Butterfly's Journey

[usachu]

Still here breathing, pretending that im strong enough to face this world

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I love my transformation even if i still not that passable because my body is quite muscular, hhm i should have start taking hormones on the early age

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How not to feel suicidal

[xannabelx]

[belgium-rules]

I thought about killing myself, just be gone forever, so many times but there’s too much to live for

belgium-rules (via belgium-rules)

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Hello It's me Still here breathing but not living

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I'm afraid of the future..especially if I keep live or stay in here Indonesia I just can't see myself how am I gonna be but I can see it clearly in a few years later that some of my friends are going to married , working , having a family , waiting their kid in front of school.. I'm afraid to grow older , I'm afraid that I don't have any lover hhm live will be better if I was born as female .. feeling hopeless but still hopeful.. wanting people to treat me good is a miracle.. I don't know why I always feel invisible around male.. like I'm not here not there or I'm just someone who's disgusting so they don't want to get close to me err something like that .. and female are tend to be nice but still some of them is fake .. It just hard when your parents put high expectation on you but but still they don't know you and don't understand your condition .. I'm tired of this life , I always wish that whenever I go to sleep ,I just don't wake up anymore

[usachu]

Hello I'm back