hi! 👋 I hope you don’t mind but I was wondering with all the degree of lewdity characters how do you think they would react to pc dying during childbirth. I’m sorry if it’s a bit dark but I’ve always wondered that due to how complicated some characters are. Feel free to ignore if your not interested or uncomfortable answering
Hope you have a great day 👍😊 stay safe out there
Henlo
Thank you for your ask, it's very kind.
While I do enjoy the idea of your ask, I do not like writing anything to do with pregnancy, childbirth or children in general
Please don't be discouraged from sending anymore asks as I didn't mention it so you wouldn't have known
You sighed as your character lay dead on the floor while two members of the enemy team proceeded to desecrate your virtual corpse through rude taunts and t-bagging.
Since your arrival at the House of Lamentation you had taken a rather keen interest in its resident otaku and although the start of your relationship was a little challenging you have managed to overcome his standoffish nature and make friends with him. Despite this, it did seem like there was still some distance between you two. Although he claimed you were his "favourite normie" you were still a normie. Something that, in his eyes at least, was to be looked down upon.
In an effort to bridge this gap, you had asked him to introduce you to some of his hobbies. It took a little convincing as he had it in his head that you were only taking an interest in him to use against him somehow but he eventually came around and agreed to enlighten you to his world.
After watching more anime than any human could realistically keep up with he suggested you tried out some of his games with him
"Sorry, Levi." You sighed into the mic, slouching back into your chair as you waited for the respawn timer to tick down.
"It's fine." He was being uncharacteristically patient with you but whether it was in your head or not you could hear the annoyance in his voice. "They're targeting you because you're new.”
“Wait, how do they know I'm new?”
“Because you're bad, mainly. But you're also wearing a default skin, with a pre-generated name as well as the fact that you have no idea where you're going and keep running around in circles like an idiot.”
“Jeez Levi fine I get it, I'm sorry ok.” Maybe this was a bad idea after all.
“It's fine.” He paused for a moment seeming to pick his next words carefully. “I can help you out if you want. Offer some…training.” His tone when he mentioned training seemed slightly odd but you brushed it aside for now.
“Alright, yeah ok what like you follow me in game and tell me what to do? That sounds helpful.”
“No, not like that at all. I have something more hands-on in mind. I'll come to you.”
And with that he logged off.
He..logged off? During an active game?
There's no way he'd actually leave his room, right?
It was a whole 30 seconds later that you heard a knock at your door, too flustered to question how he got to you so fast.
“Well damn, I guess hell really does freeze over.” you tease but get no reaction from him as he makes his way into your space without invitation.
“Yeah, hey Levi, come right on through!”
“You really want to improve?” He asks with more seriousness than you've ever heard
“Y-yeah, I guess so?”
“That's not good enough” he looks at you for the first time “Do you really want to improve?”
“Yes, I do”
“Alright. Then you'll do as I say, when I say.” he hesitated slightly before continuing “Strip your lower half.”
“I…wh-what?”
Even with his tone, you couldn't help but notice the aggressive red tint on his cheeks.
“I have rules”
Who the hell was this little freak? Where did the quiet little otaku go?
“First. Every moment you're alive, I'll play with your pussy”
“Levi what the hell are you-” you didn't really need to finish that sentence anyway.
“Second. Every kill you get, I'll eat you out for 10 seconds”
Too stunned to ask anymore questions, you let him continue uninterrupted.
“Third. Every death I will stop touching you for as long as it takes to respawn
And finally, you don't get to cum unless you win the round”
It was a surreal experience, the pleasure was like nothing you'd felt and yet the person giving it to you seemed almost completely uninterested.
Closely watching the screen as he mercilessly used his fingers to guide you closer oblivion while forcing you to stay focused and giving you advice.
“He's flanking. Try and make it to the health pack before he does so you can pick him off while he's weak.”
You had somehow managed to kill an opponent through your euphoria the feeling of victory pales in comparison to his tongue finally melting into your desire.
After the time he spent working you up it was almost enough to get you over the edge..
You were close.. so close… so very, very close….
"That wasn't 10 seconds!" You whined looking down at him after he stopped abruptly.
"Yeah," he said, wiping his chin. " But you died."
Sure enough, when you looked back at the screen, you were met with the familiar respawn countdown you had become so used to.
“And you almost broke rule 4.
