Excuse the absence for so much time! I see all the love you guys continuously put into my posts and it continues to brighten my day considerably, but I apologize for being so MIA as of late.
I don’t feel burnt out or anything necessarily, I just can’t seem to find the energy or time to put into writing. Or at least filling requests. I have been writing lots of stories from the perspective of/including my MHA Original Character, but those are more just for me to flush him out in a ton of different scenarios. I enjoy writing for him in my free time, but that sort of means I’m just ignoring my prompt box for now lol. I have so many ideas, and so little time it seems.
I won’t make any promises to post and write etc going forward, just cuz as well intentioned as I am when I post those things, I can never follow through, which is…upsetting to say the least
But I’m here, I’m around if you ever wanna message me, or send me asks unrelated to prompts and stuff.
And if you guys enjoy my writing in general, and would be open to reading other things I write for the My Hero verse, definitely let me know! I planned on starting a blog for my OC once his artwork was finished, but I don’t mind beginning to post there early- I have a ton written for him, and I’d love to finally share him with you guys if you’re ever interested in learning more about him, or just getting some more writing in general lol. SFW as well as NSFW
So yeah, lemme know, and I hope you’re all doing well! Lots of love from me to you 💖
Hope you guys are doing well! Just wanted to say I’m still here! Just really really busy with work, and taking time in my personal life to see friends, do new things etc etc. New stories and prompt fills are always on my mind, there’s just never enough hours in the day it seems rn lol. But appreciate the continued support on my stories and such, still makes me smile every time I see someone new going through the fics 💖
AND WE HIT 300 FOLLOWERS?! That’s absolutely wild to me, and I hope to do something soon as sort of a milestone fic. I have this idea of a sort of reader-bowl where all the boys start falling in love with him at the same time, lots of fluffy cutesy sweetness from a handful of the 1A boys.
Then maybe do a spicy follow up, cuz who doesn’t wanna be fawned over by a bunch of sexy naked dudes? I know I do >:3
Hope you guys are doing well! Anything new going on in your lives? You ready for fall?
This is one of my favorite times of the year- the fall season always makes me feel so much calmer. I love the colors, and the food, and the spooks! I’m a huge horror gay, as I’m sure many of you are!
My requests are closed, but my ask box is still open if you guys ever wanna talk about what’s going on with you! Your school, work, how you’re enjoying the season. I’d love to hear more about you guys, especially when it comes to spooky stuff you enjoy 💖💖 you can ask on and off of anon if you’d like as well
I don’t have any like, regular anons, so you’re also more than welcome to tag your anon asks with anything you’d like so I know in the future it’s you when you ask stuff
Hope you guys have a wonderful weekend, and a great day! Mwah 💋
Just for the next few weeks while I focus on finishing up a project for work, and getting the current requests filled when I get the chance to. Work and life has been keeping me super busy, as end of summer usually goes tbh. Quite tiring and taxing, but I’ve got a few trips planned to get away and take some time to myself to breathe a little, so that’s great :3
Sorry again for the silence in terms of posts and fills and such, but here’s hoping I can make some time to get to a fill or two, or a personal story: I’ve been really into the idea of story involving the boys of 1A turning into babies, and Y/N having to take care of them. Just general fluffy cuteness lol
But yes, requests are closed, and I’ll make another post in the future when they’re back open
Requests will be closing tonight for the next few weeks as I work on closing out the ones I have so far- but there is a lack of spice in my inbox rn and I would like to do some more naughty stuff soon as well, so if anyone wants to requests some nasty, kinky, shamelessly spicy goodness, please do! I’m literally feral for it rn 👹🔪
Hello!! ive been going through your blog (dw im over 18 btw) and i am in L O V E!!!!! i just wanted to ask if do you also do poly-relationship head cannons or smut, for example character x character x male reader? i just wanna make sure if youre comfy with it <3 ly
Thank you thank you! And thanks for letting me know you’re 18+, always super appreciated :3
As for your question, I actually really love poly ships lol, I almost, ALMOST prefer them to strictly traditionally monogynous ships if we’re being honest. More people to love and all- of course they also always come with their own set of rules, different types of angst and dynamics etc, which I also really love exploring.
