(^ limited edition pink Houvco encouraged by me ✨✨✨ also woahhhh apparently other people started using the 'my god he stole a baby' one 😭 I made it for myself, I thought it was an inside joke 🫠)
Ciao, call me Verbose (Verbie is good if we're friends, and I'm ok with casual use of pet names like hon, babe, pookie, etc, or feel free to ask about anything else you'd like to call me!)
Pronouns are she/him/his (never "her" and never they/them!!) I went into detail about how this works and my nuances Here
Highly Sensitive Person, mild-moderate agoraphobia, paranoia which is sometimes severe, sensory and contamination related food aversions, lifelong chronic pain, and believe it or not there's more.. There's always more :(
Oh yeah and I happen to have an ED. This is NOT strictly an ED blog, and I do not generally post th!nspo or similar. It comes up sometimes as one of many things that make up my daily life, my struggles, and who I am. You have been warned.
I also ✨yap✨ and am ✨annoying✨, you have been doubly warned.
Tags below, for you to block or explore at your whims
#verbose yapathon - Lighter posts, random stuff that is always non ed-related and generally fairly short.
#verbose asks stupid questions - polls! I often do week-long ones so feel free to check this tag for ongoing polls
#verbose gets an ask yippee!!! - asks (I only ever post positive asks so you won't find anything stressful here)
#legends say verbose has been yapping so much that all his moots forgot she even had an ed blog but here we are - r3strictive or b!nge ED-related posts. I don't use this one for my sensory, contamination, or otherstuff related food aversions. (Point being: I have something that may or may not be ARFID, but that's not the "ed" I speaketh of.)
#the ver struggle bose 🚌 - posts related to other physical or mental illness stuff, just struggling, usually not ed-related
#i'm verbose and this is deep - uhh idk "deep" stuff? See for yourself 💀
I'm just here to say I'm still here and I am safe, in case there was anyone worried after my recent post and/or my inconsistent activity on here (I don't think there was, but just in case) 🧡
My heart goes out to those with the patience to draw identical twins. You could literally just draw one but no, you spend double the hours to keep them together ☹️ You are pure of art 🧡
I still think about this one time the hokey pokey somehow came up (I do not remember the context) and I said something like "I feel weird that I don't know how to do the homey pokey. Like, I never would, but it seems like something everyone should know." and my dad, without missing a beat, told me "You just follow the instructions." and I was like "Oh."
I loathe it when I tell people I'm a writer and they always say the same two things "what do you write about?" and "I'd love to read some!" like NO. That's not the point! I do not even know how to articulate it in a way you'd be able to comprehend because you completely lack the past six and a half years of my Brain History. I don't have any one cohesive independent story written in chronological order in one document that I could theoretically show you. And on top of the impossibility of sharing it at any level that means anything, it is so incredibly personal that to consume a piece just for the sake of consuming it is quite sincerely an abuse of the project. And you have to understand, the project is Me, it is the parts of me that matter. If you truly wanted to know these worlds and these people, who you can only know through me, it would be a lifelong commitment to exploring, expanding, and untangling this massive web of magic and raw emotion with me. If you just want to read something someone wrote, go to the library.
I believe birth names are merely placeholders, because there's truly no way to know who this is yet. Like most things given at birth, many of us outgrow our given names. 🧡
Hot take for this site I know, but replacing "having a penis makes you evil and a ticking time bomb of a rapist/abuser" with "having he/him pronouns makes you evil and a ticking time bomb of a rapist/abuser" is not progressive at all, actually!
Breaking news everyone! No matter what, demonizing an entire group of people/making them out to be abusers by virtue of simply who they are is not a progressive thing to do!
Even if it's a group of people you don't like.
Even if someone in this group has hurt you before.
They changed the color palette on doogle dogs and I'm so pissed WHAT DO YOU MEAN the colors have been the same THE WHOLE TIME and now out of nowhere you're calling THAT pink monstrosity (second in from the right, top row) "purple" and ALSO made "magenta" more pink? WHERE is the normal purple that is ACTUALLY purple?? and WHY is yellow so highlighter greeny yellow now?? And the cherry on top of this utter travesty: They adjusted my custom font colors that I have used religiously in my color-coding for SIX AND A HALF YEARS accordingly.
Sometimes I feel gross, like I'm lying, if I just ignore it when a moot says something horrible, rather than even unfollowing them or asking for a better explanation of their thoughts. For the most part I've come to just assume y'all are allowed to have some terrible takes and considering we're all openly mentally ill it would make a lot less sense if you didn't. Still, it definitely rubs me the wrong way when someone is very well liked to the point where all their posts get likes even if they're very nearly promoting genocide. And they go ahead and do so. I've seen multiple cases of this and other truly horrific things and it continues to baffle me.
Having gotten that off my chest, I will clarify that this is not a call-out post and I will not be naming any of the users who are guilty of this. As I understand it, we all have our mental illnesses and traumatic experiences that have shaped the way we think. For some people that leads to these kinds of beliefs. It's no excuse, but it is a reason, and I'm not here to shame anyone, I'm just here to be a friend and when someone crosses a line that's too far for me, I just let them go and hope that they will heal enough to grow out of those views.
