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Brain rot blog

[v0dkatea]

Hello!

I’m Connor, I’m 23 from the UK and this blog is primarily for shit posting and reblogging anime fanart

[paulfrankjuliusthemonkey]

i'm going to make a life i love even if it's not the one i expected or thought i wanted. and i am going to let myself be proud and grateful of what i do have. i am allowed to be proud of it without other people realizing the gravity of what i have accomplished in scale to my life and abilities. i do not need permission.

[v0dkatea]

lately I can’t talk without it catching in my throat

[v0dkatea]

if I don’t have you then I have no one, i want a normal life so badly, I want friends and happiness with you there.

I don’t want to feel like I’m asking for too much I hate this

[v0dkatea]

I have lost all my childhood wonder and I don’t want to stay here,

[v0dkatea]

I don’t want to be like this but I just don’t know to change it

[v0dkatea]

Why do you just fucking ignore it, make one comment during a big ass conversation and you say YOU UNDERSTAND, FUCKING DO SOMETHINF BITCH

[v0dkatea]

I have no idea how I feel about this morning, I cried so much

[v0dkatea]

I need to learn to form long term plans, and fucking stick to them!

[v0dkatea]

I want so badly not to just write about sad mistakes, i want to imagine a future. But it’s hard when I’m so tired, and I can’t write like it used to, I’m too worried about hating what it says

[v0dkatea]

I want to invest in nice photos, they helped romanticise life even if I never used to notice it

[v0dkatea]

Mm morning disassociation

[v0dkatea]

It is time to start reaching out again, we need more than just us it is going to start suffocating us soon. I miss speaking to my friends, most of them tried, but I was never one to reach out, the ones that have survived are because they didn’t let it.

[v0dkatea]

[v0dkatea]

I wish I was braver, less insecure

[v0dkatea]

I need to keep writing the thoughts down wether I’ll read them back or not, but I keep forgetting every thought I have

[v0dkatea]

I could stay here waving forever, staring at your smile, waving for one minute longer. I don’t want to stop looking at you, the dark brown hair, the crooked teeth, the love in your eyes. They are all you and I want to stare at you forever.