&& fallen innocence

Private original character. Written by Hime. Sideblog to olcenncl

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“Master, do you think…”

Ahhh, this was such an embarrassing thing to ask. Saber hesitated, nervously tugging on the hem of her shirt for a moment. Mizu was an outstanding Master but Gareth had no idea how the woman would react to being asked such a thing.

“P-Pardon me for asking this. But… Would it be possible for us to…perhaps, visit that bakery we passed not long ago? I-I must admit to being rather curious on the sweets of this time…”

[utsckushitcnshi]

     “Ah? Saber, what is it?” Mizu blinked when she heard Gareth’s voice from beside her and paused to look at her. Something seemed to be wrong- why else would Gareth look so nervous...? Her request caused the bluenette to blink and pause for a moment before she smiled and nodded, reaching out to pat the other on her shoulder. Oh! A simple request like that? Easy. Mizu checked to see if she had her wallet in her bag (which she did, thank goodness) before she nodded.

     “But of course! Going to a bakery is no trouble at all!” With that, she smiled before she blinked. “... Or I could make some for you fresh when we return to base? My mother owns a bakery and taught me some tricks of the trade before I came here.”

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motherfuckingshadowoftheheir:

“I don’t like seeing something pretty being spoiled, that’s all. I am not going to stop you, but just a loss of innocence means nothing to someone like me. Losing that doesn’t make you strong.” Naive. One word to describe this girl. Yes to lose one’s innocence to the world was a brutal thing, but Julia herself had lost her own and carried on with a strong heart. But this girl seemed so much softer then herself. 

“Untrusting… good. And Orders? All I know is that there are murders, thieves and some other terrible people here. You shouldn’t go alone.” The tone this time was less playful, sterner. Who better to help stop a murderer from murdering then a murderer. 

     “I’m not saying that lost innocence makes for strong character, far from it. Losing it has helped shape who I am for sure, and though it does not make me strong, it’s helped me become more lucid.” This stranger was putting her off. There was something about her that caused alarm bells to go off in her head. But she persisted in her demeanor and her mission to get the job done.

     At the other’s words, Mizu folded her arms and frowned. “You think I’m unaware of such? I do research before I go on missions; of course I am fully aware of the area. Drug dealers, black market, assassins. The list is endless. And who said I was alone?” She had full faith that her Servants would show up if necessary.

[molliaregna]

@utsckushitcnshi

“And who are you suppose to be?” A crooked eyebrow, a hand placed on her waist and a thin line of a mouth was all the Black Maiden was willing to give this new girl that had just appeared. Maybe she just doesn’t know how rough this place can get when the lights start to turn on?

“You know… a cute girl like you won’t survive long in a hell hole like this. You got a reason for coming down here?” This was no attempt to threaten, more make this girl realise that this place was not right for a girl like her. This was the time of the creatures, the ones that dared to call themselves humans. 

[utsckushitcnshi]

     “... And why should such matter to you? I’m not safe anywhere I go, miss. It’s simply a fact of life that I learned when I was still young and innocent.” The Chaldea master raised an eyebrow at the other’s comments before shaking her head and folding her arms. Of course people would be overly concerned about things that shouldn’t have mattered to them. Of course. Admittedly, Mizu was a bit hypocritical in that regard, but at least she didn’t walk up to strangers and ask what their reasoning was behind their presence.

     “My name is insignificant. I’m here to restore peace to this Order. That’s it.” She saw no need to delve into the magical side of things. After all, who would believe her aside from her Servants?

[caelairata-deactivated20160729]

Bonnie & Clyde Meme

All taken from the score and script of the musical. Send my muse one to see how they would react!

