vinsie

she/her 18 bi

[mossmilkmaid]

whoever says monika didnt care about the other dokis will feel my wrath in their ass

[v1ns1e]

mine and my boyfriend's favourite characters meeting

[v1ns1e]

canon idc

[v1ns1e]

whoever this was... I'll never forget you when I win gold... thank you for your support...

[v1ns1e]

giggled

[galaxybean]

whoever wrote this you have my heart <3

[v1ns1e]

Like A Girl

I want to be disgusting.

I want my skin to be dirty with my pores visible and my hair greasy. Bedhead, sticking out in all directions, uncaringly. I want to wear a dirty shirt I wore yesterday and the day before.

I want to wake up at noon and not sleep til dawn. I want dark circles and bags under my eyes. I want wrinkles in my teenage years. I want yellow teeth and matted hair.

I want to be loud, rowdy and annoying. I want to be angry, dirty and hideous. I want to be unsightly, But everyone will look anyway As though I’m a walking car crash.

I want to eat when I want, Whatever I want, With my mouth open, Chewing loudly.

I want to be fat and be told I’m unlovable Then love anyway. I want to have meaningless sex with everyone I meet Just for fun.

I want acne. I want scars. I want a double chin Visible at any angle.

I want to shave my head And grow out my armpit hair, My leg hair My pubic hair Upper lip hair Nose hair Ear hair–  IM A MAMMAL FOR FUCK’S SAKE, I’M GOING TO BE HAIRY.

I want my teeth crooked, My nose large, My eyebrows bushy, My voice heard. I want to be called “a hideous monster” by those around me. I want to be gawked at by those I walk past. I want to receive quick, embarrassed glances by unsuspecting strangers in the streets.

I want everyone to know when I start menstruating And I want no one to tell me to calm down when I’m angry.

I want to dress promiscuously, I want to dress modest. I want to dress comfortable Without another soul, living or dead Declaring what's best for me.

I want to be unkempt, A disgrace, Unsightly. I want to be impossible to ignore – But they have to For drawing attention to me would be so much worse.

I want to be a woman on my own my own volition I want everyone to stop telling me how to do it. I don't want to be “like a man” – Strong “like a man”, Charming “like a man”, Cunning “like a man”. You wouldn’t tell a fish to be more like a horse, Nor an elephant more like a snake.

I want to be stupid not because I’m a woman But because I’m stupid. I want to be caring not because I’m a woman But because I'm caring. I want to be talented, In sowing, In baking, In cooking, In mending and healing Not because it’s my “duty” But because I want to. 

Most importantly, I don’t want to be an exception. A “one in a million girl”.  A girl unlike the rest of those bitchy broads. I want you to see all of us For who we are As people. Humankind. That means all of us.

[v1ns1e]

The tears of a thousand angels fall atop my head.

Heaven is crying, drops fall down my cheek.

Hate, violence, bloodshed --

War.

God is weeping and it's our fault.

[v1ns1e]

Stargazing

Shining sparkling stars dancing in the nightsky, kissing and embracing -- as lovers often do -- and dancing and kissing and embracing some more. Twinkling specs in the vast darkness while everyone is asleep to see it.

They don't twinkle for me, I know. They dance, kiss, and embrace because the stars love each other. But I am grateful to bare witness to the most beautiful act of love -- even though I am a mere smiling spec in the vast darkness.

[v1ns1e]

I wish being self-aware would make me pretty, smart and distinguished like it did with Monika DDLC but instead I'm just depressed and I don't brush my teeth until noon.

[lena-oleanderson]

also a poem from the new, unreleased collection. very possibly my own all-time favourite.

[ddlcyurislop]

I’ll Change For You, A Sayori Animatic

[sovietnam]

[v1ns1e]

Thick and crimson, it's gushing out of my body. I cup my hands desperate to contain it, I would hate to lose even a drop.

But there's too much, it keeps pouring, pooling onto the hard concrete -- staining it.

The gash in my heart is so deep; it hurts.

My head hangs low, my arms lower. I watch as my soul pours out onto my shoes like a waterfall of vulnerability.

A flicker of my eye and I see a puddle at your feet, and a gash in your heart. By the look on your face I know it hurts you, too.

[v1ns1e]

Memories like Stars

In the moonlight, I can truly be myself. I can think for myself breathe my air by myself.

Anxiety consumes my mind with ache. Depression takes the rest. A fractal of memory shoots out from my body. One less worry, I think. It’s worse than that. But everything fades away as more fractals of memory shoot out from me and into the sky, painting it with stars. 

My pajamas are torn shredded. Other worldly beings bring me back down into my bed and tuck me in I think, with the last memory I have, what tomorrow is going to be like.

Then, like a bullet hitting me in my core, that memory is robbed from me, too.

[v1ns1e]

Little Miss Reliable

In your darkest days or your wildest nights, When you're hopeless or full of joy, If the universe is out to get you or you just need a friend -

I'll be there for you.

[v1ns1e]

Cause and Effect

A butterfly flutters its wings. A tear rolls down my cheek. A gentle breeze knocks a domino. A pillow stiffles a sob.

A kiss on your cheek. A lump in my throat. That sinking feeling of dread.

A love letter. A break up text. Heartache akin to dying.

A wrinkle next to your mouth from laughing so often. A red puffiness to your eyes from crying so often.

Actions and Reactions. Causes and Effects.