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“You will search for me in another person, I promise.”

— Unknown

Drowning

I used to swim for hours

in my grandparents’ pool.

They said I was a mermaid —

skin wrinkled from the water,

hair smelling like chlorine and sun,

refusing to come out.

Water meant freedom then.

But somewhere along the way

water learned your voice.

Now every song sounds like drowning.

Every lyric

is the same old tide

pulling me under —

anger,

heartbreak,

your name hidden between the lines.

People say

your first heartbreak is a boyfriend.

They’re wrong.

Mine was my mother.

You were my first critic,

my first bully,

the first person

who taught me how to shrink inside my own skin.

You body-shamed me out of the water

until the girl who swam like a mermaid

started drowning on land.

Funny how that works.

In the stories

Ursula asks for a voice

in exchange for freedom.

I didn’t know

that deal was already made for me.

Because every time I tried to speak

you rewrote the story

until even I started to believe it.

And now every song I love

is about drowning.

Not because of the ocean.

Because of you.

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nothingspecialjustasoul

I break my own heart by expecting people to be as attached to me as I am to them.

theambitiouswoman

Focus on the things no one can take away from you

Your discipline

Your character

Your values

Your goals

Your perspective

Your self esteem

Your presence

Your self respect

Your intelligence

Your integrity

Your self love

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thoughtkick

“We all eat lies when our hearts are hungry.”

— Unknown

thoughtkick

“I hope you find someone who knows how to love you when you are sad.”

— Nikita Gill

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theambitiouswoman

When you water yourself down for other people, they don’t see you as humble. They see you as smaller. And the human brain fills in gaps, if you shrink, people subconsciously assume they’re above you

The brain automatically and unconsciously reads confidence, posture, tone, and self presentation as signals of status and competence, so when you consistently shrink yourself, people’s perception of your authority shrinks with it

I don’t know why you might water yourself down. Maybe to be liked. Maybe to avoid jealousy. Maybe to keep the peace. We’ve all done it at some point. The moment you dilute yourself, you teach people how to perceive you

You don’t need to be quieter, less ambitious, less opinionated, less intelligent, less attractive or less anything to make other people comfortable. The right people are not threatened by your fullness

Be much muchier. Water seeks its level. So stop lowering yours