I have an old AizawaxHizashixReader thing I Drabbled about that people still interact with, and I’m always patiently waiting for someone to request an actual story of them lol, I’m like chomping at the bit for it tbh
But yes! Poly relationships, sweet and fluffy, or extra horny and smutty, you’re more than welcome to send in prompts for! I prefer prompts over Headcanons if we’re being honest, which I know sort of limits what you get in return, as Headcanons can cover a wide range of ideas and topics- but feel free to spam request your poly desires in my ask box! I really don’t mind, and I’d love to see some variety in there honestly
I do plan on closing my ask box temporarily after this coming weekend, just so I can comfortably catch up on requests, and not worry too much about new stuff coming in as I’m planning out request fills and such. So if you do wanna request some things, I’d say send them in before this coming Monday, just so I can be sure to get to them within the next few weeks! If you’d be so kind 💖💖
Anyone else wanting to submit a request, also do so before the end of this coming weekend please! As requests will be closed for a few weeks as I catch up on what all is in my inbox.
Thanks again nonnie, and I hope to hear from ya in the inbox :3 have a great day!
I go to college and I completely understand because last year I swear it felt like I never got a break! I wasn’t on tumblr at the time, but if I did I probably would’ve had time to go in like twice a week. :/
It was a rough year lmao..
Oh god I can’t even imagine! Like work to me is tiring, and time consuming, but for the most part I can turn it off when I do finally get home, but your college courses I imagine just constantly plague you when you’re in AND out of class, so I applaud you all day dude! It’s hard to juggle real life things alongside your hobbies or personal interests, so I hope you’ve been able to find a nice balance so you can enjoy yourself outside of classes 💖
I hope your year thus far has been exponentially better nonnie! Sending you lots of love as the schooo year begins again soon 💋💖💋💖💋💖💋 ((at least in the states, if you aren’t in the states I hope you’re either on break/getting a long break soon :3))
It’s nice that you post a little checkup (or whatever you wanna call it) so we know that you’re there and how you’re doing. :)
Of course nonnie! This blog is a big part of my day, even when I go a while without posting- life and work and such do get in the way quite a bit, but I love writing for these guys, and interacting with you all, and you guys have all been so welcoming and sweet, I wanna extend the hand of courtesy with an update when/if I can 💖💖
Hello hello!sorry for all the silence on my end the past couple weeks, work has been absolutely hectic- summer is the worst time for me, as I work a more physically demanding labor job outside during the summer months, and increased hours means I get home and I’m basically dead sksks
I also just got pulled away from home for a project that’ll last just a couple weeks, but the work then back to a hotel life is quite draining tbh. Nothing beats going back to your own home every day 💖
On the bright side, which also is sort of a downfall I suppose, when I get home rn I’m usually so tired all I really wanna do is type up some drabbles- but they tend to lack focus and I can’t put too much energy into even that, but I wanted to let you guys know I’m still working on getting your prompts laid out and ready to be filled- writing the full Todoroki Angst fic, and working on my Original Characters introduction post- as his ref sheet I commissioned is nearly complete :3
Sort of sucks that the summer months tend to be this way for me; makes for more inactivity on my end then I’d like, but we’re on the home stretch this month when it comes to that, thankfully! By October at the latest I should be able to post and update more regularly, to my liking.
But! As always!! I appreciate to the moon and back, your guys continued support! I don’t think in my 9 years of writing I’ve ever felt as fulfilled as I do writing here with you guys, and it’s a pretty incredible feeling tbh 💖💖 so again, thank you!
I have some plans for themed weeks later in the year in the works as well, which is super exciting- Halloween and Christmas stuff mostly, cuz I love me some holiday themed prompts lol- and I’m about to hit 300 followers, which is mind blowing as well, so I wanna try and do something special/fill more prompts to celebrate and thank you guys!
So yes, overall pretty tired and low energy outside of work, but I’m still here, still writing, so if you guys could continue to bare with me for a bit longer, I’d so appreciate it 💖
Sending you all lots of love and the best energies for your week, and I hope you’ve all been doing well!
