21, thon/thons, co/cos, he/him ⚠️ sometimes adult content ⚠️ Queer anarcho commie, collared, transsexual sub with a xenogender found in saint sebastian's delicious martyrdom, goth rivethead and RASH ajacent, philosophy student, all that... sometimes i like writing and drawing. and having a cult ⚰︎ https://linktr.ee/fifthfilth
Purpose of this blog: making friends and sharing rants, writings and art, and a little bit to show sl//ttiness
Carrd because it's prettier:
Omnes una manet nox ad oculos ab intra
Have a clear idea of my art, my disgusting presence and how obscene i am from the pathways of autism (= here)
I study philosophy; my favourite philosophers are Foucault, Donna Haraway, Kropotkin and some others; Masoch, De Sade, the various experiences in socialist, communist and anarchist praxis, so on and so forth; I'd like to specialise in some field of ethics, maybe, but especially philosophical anthropology, because, as queer and autistic, I've never been considered as human. But I'm evidently human. So the premise is wrong: what really is «human»? Also the reason why i especially like bugs and my cult (ocs) is centered around bugs.................... yea
As for literature, Kafka is my father. Also Süskind and Goethe. But I tend to read essays mostly. As for other favourites... my favourite artist is Claude Cahun, favourite film is A Clockwork Orange. Way too much to discuss with music but a favourite song of mine is Venus in Furs, it's like a spell.
I like all sorts of faggy things, especially the obscure, the macabre, the occult, the erotic, the dandy, clownish, jester-like and outwardly queer as well as the subtextual homo.
But my best interests are my autistic interests, namely Bloodborne, BDSM, sadomasochism, symbols and myths, mostly!
I adore drawing, reading, writing, music (all goth and some punk especially, but I listen to almost everything) — any creative endeavor will do.
My favourite games are Bloodborne (micolash kin... ew) and Fear and Hunger (enki kin... double ew). I also like Cyberpunk, Red Dead Redemption, Undertale, Deltarune, and I'd love to play Disco Elysium. I don't know what other fandoms I'm in... oh yes I've liked OK KO before, and I like Kami No Kodomo and Innocent, and i've fixated on Blue Eye Samurai.
T4T!!!
I've been on T for a couple of years :D and I have an amazing stunning dandy lovely man by my side, also on T, who also has collared me. I'm his dog, doll, ashtray and martyr. Here he is:
And here's me:
That's all!!
In the meantime I'll link long stuff I've written:
every now and then i think about how my blood exams show high cortisol and about how anyone would recommend to relax or do meditation or reduce stress but baby late stage financial capitalism has eroded every chance at relaxing and is feudalising the internet and perhaps my cortisol will be shown as normal by a chip in my brain by the time I'll have managed to have one single hour of pure relaxation
really galling amount of people misinterpreting this post so i'd like to clarify. i'm saying that when discussions about patriarchal beauty standards and the way women are heavily shamed and coerced into eschewing their own natural state of being (hairy) are occurring, it is unhelpful (AT BEST) to interrupt and say that the reason YOU remove the hair from your body is because of sensory issues. that's not what we're talking about. stop asking for validation for doing something that society at large wants you to do. stop derailing the conversation because you feel uncomfortable about being made aware that you, for whatever reason it is, adhere to harmful, unfair and ridiculous beauty standards. you're stepping into the middle of an important conversation that needs to be had and making it all about you. shut the fuck up forever.
also quite frankly i think a lot less people would experience sensory issues if they let their hair grow out so that it isn't bristly and rough and irritating. and i cannot help but wonder why these sensory issues aren't as predominant in men. maybe you're uncomfortable with the hair on your body because you've been taught to be uncomfortable with it. just a thought.
DEAD DOVE DO NOT EAT — TW: ALMOST EVERY POSSIBLE ONE. READ THEM IN THE NOTES ON A03 + TAGS BELOW
What could possibly happen to a freshman with a naif curiosity when he wishes to know more about eyes on the inside? Or: new, curious, half-suicidal and weirdly death-fascinated student is groomed, manipulated, and tortured in front of Ebrietas to feel the weight of victimhood as associated with violation and femininity to be made into a conduit of knowledge; back when Micolash was buddies with the choir and they all happily experimented on her :D
Full fic: The ugliest sin / Until it Sleeps
First 4/? chapters (almost finished): 14'755 words
Characters: male oc, Micolash, Yurie, Choir members, Ebrietas
Rating: Explicit
Archive Warnings: Rape/Non-con
Tags: Rape/Non-con elements, Extremely Dubious Consent, Dubious Consent, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, Medical Experimentation, Medical Torture, GroomingSexual Harassment, Humiliation, Small Penis Humiliation, Canon-Typical Violence, Violence, Graphic Description, Unethical Experimentation, Implied Harm to Children, Harm to Children, Body Horror, Religious Fanaticism, Necrophilia, Borderline Necrophilia, Suicidal Ideation, Coercion, Power Imbalance, Exploitation, professor/student, Teacher-Student Relationship, Sadism, Explicit Sexual Content, Erotic Horror, Eroticism, no beta reader we go like lawrence, Whipping, Flogging, Blood, Blood and Torture
Excerpt!
«He did not look away for long, distracted by the feeling of a bead of sweat forming at his brow as his hand was being taken from a bonier, older, colder one as the professor approached from behind — «You asked, so here it is, my child,» — and stuck an elegant probe in the freshman’s hand: «Your playground.»
The reply was a choked sound from Pontius’s throat while his body was deciding how to act. The professor’s hand urged his, making his grip tighten, while an assistant’s hands elevated the crown from the dead man to open his empty head; the exposed brain beneath glistened wetly, a pale and gently shuddering landscape of sulci and gyri that could not help but present itself as inviting terrain. That, too, was elevated crudely. Tip met tissue in the optic chiasm that now lay exposed: pale crossed tracks, more elegant than any diagram, vaguely familiar in their geometry — Pontius could not immediately name why.»
Please try to share our story and speak about our suffering. 🥹💔
Over the past few days, I asked for your help to cover Eid expenses and to buy medication for my parents. Yesterday, we experienced a very nearby airstrike that caused significant damage, including damage to our tent.
We are living with fear every moment. Every minute feels uncertain, and the war has never truly ended. The situation continues to worsen, and I could lose my life at any moment.Please do not forget my family and loved ones. Any support you can provide, even to help us repair the damage, would mean so much to us. We urgently need your help.These are some photos showing the damage and the area that was bombed. Please support and help us in any way you can. We need everything.😭💔
My name is Ayaa from Gaza city, I am a children’s teacher, 24 years old, living with my parents and siblings. We all used to live a peacefu
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Please try to share our story and speak about our suffering. 🥹💔
roald dahl was antisemitic and misogynistic. george orwell was openly homophobic. edgar allan poe married his 13 year old cousin. dr seuss cheated on his wife (and was racist as well as antisemitic!). hp lovecraft was racist as fuck.
anyways they’re fucking dead it’s not like you’re enabling their behaviors in the afterlife or something. then again I think they bleed into the books so uh keep an eye out for that
the difference between these old white guys and jk rowling is that the former group is all dead. jk rowling is alive and using your money to oppress trans people
