.// no one will see this and that's fine with me. i just want to vent somewhere private.
i hate the fact i miss my ex. i miss him and there are nights where i just think about him. i think about the times we shared and overall just those memories i wish i could go back to.
i miss the comfort and security i had with him. it's so hard to get over that he's not here. he will never come back, he couldn't even stay friends with me. he just removed himself from my life after saying things about how much he cared about me.
but did he really? because i just wonder if he knew or realized how much he hurt me more than anything by doing what he did. probably not. just whenever i'm sad or having to deal with shit, i just find myself wishing he was around.
i know time heals everything, but the scars will still be there. the trauma of it all will take a while to fully leave.