Apologies to you guys patiently awaiting the full fic- struggling with some personal stuff this week- and after being on a roll of felling so good about things lol, the universe loves to be a dick sksk- and as much as the ideas keep running around in my head, I can’t bring myself to sit and get them down.
I have an extended vacation starting late next week, so I’ll probably be a little AFK until then- figuring some stuff out, making myself feel better etc etc. as always your patience means the world, and is greatly appreciated- and your continued support is astounding 💖
Hope you guys are having a great start to your week, and hopefully I can post something soon. Even if just a small Drabble to make myself feel better lol, nothing like some fictional men to heal your feels 😤💖😤💖
Hope you guys are having a wonderful week! Gonna be posting a full version of the Todoroki angst story I posted previously under the Drabble interest check, this coming weekend , since you guys seem to really be down for a full version! Which is much much appreciated, And I’m very excited for a longer, more in depth version- may even do two parts if it ends up being lengthy, which I imagine it will, so stay tuned for that :3
Here to give my two cents!! I think the drabble thing is a great idea and the one that you posted was a really good tester! I think it’ll be helpful for you and us to be able to test and traverse these waters together! Also, all hail the poly fic!
Thank you nonnie! Feedback to me is so greatly appreciated, especially when it comes to me moving forward on my blog and putting out more stuff that is generally more under the taboo or problematic umbrella, or even just out of the norm. I’m really proud of that drabble, and the feedback I’ve been getting has been so interesting, so I think it’s safe to say I’ll definitely make it into a fic at some point!
And yes! Hail the poly! What’s not to like about being able to love two great dudes at the same time? 🥸💖
So just a quick recap, refer to my previous post for a more in depth explanation- I wanna start sharing some drabbles I write more off of a whim, when idea’s hit me really suddenly, and I just start writing them down, and they never turn into much afterwards.
But, I thought if I shared them with you guy’s, maybe they’d prompt some inspo to request more, to turn them into full fics, with a full story- as most of my drabbles spawn from me thinking of one specific scenario, and building off of it a bit until I get to a drabble length- or more, as this one is nearly 2K lol don’t ask me how, I was super into it as I was writing.
Or urge me to try and and add a real start and finish to them, so put out as full fic’s myself.
I also think these drabbles will give you a guys a better idea of what I like to write, what I'm willing to write, and what I'm open to writing. As my drabbles usually hit more angst and nsfw/kink notes. ‘Problematic’ or otherwise.
I’ll add some notes to the end of the fic to give an idea of what I had in mind with this drabble, and go more in depth on that.
But here it is, I'm actually very proud of this one, and hope to figure out how to finish it at some point.
Established Enji Todoroki X Male!Reader
Additionally: Natsuo Todoroki x Male!Reader angst, unrequited love (or is it? ;3))
Shuffling into the kitchen, you grimaced as the carpet turned to cold, hard tile below your feet- wrapping your arms around yourself as you did your best to stay quiet, rummaging around the Todoroki kitchen for some snacks. You’d woken up restless, your stomach growling, and after prying yourself from underneath Enji’s death grip, you’d worked up quite the appetite.
The soft sizzle of pork on the stove could be heard soon enough. Not too loud, but that, alongside the soft beeping of the rice cooker, and the delicious scent of your cooking wafting across the lower levels of the house, are what woke Natsuo from a fitful sleep.
Rubbing both of his eyes with his fists, Natsuo yawned. Brow lifted in question as he sniffed the air, and checked the clock. Who the hell was cooking at two in the morning?
Legs swinging off the bed, he stuffed his feet in his house shoes, and set off towards the kitchen. Yawning as he went, lifting up his shirt briefly to rub at his stomach, as he came to a stop in the kitchen doorway. The scents pouring out of it pulling a soft moan from his lips, his stomach twisting with want.
Though not just for food anymore. Not when he saw you moving swiftly around the kitchen, like you’d cooked there your whole life. Trying to be silent, but humming under your breath quietly. Clad in nothing but a pair of sleep shorts...and one of Natsuo’s fathers much larger shirts.