“That's not fair!” You protested “you promised 10 seco-!!” a quick slap on your most delicate spot cut you off rather quickly
“You've respawned” he returned his fingers to their rightful spot “pay attention this time”
7 whole agonizing rounds of on off stimulation driving you insane
You broke somewhere after the 4th round, begging him to let you cum, there were tears running down your cheeks. Yet he didn't waver and continued his torturous “training”
Slapping your hands away every time you tried to touch yourself
But you did it
You can't really claim the victory had anything to do with you but you didn't care
The rule 4 criteria has been met
By this point you were a mess. Red puffy eyes, shaky legs and a puddle beneath you that could put a lake to shame
Levi didn't break his focus at any point, clearly so used to hearing the victory music he started his onslaught.
Not that you lasted long anyway. It was almost immediate after he gave you his full attention that you fell apart. You didn't even realise he wasn't giving his full effort until he did.
The climax that overtook you had you trembling in a way you didn't know was possible.
Your hazy mind took a few moments to realize he'd stood up and a few extra moments to notice the bulge on his lower half
“Do you need any hel-”
“NOPE” the energy wasn't in you to take it personally.
He'd made it half way to your door before even finishing the word.
If you were to meander your way towards his room, just to thank him of course, maybe you could make out some less than holy sounds creeping into the hallway..
Hot take but I kinda feel like he's bordering on asexual
Not sex repulsed but it's just not a priority for him
Especially given his modeling gigs, he's so used to being sexualised that it just feels more like a job than something he can enjoy.
When he does fuck it has to be with someone he trusts wholeheartedly and it stems from a need for indulgence
A need to take every part of you into his very being
He's needy, desperate and so very eager to please.
Cries during sex sometimes
He's not a top, bottom or a switch by nature, he's just whatever you want him to be
He tries so hard to come across as this uncaring badass who takes what he wants, when he wants but it's so hard to take him seriously when you know just how much of a fucking idiot he is (affectionately).
Really all he wants in life is someone who's gonna be a ride or die with him, no judgement.
And for the love of whoever you believe in, please don't actually insult him. I don't think he couldn't handle it
Least accepting of polyamory or having an open relationship. In fact he downright refuses
He'll cry if you even bring it up
Leviathan
I don't know where some of you guys get UwU soft boy Leviathan from. This fucker is mean.
Incel vibes
Will neg you
Unironically refers to his room as his “goon cave”
Speaking of which… damn near constantly crankin’ it
He's not even ashamed. In fact, he likes it when people know what he's doing, especially you.
You've arranged to come see him tonight? Well he can't help it if he gets too excited and forgets to lock his door
So what if he's fully on display for all to see when you make your way into his room
Oops, guess he just lost track of time
You can either stay there looking like a fish out of water, join in, or fuck off
He knows which option he'd prefer but he's not gonna tell you that
Not actually an incel, given that he's well over a few thousand years old and all, but doesn't actively seek out real life partners.
Even as you're performing your little heart out trying to get him off, he'll still say he prefers 2D girls over the real thing
But deep, deep down he can't lie how much he likes seeing you trying so hard.
He would much prefer to give rather than receive but only because he doesn't like how vulnerable it makes him
He wants you to suck his dick so bad but would never give you that kind of control over him.
An absolute bottom masquerading as a top.
One day, maybe you'll get to use him as the proper little bitch he is
But that's not gonna be easy
If he has a problem, he makes it everyone else's problem. Why should he have to suffer alone while everyone else is rubbing in his face just how much easier they have it (they don't)
“Ugh life is so unfair to me in particular.”
“Levi, my grandma just died.”
“Wow ok it's not all about you y’know. I'm sorry singing killed your grandma or whatever but I have it way worse”
Will say he doesn't mind you fucking around but sits in his room seething at the thought.
You ask him if he's jealous and he will proceed to tell you that he's actually just envious and explain the difference between envy and jealousy in great detail going into why he is the former and would never, ever be jealous, especially over a human (he is 100% jealous)
I know this interpretation is a bit far out of cannon but I'm really just projecting my desire to fuck an incel and fix them
Performing a public service and making the world a better place one virgin at a time
Asmodeus
In my heart of hearts I know Asmo is full on gender fluid. Sometimes they're rocking a mini skirt and a high heels, sometimes she's full suit and tux and then there's times he's wearing clothes so in between all you can do is shrug your shoulders saying well at least they look good
He plays with gender like it's a fucking dollhouse and looks amazing while doing so
I feel that given the nature of the devildom and the existence of magic everywhere, there's gonna be ways for Asmo to alter their body back, forth and anywhere in between like she's trying on new outfits
You're telling me that Asmodeus, demon embodiment of lust, and fun time aficionado isn't going to find a way to magic up some tiddies? You lack vision.
