One for Most

Pax intrantibus, salus exeuntibus •Dog owner(Mal-shi) •Rap/R&B enthusiast •Undergrad •Nonchalant

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18...

18 is an interesting number. Becoming 18 forced me to reflect on my yesteryears alwhile summing up how much my life has changed. I've grown physically and mentally as should most. At the same time I've realized I'm only a year closer to death. Does that sound depressing? If so, that's totally understandable. But I've always liked to view myself as a realist, and for me, the coming of death is my reality.

[varonet18]

Freshmen Year

Being in college, I couldn't have imagined myself here. My entire life I was told to know what I want to be. Have plan they said. Quite frankly, I never had a plan. I have entered my freshmen year not knowing where I’m headed and for why? That I couldn't answer. I would tell you its because I want to be successful but school doesn't guarantee such things. Everything I have done in my life appears to be some sort of exploration for place to settle. When I was in elementary school I loved science. I thrived off of the idea of being in a lab full of experiments as I played with my lab kits I bought from the school fair. Then in middle school I adopted the idea of joining the military. To me I believed my place to be was procuring weapons for our soldiers. High school arrived and my dreams diminished. I didn't see it coming but I had entered a limitless grey horizon so to speak. I became incredibly unclear of my future and that tracked me to college as well. Much like the colonizers of our past I hope to find independence, free will, and over all a greater life in the days following.