you   gonna   buy   them   ?   ❞ @jasperlapintine

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cam   huffs   almost   ,   an   eyebrow   up   on   his   forehead   .   ❝   not   who   you   expected   ?   ❞   even   though   he   was   exactly   who   to   expect   around   here   –   at   the   club   ,   amongst   drunk   people   and   partying   crowds   .   here   ,   where   he   could   pretend   to   be   anyone   but   who   he   actually   was   .   ❝   who’re   you   looking   for   ?   i   can   help   you   out   .   or   not   .   and   we   could   grab   a   drink   instead   .   ❞   nudging   him   in   the   side   slightly   ,   cam   careless   enough   to   be   easily   distracted   .   @thrustfists

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❝   what   ?   ❞   cam   snarls   ,   not   quite   the   sound   of   a   cornered   animal   but   something   of   the   sort   covered   with   the   weak   attempt   to   try   and   stay   cool   .  

rationally   ,   he   could   force   himself   to   think   no   one   was   staring   .   not   because   of   that   at   least   –   not   because   they   still   saw   the   picture   of   him   with   that   girl   when   they   looked   at   him   .   but   irrationality   battled   against   that   belief   .   pushed   ,   pushed   ,   pushed .   .   .   and   with   this   guy   he   certainly   knew   there   was   nothing   but   animosity   between   them   .   ❝   what   now   ?!   ❞   @pclarcld

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the   room   was   spinning   .   fck   ,   had   it   stopped   spinning   since   that   first   night   he   and   cubs   had   met   up   –   back   then   a   young   friendship   between   two   half   grown   boys   ,   now   two   half   grown   adults   who   hadn’t   broken   their   routine   since   they   started   .   talk   about   stamina   .   cam   had   always   seen   his   resilience   in   other   things   (   the   gym   ,   loving   her   ,   being   a   good   son   ,   a   good   student   .   .   .   or   something   )   but   it   appeared   this   was   his   true   calling   .   it   appeared   that   once   tequila   was   served   and   hands   of   strangers   on   his   body   ,   only   then   he   met   his   vocation   –   became   the   man   that   father   now   saw   in   him   ,   despised   and   rejected   .   was   there   even   a   way   back   at   this   point   .   .   .   

❝   one   more   .   let’s   go   .   ❞   dumbly   smiling   ,   the   blond   gestures   towards   the   bartender   to   serve   cubs   and   him   yet   another   round   .   ocean   eyes   glancing   over   to   his   mate   ,   vision   blurry   but   not   blurry   enough   for   him   to   forget   what   he   was   doing   (   or   who   he   was   and   what   he   sought   here   )   .   ❝   talk   to   anyone   you   like   yet   ?   club   seems   dead   today   .   .   .   ❞   @cubsszbuska

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(   evan roderick  +  male  +  he/him  )     ⸻    meet   cameron  huxley.  the  lawyer  at  glen ellen law is  glen  ellen's  very  own   nepo   baby,   who  has  been  in  town  for  twenty   eight   years.   while  they  are  only  twenty   eight,    they  can  be  very   tactless    but  if  their  friends  mentioned  them,    you'd  think  they  were  more  resilient.   in  a  town  where  every  one  knows  everyone,    it's  hard  to  keep  a  secret,     but  i  think  the  killer  knows  that   he   [ ... ],     and  it's  bound  to  get  out  sometime  soon.  

basics:

full   name:      cameron   huxley nicknames:      cam gender:      cismale pronouns:      he/him sexuality:      bisexual age:      28 (october 25th) zodiac   sign:      scorpio residence:      lives   in   a   condo   by   himself occupation:      lawyer inspiration:      carmy   berzatto   (the   bear),   jay   white   (aew),   emily   thorne   (revenge),   thomas   shelby   (peaky   blinders),   eddie   brock   (marvel),   annalise   keating   (how   to   get   awy   with   murder)

appearance:

height:      1.85   m piercings:      an   earring   on   the   left   side   which   he   doesn’t   wear   often   anymore other   distinguishing   features:      has   light   freckles   around   his   nose   and   cheeks   which   come   out   more   in   summer

personality:

traits:      spoiled,   lies   more   often   than   he   doesn’t   – mostly   for   his   own   benefit,   resilient,   comes   across   distant   and   cool   because   trust   and   daddy   issues   have   taken   over,   irresponsible,   fails   to   find   good   words   to   describe   his   feelings,   sleeps   in   late   when   he   can,   prone   to   unhealthy   coping   mechanisms   to   keep   his   mind   busy,   bitter   that   he   did   not   get   to   follow   a   career   that   he   actually   likes,   gets   stubborn   when   he   feels   pushed   into   a   corner mental   health:      4/10 physical   health:      9/10 likes:      playground   hours   with   babygirl,   the   color   blue,   wine   over   beer,   night   over   day   time,   silly   humor,   rock   music dislikes:   responsibility,   family   time   with   the   parents,   university   from   the   inside,being   asked   too   many   questions fears:      the   fear   to   disappoint   again,   the   fear   that   ‘this   was   it   –   this   is   life   now’ hobbies:      ice   hockey,   bar   hopping skills:      writing   –   whether   it’s   letters,   poems,   stories,   ice   skating,   running,   persuading   people,   keeping   secrets pet   peeves:      jaw   cracking,   strangers   standing   too   close,   facetime   or   calls   on   speaker   in   public

faves:

ice   cream   flavour:      chocolate time   of   the   day   /   night:      night weather:      crisp   winter   days breakfast   food:      eggs   benedict dinner   food:      pasta   tartufo colours:      blue songs:      don’t   you   remember   – s4lvati0n

bio   &   about: ( tw cheating )