Into pretty much any kink so long as it doesn't mess up their pretty face. He's got a reputation to keep after all
Asmo has the healthiest outlook on intimacy compared to his brothers
More than happy to see you with other people, even encourages it in some cases.
“Hey, my partner and I saw you across the room and we really liked your vibes.” Type of deal
You go off and have yourself as much fun as you want just be safe, kay?~
Don't want you winding up with demon chlamydia
Beelzebub
My beloved Beelzebub. Oh how it tortured me to see his potential go to waste. Watching his character getting reduced down to “Me hungry.” and any exploration be washed down the drain.
No, I will not tolerate it
Gluttony goes hand in hand with desire as far as I'm concerned
The need to consume every inch of your partner
To feel them inside you or you in them
To need them so fully that you wish to digest them into your own blood
Make no mistake, Beelzebub is fully genuine in his affection towards you. Second only to Mammon, he lives and breathes everything you are
There is a sliiigght hiccup though and that comes in the form of humans having been a food source until very recently
Beel has the biggest angst factor for me because as much as he cares for you, he's constantly having to fight his nature
Imagine you're the sheep and he's the big bad wolf trying so hard to keep you safe while his mouth salivates at the thought of you
He doesn't know if it's because of his desire or his hunger
Usually it's both
Intimacy with Beel can be a very fine thread because when he kisses and bites between your shoulder and neck, it's not always out of intimacy alone
I know Beel being a munch is a big thing in the fandom and that's because it's absolutely correct and I will continue to perpetuate that truth
Beel is accepting of the idea of polyamory or just an open relationship but is only really happy to share you with his brothers.
Belphagor
Another mean bastard
But hey if you didn't see that coming that's on you
Super jaded and just done with everyone's shit
That does include you sometimes
He's still dealing with his hatred towards humans
Never ask a demon supremacist the species of his girlfriend and all
Gaslighting? Babe what even is that don't be silly. It's not even a real word, c'mon.
Likes to think he's smarter than you
Gets pissed off when you're smarter than him
Only open to sharing you with Beelzebub
Diavolo
Human fetish, human fetish, human fetish
With all his whimsy and splendor towards the world it's sometimes easy to forget he is in fact the prince of hell, and ho boy does that come with some rather lofty implications
He's not used to being told no
Or if he is then it's just a round about way of saying “convince me”
You wouldn't actually say no to him though, y'know because of the “implications”
He's taken you away from your home, as some demon you barely know, stranded in the middle of hell, what are you gonna do? Say no?
Either way, he does genuinely want you to want him in the same way but he acknowledges the imbalance and won't actively do anything you wouldn't want
He's just so excited
He's also not one to go about sharing his toys
He'll only really trust sharing you with Lucifer or barbatos. And even then he usually has to be involved himself, not one to share his toys and all
There are times when he finds himself super busy and feels guilty over being neglectful of you so he'll ask one of them to keep you entertained. You don't always get a say in this but it's nice to know he's thinking of you right?
Solomon
Despite he himself not being a demon, you often find yourself questioning how human he actually is. A life lived as long as his own really does chip away at one's humanity. Their morals being among the first things to go.
Uses underhand tactics to get what he wants, but you knew that already didn't you.
He will absolutely make himself out to be your guiding light in this hellish world
What you don't know is how much effort he's put into pushing towards his loving embrace
It's so hard dealing with all these demons all the time, why don't you come tell Solomon about it. He's always here to listen, pay no mind to his wandering hands, you won't remember them come morning anyway
He suffers from commitment issues but is terribly possessive
No, what you've got isn't technically a “relationship” but you best not be going out with anyone else because it would tarnish your academic credibility after all
You want to explore an open relationship? Oh sure, sure. You go right ahead sweetheart, never you mind that pretty little mark on your lower stomach you discovered the day you found out you couldn't cum anymore. It's just a silly little coincidence is all.