❝ It must be great to be called the ‘It Girl,’ with your face on every magazine! ❞

❝ I can see me, can you see me? The main attraction of the picture show… ❞

❝ I’m gonna shoot my way out! ❞

❝ Ain’t nothing I can’t do with a gun! ❞

❝ I hope you know how to fry a chicken. ❞

❝ It’s the Devil’s back porch. ❞

❝ Capone is more to me than a hero. ❞

❝ For the right price, a fella can get almost anything these days. ❞

❝ Go to hell. ❞

❝ Looks like we’ve got the same car. Goes through oil like a preacher through whiskey, huh? ❞

❝ You’ve got a beautiful smile. Bet you hear that all the time. ❞

❝ Wasn’t Billy the Kid ambushed and killed by some sherif? ❞

❝ Everybody’s got dreams. I’ve got plans. ❞

❝ Don’t you ‘now baby’ me! Now who talked you into busting outta jail!? ❞

❝ You’ll find him sitting in the McLennan County Jail. ❞

❝ I’m havin’ a heart attack. They are not gonna stop looking. ❞

❝ You’ve gotta serve your sentence without fail… (insert name), you are going back to jail. ❞

❝ I know it’s hard to share a cell when you’ve got nothing to look at except prisoners who smell. ❞

❝ I’ve been dreaming of a hot meal with you as my dessert! ❞

❝ … I don’t cant here coming around here no more… ❞

❝ I’ve gotta keep him locked in jail. ❞

❝ I want the world to see that I ain’t married to some bum. ❞

❝ What makes you so sure? ❞

❝ This is the best picture I’ve seen in my whole life!❞

❝ You gonna interrupt me every line!? ❞

❝ What are you writing that for? That’s a lousy thing to write! ❞

❝ … Man I want you right now. ❞

❝ You’ll lose the blues, and you may lose your heart… ❞

❝ She was wearing lots of makeup and all, but you could still see that she was dead. ❞

❝ I think most folks would be shocked to learn just how un-Christian you are in bed. ❞

❝ We’re on the front page headline! Right alongside Al Capone! ❞

❝ Buck! ❞

❝ It’s the only way to wipe the slate clean. ❞

❝ I want you to be a man, honey, not a thug. ❞

❝ *SLAP* Don’t you ever talk to me that way, sugar. ❞

❝ *SLAP* Don’t you ever raise a hand at me that way, baby. ❞

❝ Not you, not me, not that poor misguided trash he picked up last night. ❞

❝ She is gonna love that dress! Anyone got a card? Let’s see… ‘Dear (insert name), I can’t wait to rip this off of ya! ❞

❝ Honey, I promise– you will never find out I cheated on you. ❞

❝ I’m miserable without you. I can’t think about nothin’ else but you! ❞

❝ You could find someone that people respect, a man who is rich and smart… ❞

❝ You’re flirting with a convict? ❞

❝ You love who you love, and you can’t help how you’re made. ❞

❝ Amen! Amen! Daddy! ❞

❝ You’re making the right decision. The heart isn’t always right. ❞

❝ You’ve gotta keep him away from me. I’m begging you. You know what he’s been doing to me. ❞

❝ I won’t get to Heaven, so let’s raise a little Hell. ❞

❝ Get your hands off of me! ❞

❝ Are you done? ❞

❝ Havin’ a nice time down there? ❞

❝ My momma don’t like me smokin’. ❞

❝ You said you’d go straight! ❞

❝ She’s a good girl. Straight A student. Got a job. It doesn’t make sense! ❞

❝ Two living legends that’s what we will be, and that’s okay with me! ❞

❝ No way they won’t remember us! ❞

❝ Oh my God, I’m nervous. ❞

❝ I got a letter from him. He’s ok. Make sure you burn it. ❞

❝ I can’t put the gun down if I’m raising my hands. ❞

❝ You really think you can pull that trigger? ❞

❝ I gotta get out now while I still can, while I’m still in the clear! ❞

❝ It’s too late to say I’m sorry, it’s too late for all of that! ❞

❝ He’s a piece of shit. Just like his brother. ❞

❝ There ain’t nothing good enough for us kids. We deserve all we are gonna get. ❞

