when people joke about autism but they don't have to spend every evening debating if they were too much or too little that day
when people joke about autism but they ve never been so burnt out their education got set back an entire year
when people joke about autism but they cạn go to clubs and bars and concerts without having a panic attack and leaving before you make real memories
when people joke about autism but they don't get being 19 at age 9 and being 9 at age 19
when people joke about autism but they've never cried so hard they can't breathe because they know life is stuck this way forever
when people joke about autism but they don't get how one person mis-interpreting your intentions makes you spin out about how everyone sees you
when people joke about autism but suddenly its not funny when my parents restrained me as a kid during meltdowns so i wouldn't hurt myself and them
when people joke about autism but they've never felt all your new friends slip away as you finally start to be yourself around them
when people joke about autism but they didn't grow up getting called a 'neek' and a 'teachers pet' just because i never got the memo that trying to study would jeporadize any chance at being taken seriously by my peers
when people joke about autism but they've never had to deal with raging friends after you cancel plans because they don't understand that being around you while you're so burnt out would change how they see you forever
when people joke about autism but they don't get how much of an alien i feel amongst people my age. i'm either alone and myself or working tirelessly to convince people i'm one of them
when people joke about autism but they don't get how empty you feel when a hyperfixation leaves you and you realise you really are just whatever thing you're obsessed with
when people joke about autism but they aren't so hyper-aware of every feeling in their body that sometimes they think too much about breathing and find themselves blue in the lips
when people joke about autism but they don't understand how it feels to spiral out of control thinking everyone hates you because your rejection-sensitivity took one face they made or one word they said and ran
when people joke about autism but they don't get the crisis i had as a kid after coming out of a meltdown, hating myself and not understanding what happened because i swear i'm a good kid
when people joke about autism but they've never been glued to their bed because they can't do what they need to in the order their brain will allow them
when people joke about autism but they can sleep easy because they aren't hearing their hearbeat or the rustle against the sheets as you breathe
when people joke about autism but they never feel like their life is already wasted with a mind like this, knowing theres so much you just can't do, feeling like you're missing your one shot at a human existence
when people joke about autism but they don't get how i can't wear anything with a high neck because it feels like my throat will close up and i might die
when people joke about autism but they don't get that i could spend all night writing these and still not scratch the surface
when someone jokes about being autistic but they've never starved themselves for hours on end because the thought of putting food in their mouth makes them feel sick
When someone jokes about being autistic but they've never had to stop doing things they love because they mentally can't cope with how overwhelming it is
when someone jokes about being autistic but they ve never experienced what it's like for everyone to perceive you as some genius or a 3 year old
when someone jokes about being autistic but they're not 7 times more likely to die by suicide.
when someone jokes about being autistic but they've never experienced what it's like to be in burnout and loose basic skills like forming a full sentence
whien someone jokes about being autistic but they don't have to accept the fact that they'll be a social outcast for the rest of their lives
when someone jokes about being autistic but they've never experienced what it's like to be so happy yet so suicidal because no matter how good life is it's always going to be overwhelming for them and the only escape is death
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