He's only looking out for you, and he expects you to show him how grateful you are
I love seeing all the fan art for Alex and Remy because it's always very Western. Cowboy boots, straw hats and tan lines. All the while forgetting that the game takes place in the UK where the farmers look like this
How the DoL LI act when you go missing longer than usual.
Reader characteristics not mentioned.
TW - Usual DoL Shenanigans
Alex The Farmer
Man, they want to come and find you but they're so unsure of themself. Maybe they're just over reacting and you'd be pissed off at them if they came looking for you. Maybe you are in danger but if they try to help it'll just make things worse. Besides, they've got the farm to look after. You'll come back on your own….. eventually… right..?
Avery The Bussiness Person
Avery has as many connections as they have cash in the bank. I feel like they would be able to track you down fairly easily and even bail you out if need be but whether or not you deserve it in their eyes is a different matter. If you're not that important to them then you're not going to get a second glance from them. If you have anything in the way of a criminal record then maybe they decide that you need to suffer a bit before being saved.
Eden The Hunter
Eden has pulled you out of sticky situations before, whether that's Remy's farm, the asylum or even one of their own traps. Point is, wherever you are, Eden. will. find. you. Whether you want them to or not
Kylar The Loner
Oh god every second you spend away from this poor soul they are in hysterics trying to devise ways of getting you alone with them again. If you've properly disappeared to the point that they can't find you by regular means (stalking) then it's time for they'll be on a warpath to get you back. Kylar will probably get their parents involved if the situation is dire enough
Robin The Orphan
It's not uncommon for you to disappear for a few days, or hell even a few weeks sometimes. Robin trusts you and knows you can take care of yourself but this time is different. They can't tell why but it just is. Of course the wanted posters go up, right next to all the others but they know that's not going to cut it. They honestly don't know what to do or where to start looking but after all the effort you've put in for them, they can't just let your disappearance slide without trying to find you themselves. Even if that means resurfacing some old wounds
Sydney The Faithful
Thoughts and prayers :)
Whitney The Bully
If you think you can rely on Whitney for anything I hate to break it to you but you're gonna learn your lesson the hard way. Whitney cares for you on some level, sure, but they care about their reputation a whole hell of a lot more. They're certainly not going to talk to anybody about how their favourite slut hasn't been seen in a while, they won't even mention your name. They maybe might linger by a few dark alleys a little bit longer than most hoping to catch a glimpse of you but don't expect much else than that
With all my DoL stories, I will be changing school to university, and the orphanage will just be an apartment complex with Bailey being your landlord instead of caretaker.
All characters in this one have he/him pronouns and male genitalia.
Reader characteristics not specified
TW - I mean, you read the title what do you expect?
Bailey The Landlord:
God fucking damnit how dare you try that shit again! It's not the first time you'd come into his office in the early hours of the morning asking for an extension on your rent. He couldn't tell if you were faking your innocence as part of an act to get him to lower his guard or if you really were that fucking naïve. whatever it was, it was really pissing him off. Especially that little sway of your hips as you left, and just how well your outfit clung to you showing off your body just right. Yeah.. it was on purpose he decided, and he wasn't going to let you get the better of him. He wouldn't succumb to your little tricks. At least not sober anyway.. Bailey wasn't one to lose himself under the influence but it had been a long and tiresome day, and after a few shots of whiskey he found himself pulling his cock out with thoughts of you on his mind.
Darryl:
God he felt just awful about the thoughts invading his mind. He wanted to stop, he really did, but the relief that came from his groin after releasing it told him he was much too far gone now. Darryl thought he'd never feel this way given his experiences and that the feelings he had for you were only temporary, but seeing you all dressed up in your work gear had him crumbling. He knew you had to wear what you did to make a living in this line of work but part of him hoped you wore what you did just for him. He finished up rather quickly once his mind turned to how you would look at him when he was having trouble. Full of care and sympathy he'd never seen from anyone in this hellhole of a town. Ironic that the one person who didn't seem to want to cause him any harm was the one he wanted to hurt him the most.
Eden The Hunter
Eden didn't really jack off anymore after he kidnapped/ found you, and if he did, he certainly didn't feel guilty about it. You were his after all. But there was one memory he had of you that made his whole body shiver whenever it popped into his mind.
He'd found you one day lying almost cold out in the woods, your clothes had all been torn up and you were in such a horrendous state, unable to move or even speak.