cameron   has   a   good   heart   however,   it   is   often   corrupted   by   expectations   others   have   in   him   that   he   wishes   to   fulfill   but   feels   like   he   cannot.   before   even   getting   together   with   his   girlfriend,   his   father   was   prone   to   push   him   into   the   family   profession   when   he   had   dreams   of   his   own   and   wished   for   a   career   in   sports.   since   he   is   an   only   child   however,   dad   would   not   allow   him   to   chase   after   it.   as   a   silent   apology   dad   would   always   make   sure   to   spoil   his   son,   opening   him   all   doors   necessary   to   become   a   lawyer   –   even   if   that   meant   unusual   ways   to   get   cam   to   graduate   and   find   a   job.   the   ultimate   goal,   the   big   case   dad   wants   him   to   get   on   and   win:   put   the   mysterious   killer   of   glen   ellen   behind   bars!   all   while   maintaining   a   facade   of   a   perfect   family,   of   course,   which   is   why   when   cam   gets   caught   cheating   on   his   girlfriend   in   a   club   he   ends   up   doing   nothing   to   protect   him   –   too   disappointed   to   intervene.   once   the   pictures   hit   the   internet,   social   media   did   its   thing   and   the   family   would   start   distancing   from   cam.   

for   cam,   there’s   just   one   way   to   regain   father’s   benevolence:   do   what   he   wishes   until   he’s   forgiven.   

even   though   he   has   brought   the   situation   upon   himself,   getting   caught   in   the   act   has   made   cameron   paranoid   in   public   settings   and   the   knowledge   of   a   callous   serial   killer   wandering   amongst   them   who   he   is   supposed   to   get   sentenced   (   as   wished   by   his   dad   )   does   necessarily   help   with   that.   as   a   reaction   to   the   paranoia   cam   has   gotten   secretive   and   lies   to   get   himself   out   of   situations   that   make   him   feel   unsafe   (   or   any   situation   in   general,   really ).   he   has   never   lived   outside   of   glen   ellen   but   with   the   rope   slowly   tightening   around   his   neck   the   question   remains   …   fight   or   flight   ?   and   with   his   daughter   still   reminding   him   that   there   is   love   left   in   his   heart   and   someone   more   than   worth   to   keep   fighting   for   …   he   will.

history:

things   weren’t   always   like   this.   cam   wasn’t   always   like   this.   wasn’t   always   so   distant,   so   reserved,   so   disinterested,   so   self-centered.   and   while   he   had   learned   to   detach   himself   from   that   old   self,   from   that   young   boy   who’d   make   his   parents   with   silly   faces,   made   his   friends   care   because   they   could   count   on   him,   because   he   wore   his   heart   on   his   sleeve   …   while   kept   all   of   it   a   faint   memory   …   it   was   still   there   within   him   –   buried   beneath   the   cruelty   of   adulthood,   of   growing   up   before   he’d   been   ready   for   it.   

they   had   finished   school,   excited   for   their   future   – high   school   sweethearts,   sworn   to   stay   together   no   matter   what.   the   challenge   before   them   though,   too   much   for   two   young   adults   who   still   had   to   find   the   right   direction,   still   figured   out   who   they   wanted   to   be.   nine   months   later   cam   had   just   agreed   to   follow   in   his   fathers   footsteps,   had   gotten   into   university   to   gain   a   degree   in   law   –   to   be   prepared   for   the   responsibility   that   they   both   faced   now.   parenthood.   truly,   money   was   not   the   issue   in   it.   it   never   was.   before   they   could   run   short,   dad   would   be   there,   mom   would   write   a   check   – nah.   money   wasn’t   it   even   though   they   were   students   still.   

pressure   grew.   and   that   truly   became   an   issue.   pressure   for   good   grades   to   make   his   family   happy,   pressure   to   spend   as   much   time   as   possible   with   his   girlfriend   and   daughter,   pressure   to   maintain   social   standards   and   the   pressure   of   having   all   those   eyes   on   him   that   expected   him   to   carry   on   his   family   legacy.   

the   more   cam   got   caught   in   the   pressure   …   the   more   distance   he   felt   to   her,   the   more   distance   he   felt   to   himself   and   the   lesser   he   felt   like   he   could   be   himself.   the   world   he   was   born   into   wasn’t   made   for   lovers,   wasn’t   made   for   goofy   boys   who   got   by   with   their   charm.   and   it   was   the   world   his   daughter   was   born   into   as   well.   it   was   the   world   the   huxley   family   had   created.   

one   time.   cameron   slips   one   time   and   it   costs   him   everything.   just   a   night   out   with   the   boys,   just   a   little   distraction   from   the   pressure,   from   the   expectations,   from   it   all.   she   is   beautiful.   the   way   she   dances   for   him,   her   hands   on   him,   her   voice   in   his   ear,   her   lips   against   his   ..   so   easy   to   get   lost   in   it.   easy   until   someone’s   flash   goes   off   as   they   take   a   picture   of   him   and   the   woman   who   definitely   wasn’t   his   girlfriend   –   position   promising   enough   to   tell   what   direction   their   dance   was   headed   in   to.

it   was   tough   to   tell   which   part   of   it   all   was   the   worst:   watching   her   move   out   with   their   daughter,   father’s   response   to   it   or   the   burning   hangover   as   cam   tried   to   sit   through   it   all.

things   change   after   that.   cameron   changes   after   that.   buries   a   version   of   himself   that   had   no   place   left   in   this   world   –   buries   undigested   feelings,   unresolved   situations,   buries   all   that   the   money   of   his   family   cannot   solve   because   in   truth   …   fixing   what   he   had   broken   is   too   frightening   to   try.