Vilely Yours

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[vileyyours]

One step forward, I take a chance and dress in something I would never wear out in public. Two steps back...I looked at myself in the camera and it made me cry.

[vileyyours]

[vileyyours]

Why do I feel like it is going to be impossible to find someone that actually gives a relationship their all with no strings attached?

I want to feel like I matter to someone, but I don’t know where to begin. Everytime I think about the idea of making friends and forming relationships, I’m scared that no one wants to be around me because I’m weird. I don’t feel I ever really learned to socialize and it is extremely difficult for me, but I do try.

[vileyyours]

I need a man that won’t doubt me if I say our house is haunted and we need to move.

[vileyyours]

Non-existent future

My body was ready for children. I knew deep in my heart that all the love I have for you needed to be shown to the world through our children. Yet we didn’t have children. We had a short marriage and in the end you loathed me. How can someone admit to the person they married that they do not love them, and so easily? I was prepared for our future. I spent my time planning and knowing what I needed to do to make our future a reality. To be able to love you and a child without boundaries was my ultimate goal, but now we are shattered. I feel like I’m waking up from a bad dream everyday I know that this is how we ended up. I loved you. I still love you, but you listened to those that know nothing about our relationship. You took advice from people that know nothing about me. At the end, you chose to know nothing about me. Everyone tells me I didn’t do anything wrong, but every part of me questions that.

[vileyyours]

[vileyyours]

You Don’t Define Me

I plan to be strong, to be something I have never had the courage to be. I have grown as an adult and as a woman and I know what I want. I want to be healthy. I want to be happy. I want to help people. I want to conquer the world.

I will grow out of my shell and I will prove I have what it takes to figure out what I want in life.

All you wanted was for me to cater to you, to kneel to you and kiss your feet. You chose to end this and you sparked a flame in me. I know what I am capable of, do you?

[vileyyours]

End of a Marriage

No matter what I said or did you couldn’t accept the fact that I just wanted to go to school before I moved to be with you. I needed stability and this was how I intended to get it. I focused my time and energy on getting through a day of work and school and you claimed I avoided you. I did avoid you, for a short time, until I knew what I could handle, and in the end I feel like you wanted me to. You wanted an excuse to get out of this marriage. You wanted to say that I did it, so I could be your scapegoat. So you could tell everyone that I am to blame for a divorce. I was a year away from being with you, with every intention of moving and starting a family, and yet you decided that you stopped loving me. I don’t hate you, but I hate that you could do this to me. In reality, you never planned on this lasting forever, you just gave up.

[vancouverfoodmonster-deactivate]

Just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean mental illness don’t exist.

[psych2go]

For those with anxiety.

[wylonaforest]

[skindeeptales]

Thais Leite

[vileyyours]

Still one of my favorite pictures of my cat.

[stolenwine]

I say that I love every part of you, knowing precisely what it is I mean to say. “I love every part of you”, as in “I know I haven’t seen every part of you, but I know I will love them, when I finally meet them.” As in, “I know your heart can get messy sometimes. I know, because mine can, too. I am good at holding things as they fall apart. It is all soft palms, here. I will help you pick up the pieces, every time, if you’ll have me; if having those shards of you recovered is the thing you need from this space we share.” As in, “I know you will inevitably say hurtful things, and I know you will not mean them. I know I will not always be easy to love, and I’m not sure I know how to tell you that I want everything you are.” As in, “I will not let you be the only one left. I will be there to listen to you, even when I don’t understand you. I keep saying that stars seem to be living beneath your skin, and I want nothing more than to fall further into your sky.” I say that I love every part of you, knowing precisely what it is I meant to say. I love all your past and all of your tomorrows; I love the sky inside your heart, with all its infinite light. I love you, whole. Every single star.

i’m trying to put it into words, Emma Bleker (via stolenwine)

[satins]

Self reminder: you’re still young and you’re not supposed to have your whole life figured out yet. Don’t stress. Everything will work out.

[vileyyours]

Alpha decided it was necessary to knead my buns. Got a little out of hand and bit 'em!

[gathat]

[idoalready]

MY HUSBAND ABOUT TO LEAVE IN AN OUTFIT HE PICKED HIMSELF.  #SheSaid