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jazztko

I confuse people.

I have a happy personality and a sad soul. I can go from feeling incredibly confident to terribly insecure. I love hard but at times feel heartless. I'm outgoing yet prefer to be alone. I'm healing and hurting at the same time. I'm still trying to find balance and that's ok.

jazztko

i hate me too sometimes. i always complain i deserve love then when it's sent to me I get scared and on defense mode. i been acting tough. i don't want attention. I don't want anything right now but for you to pull up and just tell me that you love me and you missed me. when you get hit most of your life, you get so used to the pain that when something or someone comes around and tries to touch you with ease, it makes you feel uncomfortable.

just cause it's something you're not used to. might not ever even be my friend again. but I have these pictures in my phone, these videos,. these love letters we started writing back and fourth and i keep wondering why that fuck i let you slip out my hands. my city talks so bad about me that people are afraid to love me, shit. i’m afraid to love me too now. i’m sorry for being insecure sometimes. i’m sorry for being stupid. whoever gets blessed with her love.. just know she's always in her thoughts or working a lot.

ever since she's been younger she's always been known to run so make sure you're active enough to catch up. she loves Sushi or just food in general cause she can really eat .. and snacks in her drawer so she can munch while watching tv she likes to interact, so be confident. she'll most likely talk people's ears off about you if she really likes you.

she likes to sit in nature .. so random picnics or walks would make her day.

if you can't speak to her send her a song that can. she loves speaking through music. you help me organize.. i feel stupid without you. again. i hate me for losing you. i pray to God you give me one more chance. i wasn't taught how to love. I had to teach myself how to survive. teach me how to love and I'II forever keep your soul alive. you was home.