The younger Todoroki resisted the urge to roll his eyes, ignoring the steering jealousy that raged within him, in favor of whistling lowly, catching your eye, and offering you a shake of his head, and a soft smile as he moved around the island, towards you.
You had enough sense to at least look apologetic, though Natsuo quickly shrugged it off, coming around to inspect your cooking briefly, before allowing himself to be dragged into a hug by you. Something he could vaguely recall being off put by, the first time his father had introduced you to them all. Your affection. Your ability to be so close in so little time. Trusting, caring, sweet, kind. Intimate touch of any kind was something Natsuo had rejected all his life- well, when he could start rejecting it- as his own advances for comfort and touch as a child had been snuffed out quickly.
Point being, it had taken him a while for him to come around to you being so...hands on, with him. Seeing you be so hands on with his siblings. It settled something, deep within himself, he hadn’t wanted to acknowledge even existed, but it helped. It helped a lot.
Though now, Natsuo rationed quietly in his own mind...now maybe he took things too far. His hands slung around your waist, your arms around Natsuo’s neck- hands in his soft, white hair, face in the boy's neck, where it would usually be pressed to Enji’s chest. You and Natsuo were almost the same height, though Natsuo had you beat on mass- taking after his father already, broad shouldered: muscular. Handsome. He was going to be a fine young man some day...he already was, really.
An uncomfortable flip of your stomach followed as Natsuo nuzzled into your neck- and you were quick to pull back slowly after, patting the boys chest with a smile, looking up at him through your lashes briefly, before turning to the stove to flip the cuts of pork in the pan.
“Are you hungry?” You whispered, almost conspiratorially, grinning as Natsuo blushed, laughing under his breath, before nodding.
“Good. Grab two bowls, it’s almost finished.”
You both ate in relative silence, only your contented sighs, and Natsuo’s soft affirmations of how good the food was. As always. You even had Fuyumi beat when it came to certain dishes. Though he’d never tell his sister that.
When the food was gone, and all that were left were empty plates, you lead Natsuo back to the large family room, adjacent to the kitchen, both of you taking seats on either side of the love seat/ feet tangled together under a blanket you threw over you both, before dissolving into random, half asleep conversation. Stomachs full, bodies warm, and pliable. Your eyes closed as you recalled something from your childhood- natsuo suddenly wide awake, as his eyes drifted down over your neck, counting your freckles, and blushing as His fathers shirt rode down far enough to see some of your chest hair, and the definition between your pecs.
God you were handsome, Natsuo thought, consumed with the need to lean over and press his face info your chest. Rip his fathers shirt off of you, and swaddle you in one of his collegiate sweatshirts instead. It would keep you warm so much better. Plus, Natsuo thought suddenly, heatedly: you’d just look good in something of his. The icy blue of Natsuo’s color palette reflected in your eyes. God...
“Natsuo?” You called across to him, snapping the younger man out of his daydreaming- a deep crimson flushing down over his pale cheeks, as the younger Todoroki averted his gaze, and rubbed at his neck.
“Sorry, I just...I got...I was somewhere else, for a moment. I apologize.” Natsuo finally stuttered out gruffly, staring off at the corner of the wall, trying to calm his thoughts. But they were swarming now, insistent, /fiery/, burning up his chest, and his mind. “It’s alright, I-“
“why-“ Natsuo caught himself, biting his tongue as he cut you off, feeling embarrassed. You paused, smiling and shaking your head as you motioned for the man to continue.
“....why are you with my father?” Natsuo finally asked. Voice soft, hesitant. But firm enough that it was clear he was demanding an answer this time. Because he’d asked this very same question just weeks after first meeting you. When you’d fixed the young man with a knowing gaze, rested a hand on his chest, and simply said “because I like him”. Natsuo couldn’t fathom anyone so much as tolerating his father, let alone liking him. So it was a bit jarring, to say the least.
“Do we really have to go over this again?” Ah, Natsuo thought. So you remembered that too.
“My father could live a thousand lives atoning for what he’s done, and it would never be enough to deserve someone like you,” Natsuo said, voice heavier now, a little louder, breaking the quiet space you’d created there on the sofa together. Gaze directly on you now. Your eyes. Your gorgeous eyes that looked at his father with such admiration, that it made Natsuo ill sometimes to bear witness to it.
