killian

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𓂀 #yap → my rants | #art → my art | #anonasks → anonymous messages or questions.

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ABOUT ME UNDER CUT

hey ( ⩌'︿'⩌) my name is killian or ian. i am an adult born in 2006, I go by he/him, im multiracial, certified polymath, digital /traditional artist, practising tattooist /body piercer, stuck in the 2000s, big lover for the unlovable, trying 2 study psychology

𓋹 i love nature, foraging, basketball, working out, partying and rave culture, concerts, swimming in lakes or rivers, za, music, urbex, cooking, old /niche movies & horror games, ps2, collecting physical media, vhs & dvds. I also REALLY love dogs and other weird /freaky animals!

𓋹 when listening to music i usually go for screwed hip-hop, reggae, rap, R&B, gfunk, southern /eastern hip-hop, crunk, cloud rap, nu-metal, experimental or breakcore. please recommend me music!

𓋹 i love cry of fear, minecraft, yu-gi-oh, half-life, gmod, S.T.A.L.K.E.R, old gta, lost in vivo, night at the gates of hell.

𓋹 I do not have a dni list whatsoever. i block and curate my internet spaces because im mature unlike some ;-P

𓋹 do not flirt with me. do not be parasocial, stalker-ish or obsessive with me. you do not know me. you do not love me.

𓋹 do not idolise me or steal my identity.

𓋹 i will not be befriending you if you are under the age of 18. my art isn't made for children anyways.

𓋹 i can be extremely apathetic or "sadistic" /mean/honest, especially if i dont like you. (¬_¬) i also struggle with time comprehension & understanding certain social cues.

𓋹 if you have an issue with me, then contact me directly. crying on anonymous to me is pathetic.

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biggest pet peeve whenever people draw me is when they erase my poc features. ive had a few people do this and it absolutely boils me to my core. I feel embarrassed asking " can you make my bottom lip bigger " or " can you make my nose bigger " because it sounds stupid in my head. for the love of god, if you don't know how to draw something, ask.

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my hand hurts so bad agghhhhh

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my artfight user: kornyadidas

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time 4 art fight.

my artfight user: kornyadidas (tragedy team)

你就像太陽 永遠照耀著我。(took 2hr)

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oc blerp

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hlepme oh my gpf

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[dirtgrubbiezz]

one time i saw somewhere his net worth was 90 trillion in USD and that’s the funniest thing maybe ever i think

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doodle

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shit took me 6 hours

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boost meal. helps lose weight & supports hydration, wanted to share. good source of fiber, protein, micronutrients (vitamins, minerals, antioxidants) and healthy fats.

recipe: two handfuls of blueberries, one juicy nectarine (cut in small pieces), a handful of chia seeds (fiber), greek yoghurt, two spoonfuls of honey as a sweetener. you can also drink some mineral water with this. for more satiety and muscle support, add a little more greek yogurt or some nuts (almonds, walnuts). go easy on the honey; the fruit usually provides enough sweetness on its own.

[dreamspacewanderer]

At the end of the day, who really are you if everything you know about yourself stems from the life of a person you're pretending to live as?

Edit with typed out text under the read more!

My name is Muto Yugi.

I like games. I like my friends. I like burgers. I have a grandpa at home who loves me.

My name is Muto Yugi.

I go to school everyday with my friends. I wake up at 5AM so I have time to do my hair.

My name is Muto Yugi.

I meet them everyday. We play games together.

My name is Yugi Muto.

I don't like the taste of burgers. I don't like eating.

My name is Yugi Muto.

I wake up at 1AM everyday. I sneak out through the window. There is this guard in my home that I don't know.

My name is Yugi Muto.

He grabs my arms and keeps me trapped in my home. He claims he's "worried" and that "I'm injured" but HES LYING!! HE WANTS TO TRAP ME INSIDE!!

My name is Yugi Muto.

The guard is wrinkled and says my name like he knows me. He's lying. It's a trick.

My name is Yugi.

My friends look at me funny. I don't like looking at them.

My name is Yugi?

I don't brush my hair. I don't wash my face. I don't go to school. Everyone is WATCHING ME at school. I don't know ANYONE AT SCHOOL.

My name is Yugi?

WHY DOES EVERYONE KEEP SAYING I'M ACTING DIFFERENTLY??!! I'M NORMAL!!

MY NAME IS YUGI??

I don't know what school is I don't know who you are stop looking at me STOP LOOKING AT ME ST-

MY NAME IS-

I seem to fall asleep for days at a time I'm dressed my face is washed my hair is brushed I'm fed. It is my captive doing it. They're forcing me here. They're keeping me here against my will. I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape-

I DON'T THINK MY NAY NAME IS YUGI.

I don't recogniz recognise--I don't think I'm me wh--

Move eec each limb--the reflection isn't me

I don't know who I a--y myself. Please someon-

I DON'T THINK MY NAME IS YUGI

THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THA-

Sometimes when I wake up I'm a new version of me I haven't met and I don't remember where I am and I think. Like. I belonged somewhere far far away and got trapped here as a form of c o s m i c p u n i s h m e n t. Like. A sinner taken to the slaughter. And I stop sleeping and suddenly I realise these people I call my family are people I don't know OR love. But that's cruel right. And I wake up not remembering days. Weeks at a time. And suddenly the house I thought was mine feels like a prison and when I look in the mirror my face it changes every time and I feel sick and have to look away because that's not me.

And I begin fearing that I don't recognise myself in any of my memories and I dont recognise the friends the me I see in my memories fought so hard to get and I realise that I REPLACED HIM. I AM THE REPLACEMENT. And so I try to gamble my life away and I fill "my" body with meds and caffeine and I pity the "ME" I replaced so much that I run around and s l a u g h t e r everyone who ever hurt him because he deserves to rest in peace. Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually dead and this is my afterlife but haha.

That has to be a lie right. Right. Please. Tell me I'm right. Who the fuck am I now? Him? M-

Why can't anyone just give me an answer.

To who I am. To why I am.

It's dark.

I'm scared.

My name isnt Muto Yugi.

But if that's not me..

Then who am I?

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mini doodle

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I DO NOT like how this turned out

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