Vellius

I am lost in a deep sea that I can't even swim to save my fading soul.

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May 27, 2020 3:30pm

Duality 🎭🃏♠️

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May 27, 2020 1:43pm

Motion♠️🃏🎭

[vellius]

May 26, 2020

What are your Top 3 Realizations in Life Amid COVID -19?

First I realize that everything is temporary and that what you can do to be ready with any amids is to save money and have an insurance to be secured. Also it can lift you up with the burdens of thinking on how you can buy things your family will be needed. And that Everything that this world offers is limited. That people live to work and earn money to survive. But there are 3 kinds of person that the world have. First someone who is stable and knowlegeable a person who tends to calculate his works and good in decision making the one who rule and used they're minds. Second someone who is a little stable but limit the range of his knowledge they are the person who chooses to work or used physical strength. Their mind set them to work or those people who live to work to survive. That to earn is to buy. The Third one is stable, other may not be knowledgeable but they are satisfied with what they have. They are the people who is lucky enough to have their necessities they don't tend to buy them because they are the one who planted the seeds and feeds the animals and sell them.

Second is that life is short if you want to gain and to earn. Feed your mind of right thoughts , be productive and don't waste your time. That you must love yourself first before anyone else no one can help you to excell with the things you feared without you composing yourself to be better. It is important to build yourself first than to build someone who can't be a good support to you. Those person who just want to gain but never give. Learn to say no, you are a person of principles you get what you have through hardships and not by just doing nothing. People must learn the essence of patience and hardwork not just by asking everything. Asking is a way to learn easily but not in away you lived to ask and not to learn on how to do it.

And Third is have Faith on God and Love your family. God is preparing us and to open our eyes, heart and minds with the things we are blinded to see. Lift us up and give us a chance to know him and learn from him deeper. That everyone can think that there is God but not everyone believe that there is a God. But what we can do to be different with others who don't believed that there is a God. It is simply to be a better person not good because everyone have flaws you can be good today and be bad tomorrow. For me a better person define as an author you can be anyone in the story depends in the situation and moods you have. You can be great as long as you believe in yourself same as to be a better person that even we are facing breakdowns we don't give up because we believe that there's a rainbow after the rain. I know in the past few months or years there are misunderstandings and we lack of time to live and enjoy our lives with our family. But things changes our world flow from a journey that runs on how we work, the sweats and tiring days to this peaceful environment (due to the fear to get the virus) that we people are learning to enjoy and having more time to took care of our family from the simple family dinner and siblings quarrels to the happiness that we can't find for just working like a robot.

[vellius]

May 25, 2020 11:01am

Isang umaga na naman

Isang araw na muling nagtatanong kung ano nga ba ang halaga

Tila isang walang kwentang nilalang ang nagmumuni

At naglalakbay patungo sa kawalan

Siyang kalma ng hangin sa himpapawid

Ang katahimikang hatid ng kawalan

Maaaring kalmado minsan bagama't nakakatakot din ang katahimikang hatid

Di alam kung ano nga ba ang mga maaring mangyari habang nasa daan

Mag-isang paglalakbay dala ang takot kung ano nga ba ang daang dapat tahakin

Walang kasiguraduhan kung masasagot nga ba nito ang tanong sa aking isipan

Tila isang lobo na tinatahak ang daan papunta sa lugar ng mga leon

Na tila isang mundong mahirap takasan

Paisa-isang hakbang ang ginagawa

Unti-unting pagpasok sa kawalan ng mga leon

Mga matang walang takot pero may pusong mayang sasabog

Ginintuang pinto ang bumungad na kataka takang isang bitag sa sino mang maglakas loob na pumasok

-(c)vellius

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[vellius]

May 24, 2020 7:49pm

Heto na naman ang lungkot

Ginawa ko naman ang lahat

Pero bakit parang ako lang

Andyan ka pa ba? Para pakinggan ako at kompletohin

Masakit na may oras ka sa iba

Na mas natutulungan mo sila kesa sakin

Ano ba talaga tayo Girlfriend kita pero mukhang nasa iba ang pansin mo

Sinasabi mong nagkukulang ka

Pero bakit ganun wala kang ginagawa

Tayo pero bat parang ako lang ang kailangang bumuo sayo

Sincere ako sa lahat ng ginagawa at binibigay ko sayo

Pero bakit? Bakit ko nararamdaman ang bigat ang sakit at pagkukulang

Humihingi ka ng tawad

Palagi kong sinasabi na okay lang at iniintindi ko na lang pero wala parin

Sa mga araw na lumilipas mas madalas na tayo mag-aaway

Iniintindi parin kita at sa huli di rin naman kita matiis

Pero di ko alam kung hanggang kailan ko pa kakayanin

Isang iloveyou mo lang wala na sakin lahat napatawad na kita agad

Never akong nagrant sayo sa mga bagay na tingin ko di mo makita

Pero ewan ko nasasaktan lang ako na parang ako lang ang may gusto ng lahat

Kita ko naman sa mga mata mo na sincere ka

Pero bakit ganun mas sincere ka pa ata sa iba hahaha

Binigay ko na lahat at pinaramdam ko na lahat pero bat parang kulang parin

Palagi na lang akong kulang para sayo

-(c)vellius

[vellius]