“You are not the sole keeper of your fathers misgivings, Natsuo. He hasn’t just hurt you. Whether you choose to see and actively acknowledge the man he’s trying to become, is on you, and I won’t force your hand or try and tell you how you should feel. But don’t question my love for your father, because it’s just that: mine.” You matched the young man's tone, voice even, and soft, yet affirmative- leaving no room for argument. Though Natsuo seemed to want to test that.
“So you love the old man then, huh? You really love him?” Natsuo urged, sitting up suddenly, much closer now as you stared.
“Not that it is any of your business, but yes, Natsuo, yes. I’m in love with your father, and I see myself living a long and happy life with him. Getting married, settling down, having-“ “having what? Kids?!” Natsuo questioned, eyes wide as he stared at you.
You paused, wondering if this was a conversation you should be having with Enji at your side.
Natsuo was sweet, and soft spoken- when it was with anyone who wasn’t his father, that is, since that usually resulted in a shouting match between the two. Now though, he was feeling combative apparently- questioning your decisions, which you didn’t appreciate in the slightest.
“Please tell me you’re not stupid enough to want to have /children/ with that man?” Natsuo urged, half desperate, half pleading, as he sat up on his knees, nearly towering over you now as you looked down on you.
“Watch. Your. Tone.” You warned him, sitting up so you were on even level again, noses nearly brushing as you did so.
“Your father may put up with your snippy, accusatory remarks because he thinks allowing you to walk over him will somehow bring you two closer together, but I sure as fuck won’t.” Your cursing nearly made Natsuo flinch out of pure guilt, but he stood his ground.
“You’re fooling yourself if you think he’d be any different with your kids. Look at how we turned out! Is that what you want for your own children? A childhood of solicitude and abuse, to feel unwanted, and uncared for? To wonder every night when they go to bed why their father doesn’t love them?! Is that what you want!” Natsuo was shouting now, panic rising in his throat, and you suddenly felt wholly unprepared for this conversation.
“I’ll be damned if I allow that sorry excuse of a man and a father, to think about bringing up new children. Robbing you of your chance to have a real partner by your side. Someone to help you care for, and love your children. You...you deserve so much better than him, I don’t understand.” Natsuo was holding back tears now, chest heaving as he breathed, and you couldn’t take it. Gathering him up in your arms, you brought the man in for a tight hug. Cradling him in, and rubbing his back as he began to cry, mumbling nonsense into your neck as you just held him, and closed your eyes, willing back your own tears as you bared witness to something for the first time: the result of Enji’s fathering.
Or, your brain offered up weakly: the lack thereof. Even more so...his abuse. Here you were, experiencing the aftermath first hand, and it made your heart hurt so deeply, and your mind race. You wanted to beat the shit out of Enji for doing this to Natsuo, but what could be done about it now? Enji was trying, he was trying so hard every day. But Natsuo was clinging to his hate, and his anger, and his fears, and who were you to tell him he should let them go?
At least this way, you rationalized, you could be there for him when they became too much.
“I didn’t mean to upset you. Im sorry,” you whispered into his hair, raking your fingers through it as Natsuo shuddered through another sob, and shook his head in your chest. “I'm so sorry, Natsuo. I’m so, so sorry.” He mumbled something then, body tense, refusing to be pulled back to see your face, even as you tried.
“What?” You asked quietly, tilting your head to hear him better.
“Do you love /us/?” ‘Me’. Do you love me he’d asked first, you realized, and your heart beat sped up as you did your best to squeeze Natsuo impossibly tighter- head in his hair as you nodded.
“I love you all so much. Fuyumi, Shoto. I have love for your mother, and for Toya. And I love you, Natsuo, I love you so much. I’m honored to be able to call you my family now. I do love you,” you reassured him, shushing him quietly through a new set of sobs, before tensing when Natsuo suddenly sat up, hot breath and humid, tear stains cheeks ghosting across your face as icy grey eyes met yours.
