WHAT I MEANT TO SAY

I'm just one guy out of seven billion people. Maybe you'll like me enough to read what ails me. The Deep South keeps me sane and drives me mad.

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i'm okay during the day if someone is talking to me. i'm okay at work. but at night when i'm alone i feel everything falling apart. it's really terrifying. this is how it started last time.

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so very sick of going to sleep alone. so very sick of feeling like my grasp on life is slipping

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going through a breakup makes you want human attention so bad sometimes

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I can feel the fragile supports in my head breaking and tears are coming out of my eyes

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everything is so bleak

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i feel like being dead. nothing is good. i'm shit. scum.

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i just feel so fucking empty and like i'm living everything so wrong who the fuck am i. what is the idea behind this flesh.

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too much of a coward to ditch this blog and use my real one even though my screaming on here falls on 100% deaf ears. maybe that's for the best.

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i feel so insignificant, as if i’m drowning in an ocean turning with the lives of those next in line. one step ahead, two steps ahead, so many steps ahead in this dim fucking abyss of resumes and expectations, of boat shoes and club meetings, swirling swirling swirling, whirlpools keeping me up at night, a degree tearing itself from my feeble grip.

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i am ruining, EVERYTHING

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i'm ruining everything

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La Dispute // a Letter

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there is the gentle hum of anxiety

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whiteowl replied to your post:nothing feels right anymore

same :-(

i don't know what to do

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nothing feels right anymore

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there is so much beauty to be found but none within me if i am but an abyss puncture me and feel, too the endless dread welled within me