❝ Can I have your autograph? ❞

❝ I need you Daddy. I need you Daddy. Don’t you dare walk out that door. ❞

❝ You walk out that door, Daddy, it’s over. … I mean it. ❞

❝ Close your eyes, feel for the bullet, and pull. SHIT!! ❞

❝ This bitch has killed four people and they’re printing her poetry like she’s Emily fucking Dickinson! ❞

❝ You wrote a song about me? Oh you are so in looooove baby. ❞

❝ I must be in love or else I’m going mad. ❞

❝ If we drive through the night we could be in Joplin by mid-day tomorrow. ❞

❝ Take a look around. God’s good Earth is all dried up. It’s dead. ❞

❝ Don’t you be sorry! You just stay with me, you hear? ❞

❝ Come on baby. We don’t want to miss our folks. ❞

❝ A short and loving life… That ain’t so bad. ❞

[coxgitando]

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Fall for them but don’t let them ruin you…

Ernest Hemingway, “The Three Day” (via thelovejournals)

[utsckushitcnshi]

voyager-of-chaos:

Kao let out a soft chuckle to brush off any feelings of tension. “Nah, I got all the time in the world right now,” he replied to her concerned statement.

He browsed the selection of baked goods they had for sale, coming off slightly disappointed with the lack of his favorite treat: chocolate croissants. He…did not know what to expect, except for those sweet and savory treats, but nonetheless he let out a soft, sad “hmm”, audible only to himself. Then what else could he buy? He wasn’t exactly in the mood for something like…oh, those red bean cakes-

Wait.

That sounded good right about now, and it’s been a while since he’s had a red bean cake. It was no chocolate croissant, but it’d still be enough to satisfy his sweet tooth. He looked over the counter to see the girl busy at work making a fresh batch of them. He cleared his throat and asked, “Um, excuse me? How long do I gotta wait for those red bean cakes?”

     As soon as she opened the door she went straight back to wrapping the red bean paste in the small pockets of dough. Ah, it was nice and therapeutic to concentrate on this small task. The question brought her attention back to the man in the front, though, and she looked over her shoulder before smiling at him.

     “The ones with the additional lotus in the center that I’m making now are going to be another hour or so, but there’s going to be a fresh batch of the plain ones coming out of the oven in a couple of minutes if you don’t mind waiting!” Oh, that reminded her, she had to pull the cheesecake mix out of the fridge soon so she could start baking it...  But it wasn’t too much of a concern at the moment. Nevertheless, he intrigued her, and after a few more seconds of working with the dough and fillings, she popped her head over the counter again to ask him a quick question.

     “... Pardon my asking, but I take it you’re not from around here, sir?”

     Then an alarm rang, and she jumped before grabbing an oven mitt and taking out the red bean buns from the oven she’s been talking about earlier.

[truth2teatold]

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[utsckushitcnshi]

mlgches:

“That’s still really cool, uh…… Ummm…..” Ches pauses awkwardly here finally realizing that she has no idea what this cute girl’s name was. “Anyways! I’m Ches! It’s really nice to meet you.”

     ... Right, names are a thing. “Ah, Ches-san, lovely to meet you. My name is Hayashi Mizu.” Ches was a pretty name for sure, but an odd one. Ah well; some things were just odd to begin with. Not that she could complain. 

[utsckushitcnshi]

neverendinghorizon:

“It is hard to explain without waxing poetics at you I am afraid, but let me attempt to explain.” Taking a moment, Assassin thought over her words, occasionally mouthing them to herself before nodding. 

“Allowing a beautiful young woman to be captured in pain is like allowing a museum of fine art to burn away. Such tortured work, the artist’s souls burning away into merely ash.” Smiling at her now was not one of kindness, but almost understanding. “I do not know your pain child, but I do know that everyone carries something in them. You do not need to wound yourself so, find other means to let out such pain… art allows you to express your very soul.”