He was nearly panting with the effort to stop his crying, clearly looking for something as he stared at you, before he was leaning forward and smashing your lips together in a heated, desperate kiss.
thus concludes the drabble, now on to the end notes lol
So yeah, that’s it lol, lemme know what you guys think?
The plan for this originally was to have some sort of double todoroki x male!reader endgame, where he’d end up with both Enji and Natsuo, by some means. Though not without a fair bit more angst thrown in. Arguments, fighting, etc etc. But I did wanna have them all three be endgame someway or another.
Which, yes, would include incest. Whether direct or indirect, cuz one could make the argument they’re sort of just dating the same person, which is also fine- cuz it’s adorable to me, but they’d all be fucking at some point, even if most of the attention is solely on the male reader, it would happen.
That’s part of the big reason I wanna do this drabble interest checks, because they give you a glimpse into my problematic mind, and you can decide for yourselves if you wanna stick around and be a part of it, or leave.
Not to say poly relationships are problematic in the slightest, of course- I adore poly ships, and hope to write some in the future- but incest? Boy howdy.
But I love it sksksk >;3
So lemme know what you guy’s think of this fic! If you want to see it continued, if so, how so?
Feel free to ask me anon or otherwise about kink and dynamics, sfw or nsfw, if you’d like too. I’m gonna make an updated kink list with kinks I will be writing about eventually, so you can decide to stick around and see them, or show yourself out so they don’t bother you. My space is mine, so I will not be responding to, or entertaining people who want to be upset about them, or disagree with my tastes. It’ll get you nowhere, telling you right now.
But yeah. Lemme know guys. <3
Vixen
Hope everyone is having a great weekend :3 thank you guys so much for all the love on my latest Iida story! It means the world, and I hope it could bring some of you guys some comfort, or make you feel better, whatever your situations may be 💖 Iida is the best boy 💙
I had a quick question for you guys- would you be interested in reading sort of like, drabble-drafts I’ve got as sort of interest checks into possible stories to be written?
I often Drabble on in the notes in my phone, or to a friend of mine when ideas take over, and sometimes they’re pretty lengthy, well written, and generally, I love the ideas in them, they’re just not fully formed stories yet. Almost, but not quite.
They’re full x male reader Drabbles, no random spots of me speaking about the story itself, but they’re drabbles im unsure what to do with after I’ve gotten the idea out when it’s overtaken me lol
So I was thinking of posting one of my longer ones, seeing what you guys think, and I’d you’d like a larger more concrete story, or wanna suggest ideas on how to work with the idea, request a continuation or for the general vibe to be written a certain way, you’re more than welcome to leave feedback, asks, submissions etc etc
Plus, this is a good way to start letting you guys in on the content I enjoy creating, sfw and nsfw wise, because as I’ve stated in my original intro post, I delve into all kinds of topics, kinks, tropes etc. some problematic, some downright raunchy, etc. I also enjoy poly ships, and poly relationships in fic tremendously, so posting my drabbles will let you guys in more on things I’m willing to write, and maybe make you guys feel more comfortable requesting things that you wouldn’t normally- whether it be a secret kink you’re not entirely comfortable with yet, or relationship dynamics you’re curious about but don’t know how to ask for.
I want all my kinky and open minded followers to know it’s safe to ask for those things here, cuz I’m certainly not going to judge you 💖💖
The first Drabble I wanted to post was an established Enji Todoroki x male reader, with some Natsuo x male reader angst thrown in. I’m probably gonna post it this evening anyways, but I did wanna see what you guys thought about it in general as well!
Lemme know, and as always, I hope you guys are having a wonderful weekend, you’re all so lovely and I appreciate your support so so much!
Tenya Iida X Male!Reader: Comfort for a Broken Heart
Hey guys :3 Just something I wrote on a whim, for myself: didn’t plan to post it, but thought maybe it might help those of you who may be going through similar feelings to these. Or have before, and they flare up from time to time.
