Okay, the worst part about going from relationship lyfe to single lyfe is definitely the "transitional period."
Okay, so, the number one worst thing about the "transitional period" is not being in a routine anymore. It's all F'd up! I have to now get up at different times I'm used to, I'm not sleeping, for obvious reasons, and for some reason even hygiene is somewhat difficult sometimes (Sorry TMI). I'm mostly avoiding the sleep, I'm not really eating as much, and hygiene lacks because I'm staying up so late. I'm adjusting, but it's difficult.
Second hardest thing getting used to is definitely moving back in with your parents. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents more than anything! They are one of my true rocks in my life and I owe everything to them. There's just some things you can't do anymore...or in the same ways. For example. I have to partake in cleaning the house again. I love helping out its just not the same as your used to back in your own home. It's not yours! If that makes sense.. Like doing chores again, without getting that allowance! Haha. One other example: Imagine being 23 years old and going out. You meet a really attractive female or someone you can connect with, and she's really cool. She says to you near the end of the night, "Let's get out of here." And you just freeze for like a solid 5 seconds and think to yourself, I can't bring this girl back to my parents house! 1) it's not just awkward for me, but for my parents AND most likely this attractive girl you just met. You wanna get out there and "mingle," but it's like you're missing that one extra piece, which can be frustrating at times...
Sorry, if most of this is just me rambling.
It's not just me learning to adjust to a different place either, my dog and Maddi are affected by it too. Kamisky (my pup) is the most temperamental dog you will ever meet. He has the worst anxiety. Poor dog doesn't eat for days at a time because I know he's hurting like I am. I try to give that dog the most attention possible. I can't even imagine what's going through his head while I'm at work. Thank god for my brother being home most of the time with him, but when he's not there I worry about him. He's my first born. I love him so much. We're going camping this weekend, so he'll get some much needed love from the family and all their dogs! I can tell he's already excited.
So it seems Maddi is doing really well with it, but everyone I've talked to tells me it's really hard on a young child to go from one bed to another so often. I have noticed a few things that are kind of "off" about her behavior. Like, at night she says some really depressing things. I don't wanna say what she says, but as a father, that stuff tears you up inside. Sometimes I just don't know what to say to her, so all I can really do is hold her and comfort her. This is the hardest part for me as I'm sure it is for her too. Being a father is weird, man. Especially being a single one. Shit's hard. But, I know what I have to do for her, because she is the most important thing in my life.
*This is my life, and this life is my diamond!* Works perfectly there. These lyrics will also be a future tattoo of mine. I'm going to have that quote with a very shiny diamond, like crystal clear cut diamond, with Maddison's birthdate in jt. I'll touch on tattoos some other time though...
Well, I'm sure I've bored you guys enough tonight, so I'll say adios! Thanks a lot if anyone out there is actually reading these, it means a lot.
Tonight I'll suggest a newer, but not so newer artist. Twenty One Pilots. They are absolutely murdering it right now, and they also write a lot of stuff about coping with depression and sad stuff like that, but they help me. Maybe they could help someone else too...Anyway check out Car Radio if you haven't already!
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