He loved it.
He loved the vulnerability, how pathetic you looked and how you were at his complete mercy. It took him months to nurse you back to full health and you were never quite the same after.
You never told him what happened to you, just saying it was one of the worst experiences you've ever had to live through, and that is saying something. That's where the guilt came in. He loved you so much that it hurt him, and knowing that you had suffered at the mercy of this city set him ablaze, but deep down, a horrid little part of him couldn't deny how much he enjoyed it and almost hoped it would happen again.
Kylar The Loner
On some level he knew he was in the wrong but on the other he couldn't bring himself to care enough to stop. With one hand grasped around his cock, your panties providing a delightful friction, and the other holding your sheets to his nose, Kylar was lost to the world and could only focus on how perfect you'd look on his cock instead of your used underwear.
Sydney The Faithful
Darn you. Hand holding? In public!? And you did it so casually too. Like you had no shame, unlike him who refused to even acknowledge the growing strain between his legs. He was grateful the library was so quiet and no one was around to hear his soft moans and whimpers every time he moved and readjusted his increasingly tight pants. Every so often he'd rock back and forth to provide some relief but evidently that only made it worse given how good it felt. Poor Sydney just has to deal with it trying to think of anything else besides how soft your hands felt and how perfectly they fit into his own… hopefully class won't start anytime soon and he can calm himself down before he has to go anywhere..
Whitney The Bully
Whitney didn't feel guilty for anything so he sure as shit won't feel guilty when you come to mind as he's taking care of himself.
No it's not guilt he feels when he thinks of how perfect your face scrunches up at his rude comments, or how pathetic you look groveling at his heels.
It's not guilt he feels when he thinks of how cute you look standing under his umbrella shivering from the cold rain that sticks to your clothes.
It's not guilt he feels when he thinks how nice it would be to see you again.
It's not guilt.. but he does feel something.. he just doesn't know what it is.
The wank session comes to a stop as he realizes he's not in the mood anymore and he just lays there thinking of you. That makes him angry. Angry at you for having interrupted his personal time and leaving him frustrated. A crime that he will not allow to go unpunished. Next time he sees you he's going to make you suffer and take out all his pent up frustration.
A very short head cannon list about which killers would prefer a more feisty SO and which would rather you behave. In no specific order.
TW - Abuse (Mental and Physical)
Trapper : His joy is your misery. The more you resist the more he gets to crush that little fighting spirit of yours. He doesn't have any interest in someone who could overpower him as he likes to be the one in control and will quite easily lose his temper if you manage to get the better of him.
Wraith : You've got about 0.02 seconds to cease your bratty behavior before he has to beat some sense into you. This man puts so much on the line by not immediately killing you so the least you could do is show some respect.
Hillbilly : Aww please don't :(
Yeah okay sure he miiiight bonk you across the head a few times but come on now, there's no need for all that kicking and screaming. Just let the poor boy hold onto you for a lil bit.
Doctor : The good doctor revels in the challenge of discipline. Unlike certain uncouth killers who enjoy your endless torment, Herman likes to see his work lead to something and will take joy in molding you from that feisty flame into a more docile ember. And then he'll see how far he can push you before you break again.
Huntress : Anna takes pity on the vulnerable, the small, the weak. The more you act like a lost child, the more likely she is to show you any kind of affection, misguided as it may be.
Michael Myers : The man does like the challenge of a difficult survivor but you can't really put up much of a fight when you don't know he's there until it's too late. He does however really like your pitiful struggle as he has you grasped by the throat with the life fading from your eyes.
GhostFace : Yes please.
Just as much of a masochist as he is a sadist and wants you to fight back with everything you've got. Don't confuse a few landed scratches as a chance to escape. He'll let you fight him for his own enjoyment, but just know that he will always end up on top and you'll be butchered without a thought if you take a step too far.
TW - Unhealthy displays of affection, Abuse (Mental and Physical), General dickishness
Herman Carter (The Doctor)
• You are the absolute last person to go.
• The good doctor won't even look in your general direction until everyone else has been taken care of.
• He's just waiting until you're on your own and he has all the time in the world to play around with you.
• Entity forbid you end up at Léry's Memorial Institute. That place was his home, he knows every little crack and corner by heart. There's no possibility of hiding, and he's faster than you are.