Happens to the best of us, so if this can help in any way, here ya go <3
((AS ALWAYS: MINORS DNI I AM AN 18+ BLOG))
“My turn,” Denki called, snatching up the aux cord and immediately beginning to shuffle through his playlist as he jammed the cord into his phone, and you couldn’t help but roll your eyes. Leaning more heavily into Tenya’s side. The class rep rumbling contentedly in his chest, before steeling himself and taking a deep breath as he slowly slid a hand over your shoulder, cupping the one opposite him and bringing you in close to his side. Blush high on his cheeks, as you looked up at him and smiled. Winking at him, in your own little world together as he turned back to his book, and you continued to scroll through your phone. The sound of Denki and Mineta bickering over something dumb more or less ambient, in the background.
It was a typical Saturday in the dorms, all things considered. Most people lounge around the common area, taking turns playing music, sharing their taste and just having a nice time. You loved nights like these. They calmed your inner anxieties, made you feel…safe. Cared for. You wouldn’t trade them for anything.
“Hey, I love this song!” Kirishima shouted, a little louder than the others, drawing your attention out of your mind and back to the music. Missing the worried look Momo through your way as you stared ahead, and the lyrics finally registered.
Oh.
Oh no.
Your chest grew tight suddenly, and try as you might to inwardly, frantically remind yourself it was fine, the part of yourself ruled by your emotions- the larger part-began to take effect quickly. Cheeks heating up comfortably, as you glanced around, as though everyone could tell. Though in reality only Momo knew, though Tenya, bless his heart, felt you stiffening next to him, and stared down suddenly at you by his side, one brow curled, as he set his book down.
“Y/N, are you-“
“I uh- I’m gonna go lie down guys, I’m starting to get a little tired. Might come back out if I can’t sleep or something. Sweet dreams,” you announced, hurriedly, cupping Iida’s jaw gently with one hand-Offering an apologetic smile, but not quite meeting his eyes as you turned to leave, shaking your head briefly at Momo as she made to follow you- pursing her lips, and settling her hands in her lap nervously as she watched you leave. Turning to Tenya suddenly, and debating briefly, before motioning him to come into the kitchen with her. The taller boy following quickly, glancing back over his shoulder at you as you disappeared around the corner
Making your way to your room, you breathed deeply, carefully. Good, then bad. Good, then bad. Breath coming in smaller pants, as you grew anxious. Frustrated tears welling up in your eyes as you rushed the last few feet to your room.
Shutting the door quickly behind yourself, and crawling into bed without even changing. Sighing in relief at the scent of your sheets, the feel of your various pillows surrounding you, cradling you.
It was okay.
Everything was okay.
All over a fucking /song/.
You were so pathetic.
It was okay though, you were okay. Everything would be okay. You’re alright.
You were so /stupid/. Why were you like this? Why allow him any more rule over your life? Get OVER it.
God.
Sniffling was followed by soft sobs, as you clutched at your pillows. Allowing it to happen, as it always happened.
Some days were better. Some days you were actually very good at ignoring it, or going unaffected as a whole. But some days, like today, the smallest thing could set you off. Make you feel small, and lonely, make you…miss him. Miss a time, and place. Miss…everything.
Thoughts flooded your mind without your consent, fueling your sadness.
Dates, smiles, kisses, /songs/. God.
What would Tenya think? Pathetic. You were so pathetic. Lonely and pathetic.
You didn’t deserve him.
Yes.
Yes you did. But that didn’t mean you couldn’t be sad about things that passed, you reminded yourself in your mind quietly as you cried. You were human. This was okay.
Maybe you were more emotional than others, maybe it was taking you longer to let go. To forget…to forget. But that was okay. Things take time. Sometimes you have bad days. It’s okay.
It’s okay.
“It’s okay,” Tenya echoed, voice soft, and sure as he slid in next to you in bed- you hadn’t even heard him come in.
Glasses set on the bedside table, and house slippers next to the bed, Tenya, with a heavy heart, slid an arm around you, bringing you as close to his chest as humanly possible, as you cried. Harder now that he was here. Seeing you this way. Speaking as though he knew.
Did he know?
…of course he did. What didn’t Iida know?
“I-I’m s-s-sorry,” you hiccuped, turning into his chest, hands fisted in the crisp, unwrinkled material, making it quite the opposite as you cried into your boyfriend's chest.
Tenya closed his eyes to stave off his own tears, as he racked his brain for anything, ANYTHING to say.
