Iām so alone and I make myself this way I know because ļæ¼Iām just a burden Iām only a burden to everyone even my own mother lets me know how much of a burden I am and now Iāve had to block my sister and cut contact off with her because she decided to call me a deadbeat mother on my birthday when Iāve been singlehandedly raising a child for 3 years while chronically ill and in chronic pain and mental health crisis constantly and the death of my father but yeah im such a fucking deadbeat huh im such a deadbeat that my child is already able to read words at 3 years literally fuck off thatās so fucking insane
anyways I wish I could think about something other than jumping from a bridge or getting a passport to somewhere to where Iāll never come back and probably go kill myself off by an OD partying or something
this is just too hard like we have no money, and my mom constantly reminds me and my grandpaw too and everyone keeps asking when im doing school and getting a job but im honestly barely keeping myself alive and itās been this way for a long time now and Iām very very tired this is just nonsense nothing is ever going to get better
im ugly im fat im poor im sick im a burden
and im constantly reminded thatās what I am
and Iām tired