• If you somehow manage to escape without him getting a hold of you, be prepared for absolute hell next time you're placed against the doctor.
• He's a very prideful man and doesn't like losing in general, but when his obsession manages to slip through his fingers, there's no force on this realm, or any other, that can hold him back.
• He may even forget about everyone else and focus on you right from the start if he's angry enough.
• If this man can get you on a medical table, or anything similar, may the Entity have mercy on your soul.
• Herman likes the chase as much as any old killer but when he's had enough, it's time to claim his reward by strapping you down and inflicting his special kind of treatment he tailored just for you
Max Thompson Jr (The Hillbilly)
• Completely focused on you from the start
• As soon as he realises you're there with him, he goes mad trying to catch you.
• Most of the other survivors will escape if you're in a trial with the hillbilly because he won't leave you alone.
• This does mean that you'll probably get left behind since no one can really help you out.
• Your survival depends entirely on how fast you can run and how well you can hold your breath in a locker.
• Once he manages to catch you, he'll take his time and won't rush over to any hooks. He likes to hold you.
• He will grab you as much as he can. Instead of bashing you on the head with an oversized hammer, if he can latch onto your arm or just yank you back by your shirt he'd much rather do that.
• Your skin is so much softer than his own. So he'll delight in, not so gently, grasping any exposed flesh. Watching how it squishes between his fingers.
• This does of course lead to some rather oddly shaped bruises.
• He doesn't necessarily want to hurt you and is definitely less malicious than his colleagues. Max has never been exposed to any kind of positive relationship in his life and doesn't know how to handle these emotions he feels around you so he reacts the only way he knows.
Evan Macmillan (The Trapper)
• He'll chase you, but you won't get hooked right away.
• You'll either be left in one of his many traps or just crawling your way to help.
• Evan loves watching you limp and crawl away as he casually chases after you.
• If you're particularly annoying during a match, he might hook you just to get you out of the way, but he would much rather take his time with you and will most likely let someone unhook you just so he can chase you all over again.
• One of Evan's greatest delights is making you watch as your team dash through the exit gate without giving you a second thought.
• The look of betrayal and anguish is one he could just eat up on anyone but it has a certain extra hit when etched into your face. Especially if it was his own hands that carved it there.
• He finds it an absolute delight to watch you crawling towards the hatch, only for him to yank you back by your ankle as your fingers just brush against the metal. He gains extra satisfaction of he can yank a broken ankle, most likely given to you by own of his traps.
• He doesn't mind so much if you do escape. Obviously he doesn't like losing, but he knows you'll be back. You're his little toy after all, and he will get to play with you again.
Philip Ojomo (The Wraith)
• Mmmm did somebody say stalker?
• If you're uncomfortable with the feeling of having somebody's eyes on the back of your neck constantly, well tough luck.
• Trials with this boy are usually short and sweet.
• He's more focused on watching you and how you work than paying attention to the Entity's nagging.
• He's going to try and get as close to you as possible. Meaning that if you're not observant, he's going to be standing behind you as you're going about your business.
• He might even crouch down next to you and just stay there observing your face as you get your work done.
• Probably one of the only killers that will allow you to escape a trial. Or he'll go easy on you at the very least.
• Doesn't mean he won't ruthlessly beat the shit out of you if you get too cocky after you escape from him a few times. Mistaking his generosity for some kind of skill on your end is just not going to fly and he needs to make you painfully aware that any victory you celebrate is down to him.
• A 'Thank you Mr. Wraith.' Would be nice if you could just StOp SqUiRMING FOR TWO SECONDS.
• He just needs you to remember that although he may take certain liberties when it comes to you, he's still here to do a job and that job is to kill you.
Anna (The Huntress)
• Anna doesn't treat you much differently in a trial, even if she's fond of you.
• Not familiar with any human interaction outside of the very limited experience her mother provided have left her ignorant to anything beyond primal instinct.
• Death is just part of her understanding of affection.
• She loved her mother, her mother died.
• She loved the children, the children died.
• She may love you, and you suffer the same fate.
• Though you are different because you come back from death.
• Which only inspires her to kill you again.
• The hunt is courtship, the pain is yearning and death is love.
• And while she hunts, hurts and kills other survivors, you remain special to her and although nothing is different in the executions between you and your fellow sacrifices, to her it is night and day.
• She expects you to know that.
• She doesn't understand that you can't see the difference.