[vellius]

The Present

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A friendship that builds us ;

Soul and Laughters that made us attract ;

An opposite life survival connect us ;

And love that collide us ;

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Not a perfect timing ;

Lot of judgements ;

Trial and errors ;

Yet we continue ;

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I will be your friend ;

I will be your crying shoulder ;

I will support you ;

I am your partner ;

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I will give you everything I can ;

I will treasure you better than them ;

I will cherish every moment we have ;

I am your lover ;

-(c)vellius

[vellius]

Favorite Book

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You are the story that I can't stop reading ;

The book that I depend my life with ;

The book which will guide me ;

And a story which be with me even I grow old ;

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Im a reader who loves to continue ;

A thinker who solve and deduce the happenings ;

A character who falldown but actually winning ;

A realist who tell that it's real and not only a story ;

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Im a dreamer who imagine things with you ;

A character to support you ;

A fan who build frustrations and expectations ;

And the writer that makes it possible ;

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The Beginning that flash where, when, why and how ;

The Climax and reasonings to answer the beginning ;

The Ending choices that lead us to something ;

And the Lesson that we've learned from the story ;

-(c)vellius

[vellius]

Jealousy

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I can see your brows frown ;

Your so intimidating eyes ;

An annoyed and frustrated expression ;

And insecurities of jealousy ;

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Im looking at you so intent ;

Thinking that no one can beat you ;

That everyone can standout on their own ;

And that you will always be the greatest on my eyes and heart ;

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We fight over little things ;

Pick on the bad things we've done ;

Pride that getting high and higher ;

At the end of the day we can't resist each other ;

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That love is define as fight but never leave ;

Rest and Forgive ;

Trial and Errors ;

And Patience is a must ;

-(c)vellius

[vellius]

Perfectly Imperfect

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Just looking at you ;

All I can see is my Happiness ;

You are the rainbow after the rain ;

A sunshine that brighten my day ;

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I can see your white korean alike skin ;

Your small nose that make you even more a korean/chinese ;

Those cute eyes that can't even wink LMAO ;

And your smile and laughters that made me fall ;

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The face of the woman I can't think I will love to ;

The sweetest and greatest cheerful girl of my Freshman year ;

The creative and hardworking girl I know ;

The ideal type and crush of my mates ;

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My seatmate on our 1st day of College ;

A mate I can bully and mocked ;

A friend who encouraged me about God ;

And a lover who guide me to be a better person ;

-(c)vellius

[vellius]

Hurt

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You are breaking

No one knows

You got hurt

And no one ask

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Someone's complainin

No one believes you

You are crying

And no one can hear you

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If this is a dream, I wanna wake up

I can laugh like nothing happens

I am sorry, Im dyin in pain

It's so tiring to live in pain

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I am breaking into pieces

Im alone in this misery

No one holds me to stop

This painful memory to play again and again

-(c)vellius

[vellius]

Heavy Rains

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Mid May I thought it would be hotter

But the rain is so heavy

Lying on my bed

Drowning on my thoughts

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Rains noise linger in my ear

Vehicles scratch and water flows

Kids having fun through the rain

The Innocence of Happiness

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They fear the Thunder

Go back on their homes

Raindrops filled my window

Relaxing coffee aroma

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Missing the old days

Just having fun and nothing to worry

Peace and Laughters

The Past and The Present

-(c)vellius

[vellius]

Guilt

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Things may not suit the situation

People may wronged you

Doubt yourself

Overthinking controls you

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Conscience strikes

Judgements chase you

Reflection haunts you

Everything is beyond your control

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But then God knows you

The real you and not they've seen

It's a hard battle

Too much do's and don'ts

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Continue living

Hardships build you

Repent and seek for him

Come and be save

-(c)vellius

[vellius]

Changing

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Everything seems right

Not knowing your changing

I've spent my time with other things

Not knowing Im losing you

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Im so devastated

Thinking what I did

But the point is

I didn't do anything yet

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I was calm

Knowing that i don't do a thing

And that's what I did wrong

Being calm

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Love is a commitment

Not just a feeling

Others may misunderstood

But it's the truth

-(c)vellius

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Drowning in Darkness

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Skies were plain

The moon is dazzling

Just looking at it

Im drowning deeper

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Birds noise filled the night

Moon brights that's made a path

Walking with freedom

Assuming that it was real

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Alive and breathing

Get numb on sadness

Dying but living

Got blind in darkness

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Listening to music

Got swayed by the beat

Lyrics that tells how i live

And the tune that mix my emotion

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2am but still awake

It's dark and raining

Raindrops that becames my lullaby

The way of living that others can't relate

-(c)vellius