Because you lost the dreams that you forgot

Queer//Married//26

[vexinglexicon]

I miss real people on this app and not just bots and bullshit…

[depsidase]

[vexinglexicon]

7 months away from a platform in which I literally only have any interaction with bots 90% of the time, but somehow I still missed it?

[vexinglexicon]

Life has been punching me in the face over and over again. To anyone else it seems that I'm overreacting or delusional. The crushing weight of knowing your life is going the opposite direction every one wanted from me and that I'm a disappointment. I dropped out of college, multiple times, I work a dead end job that has an expiration date now because I will need to find a job that provides insurance within the next year. Everything is stacking and the pressure is mounting. All I want is a break from everything. I'm tired of taking care of everyone else and I'm honestly tired of even attempting to care for myself. Something's gotta give, I can't afford to take any extra days off. I'm getting surgery next month and will have to take a week to recover, that alone will probably deplete what little savings I can ever get together.

Everyone always tells me that if I cut back or stopped smoking weed that I wouldn't worry about money. While looking at it objectively I know that's true, no one seems to understand that it's the only thing that keeps my anxiety at least somewhat manageable and helps me keep myself grounded. Without it my brain spirals more than I know what to do with. The money I do spend on it feels worth it to feel more comfortable in myself. Since I started smoking I've felt so much better mentally but no one seems to believe me.

How long do I have to be responsible for everyone else?

I love my husband, he is honestly the love of my life. And I do help him a lot and have taken on even more responsibilities when it comes to him. And I do get frustrated with it sometimes but at least I chose to. When it comes to my family I feel like I've never gotten a choice, I've always had to be the strong one emotionally when hard times come. I had such high expectations put on me for my entire life, everyone always told me I was going to achieve great things and that I was so smart and how far I would go. I haven't achieved anything, I haven't done anything that even resembles an accomplishment. I'm 25 and I don't even have a driver's license. Whenever I try to get help or try to actually do anything I get pushback or blamed for why it hasn't happened yet.

What's the point?

Where am I supposed to go with my life from here? I don't even know what I wanna do with my life. What kind of job am I supposed to pick that won't make me totally miserable for the rest of my life? How am I supposed to make enough money to live my life and not have to worry about if I'll have enough to pay the bills? There's just too many questions that have no answers. I'm just lost at this point.

[reginathelesbian]

Swan Queen looks 1/?

[vexinglexicon]

Yall I really miss when tumblr wasn’t just bots

[huffy-the-bicycle-slayer]

I haven't seen dancing pumpkin guy ONCE this year, are you guys okay?

[huffy-the-bicycle-slayer]

FINE! I'll do it myself

[huffy-the-bicycle-slayer]

Why did 12 people reblog this today??? IT IS ONLY AUGUST!!!

[huffy-the-bicycle-slayer]

I see it is once again August 😮‍💨

[shardsofglassheart]

I think the hardest part about addressing child abuse is getting people to acknowledge, not just intellectually but actually responding accordingly, is that the biggest threat to children, the biggest risk of abuse, is family and parents.

it is of course most often parents who are crowing about needing to protect children (often against far smaller threats than family), and pointing out that they are, statistically, the biggest threat to their kids is not gonna be received well.

[discoursedrome]

tbh I feel like most of society’s rhetoric around “protecting children” comes from the same place as deep-patriarchy rhetoric on “protecting women”, where the idea is that they’re sacred and valuable but also treated essentially as property, and the the desire to protect them is largely experienced as a desire to ensure that those property rights are sacrosanct

[lloydthevoid]

Wow thats it

[arabbara]

R.I.P. The 2976 American people that lost their lives on 9/11 and R.I.P. the 48,644 Afghan and 1,690,903 Iraqi and 35000 Pakistani people that paid the ultimate price for a crime they did not commit

[gentlerainmorninghush]

A 10-year update to this post:

R.I.P. to the more than 4,500,000 people of Afghanistan, Iraq, Pakistan, Yemen, and Syria, who have lost their lives as a result of American occupation.

[cookietastic]

AI really has made people forget sometimes people just do whacky art like that

[cookietastic]

Putting $10 on that if this came out today people would call it AI

[cookietastic]

Where’s that Batman comic panel where the artist put bathroom is really fucked up like the tub was infront of the door and people were like this is AI and…the comic came out before AI art was even a thing 😭

[cookietastic]

found it lmao came out 2016

[cookietastic]

I like the plunger infront of the door( that’s block by the tub)

[fairycosmos]

can not believe i am a fully grown adult and many people my age have kids and degrees and serious careers. i can barely make dinner

[thefearofcod]

man if I gotta make bad art, it should at least be easy! But it’s not! It is also hard to make this bad art

[shittysawtraps]

i feel like if jigsaw was ever going to trap me for running this blog, he’d send an anonymous ask with the date that i’d be trapped on. and then i’d probably post the ask with some sort of wiseass caption like, “is that the date you’re going to suck me silly.” and then i’d get another ask moving the date forward. that hasn’t happened though so i think i’m ok.

[kaijuno]

[byteofsoup]

Imagine you're so small and cold and scared but there's smaller ones that are smaller and colder and more scared. I'm going to cry

[paramoreworld]

who fucking cares. has anyone here heard of cobra starship

[champagne-drippp]

what’s a girl gotta do to get a lil kissy on the top of her head

[thyfleshc0nsumed]

When I was 9 I wrote "bra" in Scribblenauts and then put it on my character and played for a bit with it on and then the shame hit so I deleted my save and cried and prayed to Jesus apologizing for putting a bra on my Scribblenauts character

[thyfleshc0nsumed]

This made me beg God for mercy