     Mizu blinked at Jing Ke’s words, most certainly shocked to hear them. After all, words of comfort were rare on her own accord- she tried to make it seem like she wasn’t in constant emotional turmoil, so no one would really ever comfort her. It was a not-so-great cycle, but hey- it worked. Nevertheless, at the more plaintive explanation, she nodded to show she understood.

     “... Thank you, Jing-Ke-san... Your concern means a lot.” She still didn’t understand where it was coming from but she wasn’t going to reject it, partially because it would have been rude and partially because she knew she needed to hear it.

[utsckushitcnshi]

encasedlnamber:

Caren had not been expecting company, and so the holy woman took a break from playing the giant church organ in order to get a glance at who the visitor was. Pale, yellow eyes looked Mizu over just once before focusing on her face.

“You are welcome to stay for as long as you need to. This is a building for all of the children of the Lord, especially those who seek shelter and protection.” The young girl, far too young to be in a church alone and by herself, rose to her feet and moved closer to the one she was speaking to.

“Is there anything I can get for you? Tea or perhaps food?” Her lack of visible emotion, combined with her lack of experience with hospitality, only served to make her offer seem forced and awkward. She wished to help if she could, in any way that she could.

“You seem to be dry, so offering you a towel seems pointless,” she added on, talking to herself more than she was to Mizu.

     Oh! The person inside was a young woman. Oh... She looked almost like a little girl. What was she doing all alone in this church? Surely they wouldn’t send someone here to live the life of praising the Lord by herself... Then again, considering how short Mizu herself was, she realized mistakes could be common and dropped the train of thought. 

     “Ah, no thank you-” She was about to say thank you for letting her stay before she got interrupted by a clap of thunder outside the church doors. Ah, she must have made it in the nick of time. Looking at the stained glass window, Mizu could tell that the weather was unkind at the moment and might not even let up for a couple of hours. Crap.

     Then she continued. “... I don’t need a towel, no thank you. But I’m grateful that you’ve let me stay for the time being. I promise I won’t be too much of a nuisance tonight.”

[utsckushitcnshi]

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✔ - for my muse to respond to praise from yours

     “Ah, it’s really no big deal, but… Thanks.” Well this was unexpected. Mizu didn’t even know Kao well and he was praising her? Huh… That only happened with people she was close with. This guy… He must be really easy-going, apparently, to give compliments like that.

[utsckushitcnshi]

♬ From Ches

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♬ - for my muse to hum or sing to calm yours down

     “… Tomorrow night, the lights will appear, just like they do every year…” Ok so it wasn’t the kindest song to be singing, but it had a nice calming melody that Mizu thought Ches would appreciate. After all, a bunch of the music from Tangled was like that. Still, she stroked Ches’ hair as she hummed the rest of the song in a gentle, slow manner, hoping it would be enough to help.

     But just because she was touching Ches like that didn’t mean Mizu was entirely comfortable either. But it was easy to put her own boundaries behind those of others in times of need like these. Hopefully, Ches wouldn’t sense the tension Mizu held in her muscles…

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™ - for my muse to become jealous of the attention your muse is giving someone else ✔ - for my muse to respond to praise from yours ✗ - for my muse to respond to being scolded or punished by yours ♠ - for my muse to forcibly restrain yours ♢ - for my muse to introduce yours to a family member ♖ - for my muse to submit to or obey your muse’s orders Ұ - for my muse to comfort yours after witnessing an emotional meltdown ✺ - for my muse to help yours get through a frightening situation ✤ - for my muse to wake yours from a nightmare ✞ - for my muse to talk about somebody’s death ✉ - for my muse to write a letter/send an email to yours ✂ - for my muse to rescue yours from danger ¿ - for my muse to ask yours a personal or uncomfortable question ♥ - for my muse to express physical affection to yours ღ - for my muse to express verbal affection for yours ♬ - for my muse to hum or sing to calm yours down

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The heavy smell of flower petals stroked the walls of my lungs.

Haruki Murakami, The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle (via wordsnquotes)