Irrelevant But Still Speaking

For all the people who don't matter

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Stop the toxicity, it’s hard but hopefully possible

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Toxic Reality

I get upset from something personal

You expect I’m angry at you

I respond with I’m upset that I’m not close with my friends or family anymore

You says “it’s about me”

I say I’m freaking out

Like it matters

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Hate.

i hate you, i hate me, i hate everything

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Fuck.

Fuck You, Fuck Me, Fuck Everyone Else

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I’m in a position to do whatever the fuck I want but nothing I want to do

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Me.

So afraid to sleep right now. I just had the worst set of nightmares back to back, or sleep paralysis I’ve personally ever experienced. I was finally able to get tired and go to bed, as I shut my eyes and start to dose off I begin to panic because my brain feels as if it just snapped awake and everything in the room is the same my man is still sound asleep but it’s not silent. I can hear voices saying to stop and yelling in the background. Obviously I’m terrified and want to wake up but then it gets worse because now I realize I can’t move, I’m stuck and I can’t say help because I have no voice anymore. The more I freak out the worse the yelling gets. I soon snap out of it and wake up but only to fall back asleep 2 more times to repeat the same nightmare. I guess I’ll just never sleep again.

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Me.

Tbh it’s really not that bad I’m just a dramatic ass bitch.

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Hates myself.

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I’ve been doing this a while. And not a day goes by where I don’t think about ending it all

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I wish you supported me like you support him.

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Me.

Not ok.

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Anthony.

4 years later

Wants less sex

Doesn’t care if anyone else sees me naked

But won’t let me go out with him in skimpy clothes.

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Male: tells you to be more sexual

Reality: tries, and gets ignored

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4 years...

No sex life

Gotta be super careful with how you react

Can’t fuck up

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Sex life.

Basically dead.

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3 years down.

Still can’t feel comfortable fully naked infront if him.

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I feel bad.