He always had something to say. Always knew what to do. Had all the answers. So why wouldn’t they come to him now?
“It’s okay,” he repeated, voice cracking, now unsure as he wrapped you in his arms and squeezed.
And there you lay together, well into the night, as you worked through your feelings. Shushed assurances from Tenya, and your quiet, hiccuping sobs are the only thing filling the space. Until finally, you’d cried yourself out. Breathing heavily, mouth open against Tenya’s chest, as one of his large, warm hands rubbed circles in your back. His warm breath flush across your neck where he’d nuzzled his face into: tentative, hesitant kisses ghosting the column of your neck as you calmed down.
“I…I read, quite a lot. As you know,” Tenya started slow, almost too quiet, waiting to see if you’d stop him. If you needed more silence. But you nodded, urging him to continue silently.
“Sometimes I read…wonderful books. Books with knowledge, and wisdom. Books that stay with me, teach me new things. Incredible books. And while I do believe all literature is to be respected…sometimes I read bad books too. And sometimes, I read books that are simply…books. Neither good, nor bad. Sometimes I’ll remember those unremarkable ones, once in a blue moon. Because that’s how the brain works. In funny ways sometimes…” Iida paused, face a deep red as he tried to figure out where he was going. What he was trying to say…
“Think…think of him. As a chapter, in the book, that is your life,” he began again, even slower, as you held your breath. “Good. Bad. Remarkable, and unremarkable. Sometimes you forget you read it at all, and sometimes you suddenly remember the good parts. Or the bad parts. And you wonder how in the world it can still come up. Make you feel things. Good things, or bad things”
“As humans, this is just something we do. Our brains are capable of incredible things, but even they get things wrong sometimes. Are flawed. Can hurt us in an attempt to help us.”
“Think of it as a chapter of a book. It’s happened. Maybe it was wonderful, maybe it was terrible. But it’s there, on the pages.You can’t change it. But you can read some more, so much more. And eventually…all the good things you read, will outweigh the bad, or even the unremarkable things you’ve read previously. It’s…hard to see now, for example. Especially if it was your last chapter. How could you forget it so easily right now? But I promise…I promise you’ll feel better. And I’ll,” Tenya paused, choking up A bit, as he recalled all the good times you’d had together in just the last few weeks. Finally getting close..becoming more.
“-I’ll be here to make sure those next chapters you read are more than remarkable. I’ll make sure they’re spectacular, y/n. I promise.” He kissed your forehead then, lips quivering as his own emotions overtook him, and you began to cry again. But for a whole new reason.
Lifting your head up to press your lips to Tenya’s. Grip tight on his shirt as you kissed him hard. Trying to convey just how much you loved him with one little action.
Things were gonna be okay, you reminded yourself quietly, as the two of you were a mess of tears, and kissing.
You were gonna be okay.
Hope you’re all doing wonderfully 💖 drinking water, getting plenty of sleep, not stressing too much, enjoying the summer :3
Apologies for the silence as of late, been dealing with a lot personally, and just finding it a struggle to get out of bed most days tbh, let alone write- even though I know it’ll make me feel better, hard to get yourself to do even basic things sometimes when you’re feeling out of it
Outside of work I’m not getting up to much, but I hope to turn it around soon. As always I appreciate your constant support on previous fics, and all the requests in getting are so delicious! I can’t wait to get to them
I did write something along the lines of a “Tenya Iida comfort for a broken heart’ type story, mostly for myself, a few days ago, to help me work through some past issues that have begun to flare up, so I think I’m gonna post that this weekend for you guys. In case anyone else could use a little comfort during a rough time from the good old class rep 💙 👓
I may try and get to something else this weekend, but in the meantime, bare with me as I get back into myself a little more. And never feel bad if you guys don’t quite feel yourselves, and can’t seem to get anything done- whether it be things that need to be done, or you just want to do them, and can’t. We all go through it. And if you’re going through it right now, solidarity babes. I feel for you, and I love you. Mwah 💋💖
Love you guys :3 talk to you soon! Look out for the Iida fic sometime tomorrow night 💖👓💙
