GROWING BOVINE

This is document of transformation. Discipline, consistency, accountability to become muscular fuckmeat: flexible, enhanced, primal and versatile. I'm building the physique of my dreams and I'm going any lengths to get it. Bodybuilding, weightlifting, gymnastics are all parts of what will make me (w)hole.

[versatilelivestock]

Things have been ok.

I have been upping the calories in an attempt to give my body nutrients when feeling some new areas for the first time.

I have been foam rolling my lats and legs a little differently. Last night I got deep into the bony part of my hips and it sits different this morning. I have been exploring different chiropracters, and I got a trainer to help me with my weak movements.

There's so much inactive muscle tissue in my legs and back and I'm starting to feel it! I went on a date with a (very beefy) guy who offered an ART session to start. Some of it was helpful, definitely feel my left shoulder different after that. Big crack in my ribs too, that was awesome.

Staying patient is still hard. I'm meditating on it daily. Lots of rage lately at difficult social situations. I was screamed at in a place I thought of as safe by someone I now know isn't safe. They can't take my patience from me, but they definitely tried. It's dark. It doesn't HAVE to be my focus.

- HELPFUL THINGS -

-screaming into a rag as part of morning routine

-foam rolling for feel on legs

-foam rolling spine by section, for breaths

-any exercise using spacer/bosu-ball for balance

-touch from someone bigger/taller than me

-TRE

[darknaig]

Do you like me mooscles?

[versatilelivestock]

Long delay.

I decided to get some different eyes on my posture, and I'm making steps along the path. I have a treatment plan now. It feels much different than physical therapy, and I am exercising patience.

Healing in a calorie deficit is hard, I decided to allow more calories in, with mostly the same foods. Letting peanut butter back in feels like tempting fate. And I am doing better with it than in the past.

Building an elite level of strength is what I'm aiming for. That amount of discipline and consistency is not something that can be bought or begged for. I'm still showing up the most I can. Some days that is just for mobility, and that's great. I enrolled in a class at a new gym and it is kicking my ass. I want to be flexible and I believe I can be if I let this work change me.

There's more sex lately. Some of it is good, and some feels like going through the motions. I went to a circuit party and my experience was very mid. I tried to bury my nerves and nerves won. I was social in a new context that feels like a win.

The depression has been hard as I navigate a support system that is changing. I trusted some people very deeply that I can't really reach anymore. People I would have talked to about body image, and emotions that feel overwhelming. I will find new people to engage with about this. Change is hard.

I am going on a retreat to learn about men's sexuality, eroticism and spirituality this weekend

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I avoided this update for a while

Sad boy feelings take aim at my diet first. It's frustrating, but it doesn't take away from the progress I've made. Night time anxiety remains a struggle to not eat through. Mobility journey continues. My left hip feels cranky and I've been trying many different things to address my psoas, piriformis and whatever else causes the pinch feeling when I squat. Exercising patience feels the most difficult, by far.

I may engage in some hypno sessions. Having the space to engage with the beastial, primal sexuality I feel deep in me seems like a good step

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Holiday check-in 🎄

I had way too many cookies and shit the day before this. The holiday season is tricky emotional territory and I have a strong history with food as a soothing behavior. I stopped caffeine altogether about a month ago after slowly tapering it off. I think that was easier to kick because I had done it before when I was much younger. I want to remember that when embracing the life that gets me through to my goals. I learned new things about my hips and legs this week and that feels like very powerful knowledge I get to use now.

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December check-in 1/2

Things have been moving along. I'm able to feel muscle and fascia that I couldn't a month ago. Chest, neck, hips. My bench went up some. My chest looks more symmetrical

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Things have been slow since the deadlift comp, but it hasn't undone the progress I've made. I learned things about my mobility/flexibility this month that will help me get where I want without pain. My right side is elevated, my ribcage is flared, and my upper traps have been doing the compensation. Ow. My mid and lower traps have never been fully engaged, and this ties into the imbalance in my pecs (right side, why are you shaped different...). My hips could have their own post.

This is all to say that learning how I can improve feels like piles upon piles of work. I can tackle them one day at a time. I am stronger today than a month ago, even with these limiting factors around my mobility and tightness. It's frustrating. Growth is not easy. I want to show up for this work every day I am able

[versatilelivestock]

October 2025 check-in

He/him 37, 5'8 neurospiced coffeemilk cub in training for MuscleBull status. Here to get inspired and inspire others in their growth journey

I'm shooting to do this every 20 days going forward. I participated in a strength contest last weekend. I showed myself that I am stronger than I admit to people-

I proved to myself that

I can achieve goals I set

I don't need THC in my system and

I don't need screen time(blue light) to fall asleep

I don't need to over eat to calm myself down and regulate my mood.

I can deadlift 315#

Last night I did smoke and overeat, but this is where I am on the other side of that. I feel 20 days without is a solid entry.

I learned difficult things after the strength contest ended. I did not sleep well for many days, but I did yesterday.

[versatilelivestock]

October 2025 check-in

Things FEEL like they are moving in the right direction. I got a DXA scan in August that said I'm at 8.9 BF%. That number doesn't mean so much for me. My mobility means a lot to to me, and I have built more strength and also feel the imbalances in my body. Right shoulder and pec, left hip, and everything around my ribcage. I feel new sensations in my back/lats/scapula frequently. I'm staying the course, and entered a deadlift competition this month.

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Longtime favorite 😍 T A G A M E 🥵

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August 2025 check-in.

There have been ups and downs with diet and mobility. Having patience in this process is arduous. Showing up for the work with consistency is a test every day. Some gains I've noticed is the ability to do pull-ups. I could not do them in April, and yesterday I did 30+. That is a marked difference this post forces me to acknowledge. Let's go

[supremehomme]

Svien Falzon

[supremehomme]

Svien Falzon

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[versatilelivestock]

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[juicedcatboy]

💦 to this fellow freaks. think of all the hormones inside that bulging meat while you touch yourself.

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[finalatomicbuster]

Carl Hardwick | 2000 COLT Man Calendar

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[bigboysdrinkmilk]

We are but a fragile dream, a singular weed, resisting, ever resisting, that iron dirt, that eternal law.