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main blog is @vanathoodle so i’ll be more active there prob

#van’s drunk poetry - for any silly poetry that i wrote while drunk or intoxicated of any kind

#van’s rants - for when i gotta vent abt smth (idk if ill ever use it but,,)

#van’s silly life - for just silly things that happen in my life

#van’s drunk poetry #van’s rants #van’s silly life

two

There’s two, it’s two

what’s two?

me and you

there’s a lot of things that are two

like socks, a pair

there’s the earlier and then there’s the now

but also there’s trios

that’s true, like almond joys

does that mean if there’s trios,

there’s neither trios nor pairs?

because if there’s both then one can’t be special

because they’re both there

but also does it even matter

if either of them are unique?

they can both exist in their own right,

that’s fine

keep speaking

and then there’s also fours

when you go to dinner

and you can sit two and two

you’re saying good words

and five,

five fits in a car

but six because amusement park rides

there’s un

like touch and untouch

colors don’t come in two

#van’s drunk poetry #but it was actually shrooms #this one reminded me of the dialogue at the end of #minecraft #when you beat the ender dragon

she’s coming back around

there’s just something so poetic about everything

and i don’t know how to put it into words

but also do i need to put it into words?

am i not enough to know?

is there any thought left to be had?

and she’s gone again.

#van’s drunk poetry #but it was actually shrooms

to like not love nor hate

do i like myself?

like no, who does?

i feel like someone has to

there’s so many of us

at least one of us has to like ourselves

#van’s drunk poetry #but it was actually shrooms #i remember saying out loud “who is us

pink

pink is good.

pink is a constant for me,

pink knows

what it means to always be there but never be picked

because it’s always been with me since i grew up

it was assigned to me much like my name,

but it’s never been my favorite color.

my inner little girl holding on

always “i’m not like other girls, i like blue”

but there’s still pink everywhere, not blue.

#van’s drunk poetry #but it was actually shrooms #i thought it made sense to make the title pink

a conjunction

it’s like watching someone have a conversation with themselves.

there’s nothing, there’s one thing, and then there’s more than one thing. and then my hands are full

there’s a duality, but there’s always an and

#van’s drunk poetry #but it was actually shrooms

tripping

there’s just something about looking

at the mirror to the side of me

where i grew up.

i used to be young and cute

and in the reflection i see ugly

but it’s just still me still looking,

looking to the side

hoping that i get back what i had

i wanted this

i’m happy with where i am

and im okay

im happy with myself.

#van’s drunk poetry #except this is actually me on shrooms #i have five more inc so enjoy #honestly the way that i thought i was onto something #but i was actually just on something

what are the ethics of a lesbian having a sugar daddy

#something i’ve been thinking about #..definitely a hypothetical #van’s silly life #i feel like i know the answer #but also i don’t #nothing wrong with being a broke college student #I HATE SEXUALITY AND LABELS #why can’t we all just play and have fun and i don’t have to grapple with the thought that me being okay with dick might make me bi #well i know im romantically a lesbian but what does me being fine with dick mean #ugh i’m just not gonna think about it rn #i have homework to do

tell me why i’m happy getting a 77 on my orgo midterm ?? bro middle school me would be SO DISAPPOINTED IN ME

#van’s silly life #burnt out gifted kid things i guess #it sucks a bit bc i’m always like “oh i shouldn’t be worried about my grades like that #and “there’s no reason to be anxious if it’s not gonna help anything #but also ..#i would like to get good grades ..#WAAAAAA why is life so complicated #i want to play and have fun #and be silly if possible #waaa

hdusa-deactivated20260312

I think I finished my video but also I don’t know because flame blew up all of spawn then I got real sad about it and that’s like the climax and resolution you don’t keep going after the climax and resolution so I have to end the video there but like there’s more stuff that happened with me vs flame immediately after like Mapicc carting those people and forming gaias hand and making everyone agree to not fight him that can’t really go into any future videos so either I try to shoehorn it into my ending which I feel like is weird or just accept the loss and move on…. Tough debates here at 3 am might just stream pvp and ignore my problems

#please just stream pvp and be done w it #it’s 3am here for me and i want to watch a stream ..

leg beg

shum bum bum uhm yum !!!!!

put your pinky finger to the moon

i can’t wait for The Lump

i swear i’m a taco loon !

slime pime

i have wayyy more than a dime

shine !

my kind !

#van’s drunk poetry #24 carot mention #bruno mars #mention #clownzy

a chance of .. something

capri sun

happy sun

little shovel but big bucket

don’t you throw it !

i’m going up

there’s no bump

yellow rolling down the hill !

#van’s drunk poetry #yall i just wrote this like rnrn idek if it’s any #good

persephoened

PrinceZam Headcannon

Lowkey I know Zam has said he can regrow his arm but chooses not to, but how cool would it be if it was a punishment from the season 5 server to disallow him to regrow his arm. So like he still has his ability to regrow it but everytime he tries the server rips his arm off again taking more everytime he tries, also because he's a shapeshifter his instinct is to always have a "balanced" form so is constantly regrowing her arm by accident....

Then he gets to the realm smp and he can regrow his arm bc he's not really connected to the server the same way he is to the ls server and he's okay with that, until he starts feeling guilty so starts self-sabotaging on the realm.

Season 7 rolls around and he's given his arm back but now he isn't used to having a non-metal arm so he's getting the shakes during fights and just in general, and so he's trying to let his teammates know but they just think he's nervous and she's not communicating properly cause shes freaking princezam and she doesn't know how to tell them.

I'm so normal about her.... :D

#he’s not used to having his arm and that’s why he keeps dropping his sword ..