velvety arms of the night

Is he still sleeping with Camille? UGH.

[vincentpriceofficial]

jordan, he/him, born 1994

inthebelltower on ao3, original fiction here

I live with my little cat

backreading is fine but please limit your interactions to like 20 posts or so after that I start to get weirded out

[illusoryfem]

[vincentpriceofficial]

*dale jennings voice* Good evening! I'm going to kill myself. and you're watching the news at six

[vincentpriceofficial]

25mg cbd has me at peace with this world

[vincentpriceofficial]

the thing is i really do think the sex niall was having with alby was crazier in some ways than any sex he could have w ruben. ruben has so much raw sexual charisma* but i fear he is kind of a one trick pony. sex to him is like 1) animalistic kissing 2) eat hole 3) animalistic jackhammering. whereas alby is both emotionally intelligent enough and a skilled enough interpersonal communicator to negotiate truly involved and elaborate freak sex scenarios. and also is like awwww poor niall i'm just like so happy for myself and so worried for you because obviously youre like fucking fifty years old and you've obviously spent your time partying and its starting to take a toll on your face and body and the boyfriends that you have had were like really bad for you and would come over and cum on your stomach but like whatever works for you works for you and that's amazing :)**

*WHICH I AM NOT IMMUNE TO see my #mfw when i am a top but i have kin memories of wanting to get fucked by this psycho tag

**WHY DID I HAVE TO TRANSCRIBE THAT DIRECT FROM THE VIDEO LIKE THIS ISNT A FOUNDATIONAL COPYPASTA TEXT

[meatmancastiel]

[tragicwaif]

[motorway-south]

i love being a cowboy in the 1920s i might just teake out my poorly repressed feelings for my brother onto his jailbait vixen stepson until he murders me with anthrax

[389]

[vincentpriceofficial]

#iwtv spoilers

i gather past devils minion is happening. annoyed but im being so brave about it

[lvmimis]

tbh i love hear me outs but i also love the opposite of hear me outs where it’s like nearly everyone thinks they’re fuckable except you

[vintxgemiseries]

count me outs

[bellflowermini]

lets burn alive with dada

[bruisecest]

this is a sideblog so i can’t send asks (#mycurse) but can everyone tell me what they think niall’s 16th birthday was like and what they think he and ruben did to celebrate. no holds barred real theories let’s go half man NATION!

[bruisecest]

personally i think ruben really really wanted to make it special and so he got niall drunk and high after dinner and cake with their mums and they did a bunch of delinquent teenage shit out in the streets just running around the two of them — until ruben remembered he’d spent his own 16th in a fucking cell at polmont and beat the fuck out of niall (just a little bit. light beating) for like, close to no reason, or maybe because the wee fucker is always just like, LOOKING at him, and his eyes are always so wet, like he’s about to cry or something, and so ruben’s going to give him something to cry about, fuck your birthday, you think everyone gets birthdays you think anyone cares you think anyone cares about you but ME, you big fucking baby, and anyways. they go home and niall’s quiet and ruben’s sorry but like, in that weird cramped up way where he’s sorry he did it but he’s not sorry for why, and in the middle of the night he gets up and slides into bed next to niall silent and holds him for a bit so he knows it, and niall says nothing and asks nothing and so they never ever talk about it again, because in the morning when their mums are like you boys sure had a wild night, hope it was fun! he just says yeah, and he doesn’t really blame ruben for it, with how much he spends the next week or two trying to make up for it, all jokes and laughs and the laundry done and watching star wars and dr. who and finding little gifts on his bed every other day, little shit ruben nicks from the grocery for him, just because — and so no, he doesn’t blame ruben. he never does. but he also never forgets

[bruisecest]

we don’t have to talk about it now but. eventually i would like to discuss incurable premature ejaculator niall kennedy if anyone else is interested

[skulandcrossbones]

I'M LISTENING

[shelfperson]

re: prev tags

[bruisecest]

omg holy shit. half man nation are we going to get an insane amount of use out of this meme or WHAT

[glitteringpoet1685]

AMC really struck gold with the unreliable narrator idea because now people will insist that any flaw in the storytelling is actually a genius premeditated reflection of a fallible narrator, any pacing issues are actually a genius premeditated reflection of a characters psyche, and any lack of character development is actually a genius premeditated reflection on a characters refusal to face their own trauma, and having cheap looking production is actually a genius premeditated reflection of a characters memories, and any unwarranted deviation from the source material is actually a genius premeditated lie that will be proven false at some unspecified point, and any poor handling of sensitive subjects is actually a genius premeditated commentary on the characters own failings, etc, etc.

[evildilf2]

[nicoleanell]

Honestly that Niall/Mona dynamic goes CRAZY for me. People were like "omg he is such a villain and dick to her" and they're not wrong but she is also a legitimately shitty person AND imperfect victim x2 and I adore her for that.

(Like, it must be addressed that girl had a fully willing and active role in molesting Niall with Ruben back in ep1, but at the end of the day they were all kids and not one of them conceptualized it that way and that's kinda On Society more than anything. Can't stay mad at her for it! It's not like that's why he hates her! A truth captured horribly well in this series is sometimes trauma happens without the traumatizer even really knowing what they did.)

Idk, I love their weird sisterwife shit! Love her calling Ruben "our boy" to him and whatever nonverbalized Thing was going on there. Love the shared understanding and semi-sincere pity that curdles so *instantly* into blame and resentment. Love that they arguably have the Worst Sex in a show that is chock full of really bad sex and then look at each other like a shot out of a horror movie. Love that the circumstances actively mirror Alby in the trashed apartment in ep2 'cause time is a flat circle.

Love that he shows up at her house like "that meant nothing we're gonna put this behind us" and she's like "you're right we should put this behind us 👍" and he immediately gets pissy that she's agreeing with him and not stressed out about it. Love when he makes the insane leap of trying to shame her like "omg but you slept with his brother" and she has to go YOU ARE THE BROTHER, wtf are you judging me about?!?

Love that "it's not gay sex if you don't fall in love" and "it's not cheating if your novel is just really really good" are two ideas that have coexisted in Niall Kennedy's brain. Love that him being gay and smol and crying every 10 minutes does not stop their whole relationship from being nice-guy™ misogyny poisoned.

Love when he tells her to stop drinking and take care of her kid while he's on cocaine and not taking care of his kid! Love how she talks about Baird needing a Masculine Figure in his life even if (or because) it's the guy who keeps putting people in comas and Niall is halfheartedly like well what about me and she's like what ABOUT you lmao. Love that they got into a loud ass argument about their bastard child AT A FUNERAL with their faces 3 inches from each other and it was the least heterosexual thing to ever happen.

Love that somewhere in both of their lizard brains, they keep circling around and back to a single, mutual, implicit threat that is at its core: Do you know how fast I could get Ruben to kill you. 🙃