i am only stardust

no one i know can seem to help me now

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

invading my bedroom

cleaning, refusing to leave

i closed the doors, closed the window right in her face

“you’ll miss me when i’m gone”

“don’t worry, i’ll be gone first”

what a lovely sunday :’(

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

“you’ll miss me when i’m gone” mms said

if only she knew she’s the reason why i’m still not gone...

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

found old annotations

watched a few shorts (the usual stuff)

sigh

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

eu só queria ter coragem de terminar minha história

de dormir agora e não acordar mais

dormir de verdade, pra sempre.

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

deleted photos

killing silence

regrets

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

woke up late again

spent late afternoon at the workplace

empty night in my bedroom

i don’t want to be carried anymore, i must stop this

nothing besides the essential

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

the final cut

thought I oughta bare my naked feelings thought I oughta tear the curtain down i held the blade in trembling hands prepared to make it but just then the phone rang i never had the nerve to make the final cut

Waters

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

one by one

everyone goes away.

and the day is coming, when no one will be around.

after all, it’s not easy

banging your heart against some mad bugger’s wall

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

crying, crying, crying... 

i wish i could put an end to this

but i can’t make my mom go through this kind of thing again

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

Diary

i’m gonna try this

Tomorrow, when maybe I won’t be on the verge of crying all day long.

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

i’m just wasting time

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

relapse

It seemed I was getting better somehow.

I wasn’t.

All came back.

but i wanna talk about you...

i’m not afraid of finding someone to be in the place you have in my life

cause i know I won’t find

this is it and I’ll deal with it.

i love you and i’ll always will

and if you don’t want to come back

go, and please, find the happiness you deserve

that’s what I wish

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

why all this sadness?

i wish i knew

[lilpieceofmyworld]

[sonugelmeyendusler]

[sonugelmeyendusler]

[vaudevillianveteranbr-blog]

my love

it’s just a shame that this feeling

my love

so intense

so real

so much enchanting than anything I’ve ever thought I could feel 

will be lost 

and never felt

by you

or anyone else

this will be mine

and mine only

and will die

with me

.