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transmasc in its 20's, tired... 18+ vent place

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Hi, you can call me Wy. I am here to simply talk about my thoughts about the abuse I've faced from other trans people. I usually use this space to vent

Please use it/its or they/them pronouns. I'm white & multiply disabled.

This blog is not my main.

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I woke up super pissed off why do I keep getting manipulated where I don't know what to trust or what's a lie

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Death To A Billion Pedophiles And Rapists

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if i dont get help with food i might hurt myself this sucks so bad

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so pathetic and intense, right?

that's why i don't have any friends, right?

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contemplating for a while just moving back in with my mom and kill myself

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Right now outside of the obvious I' mm just so pissed. A rapist sex offender gets EBT easier than one of their adult victims I'm laughing this is beyond parody 😭 fucking kill me now

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If you told me I raped you the last thing I would dream of doing is calling you a liar, bring up my delusion of every person on earth being me, and break a window with my fist in front of you while screaming. But I guess when you're transfem that's a normal and compassionate way to respond apparently

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I also wouldn't bring it up online to try and raise money when I'm not at risk of homelessness or in an abusive environment, or claim that my victim raped me instead. Or choose to do this years afterward in an attempt to escape any kind of responsibility for my actions

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If you told me I raped you the last thing I would dream of doing is calling you a liar, bring up my delusion of every person on earth being me, and break a window with my fist in front of you while screaming. But I guess when you're transfem that's a normal and compassionate way to respond apparently

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She's doing it again. i wish she would stop lying about me online to her sizably larger audience

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I'm reading more and trying to contextualize my experiences and how they fit into the larger picture of sexual violence but It Scares Me Like A Child how much of it rings true for me. Lied to and pried for my vulnerabilities and my existence equated to sex for the pleasure of others and having no other choice because I will become homeless if I don't obey.

And then when I'm honest about this dynamic it gets weaponized against me?? If you couldn't support me why did you let me in. It only seems like it matters now that I refuse touch and sex

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why does my partner only bring up their gender repression when they're emotionally manipulating me in other ways. it hurts so bad why?

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Slowly going crazy over how much my life has been ruined. Can barely say that I was trafficked when that's literally what happened, can't face how many times I was assaulted because it will turn me unpalatable and insane, coercion is so insidious I watch it creep into the cracks of lives I once thought I knew. And I'm spent dying and rebirthing those pitiful lives over and over

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How can my rapist easily raise herself thousands of dollars to move from an environment she has support and care in when I'm stuck with one of my abusers and dirt poor. Wait I know why

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Why do cis have have like zero opsec. It's your avg cis person actually they just will say things that make you do a double take

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WOW...... oh my god. she did this

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Sorry, citing the book too: Transgender Intimate Partner Violence, A Comprehensive Introduction by Adam M. Messinger, Xavier L. Guadalupe-Diaz

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a lot of people think being female and/or a woman gives you an inherent understanding of feminism and naturally a good feminist but there is no innate female knowledge, there is only learning from your lived experience, and just as importantly, learning feminist history and reading feminist theory. your gender or assigned sex do not grant you mystical female knowledge. you are a scholar of feminist theory and history, or you aren't. something something ursula le guin.

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oh and also, if you aren't reading any feminist theory written before 2019, you aren't reading enough feminist theory. Simone de Beauvoir, Angela Davis, Shulamith Firestone, Kate Bornstein, Kimberlé Crenshaw, bell hooks, Engels (not specifically feminist but extremely relevant), Audrey Lorde, Alexandra Kollontai, Silvia Federici

More recently Sophie Lewis, Judith Butler, Julia Serano, Mikki Kendall, Kristen Ghodsee, Juno Mac and Molly Smith, Emi Koyama

It's even worth reading some of the "bad feminists" to see how their influence shaped modern feminism and discourse around feminism today. Dworkin's influence on modern feminism was largely bad and pushed the movement politically right, but you can't fully appreciate that and understand the context unless you actually read some of her work.

If you're not doing this, you will be misled and harmed, as bell hooks often said, by women who are aligned with patriarchy and seek to uphold patriarchy at your expense.

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Here's where I would start. Modern Feminism 101

bell hooks, Feminism Is For Everybody

Shulamith Firestone, The Dialectic Of Sex

Silvia Federici, Caliban And The Witch

Angela Davis, Women Race And Class

Judith Butler, Gender Trouble

Simone de Beauvoir, The Second Sex

bell hooks, Feminist Theory From Margin To Center

Emi Koyama, The Trans Feminist Manifesto

Friedrich Engels, The Origin of The Family Private Property And The State

Kate Bornstein, Gender Outlaws

Sophie Lewis, Enemy Feminisms

Juno Mac and Molly Smith, Revolting Prostitutes

and not in the images, but I'm now including:

Jack Halberstam, Female Masculinity

Mary Wollstonecraft, A Vindication of the Rights of Woman (this is kind of the OG feminist text)

None of these texts of authors are perfect, which is why it's important to read a LOT of feminist theory, because people all propose different things and it's important to absorb a whole hell of a lot of it, because when people say "that's just feminism 101" they never seem to have any idea what the hell they're talking about. similar to people who say "that's just basic biology"