Me

26, Michigan, Magical //

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That one person who lies and you know it’s a lie but at least it sounds good.

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I will never feel completely ok here for long

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Looking back some of these posts somebody shoulda locked me up. I wasn’t wrong but geez 😂

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I’ve been okay

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I am committing to not accepting this level of distance.

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Trying not to tell people exactly what i think is exhausting.

The amount of restraint it requires I simply don’t have.

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I hate being told people feel I’m mean but I don’t know how to turn it off sometimes. I’m only told that I’m not mean when I am quiet and I don’t bite back, and when I detach and I don’t deserve to exist that way.

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I allowed too much

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After the second time it hurts a whole lot less, if anything I learned so much more about myself. And sometimes that fake it til you make it positivity leads into that rabbit hole, that innocent bystander mentality.

Feeling out of control is ok and I tend to take my hands off of things and situations. I know what I did and do wrong.

I also realize that there’s nothing wrong with closing myself off. People don’t need to know, they use it against you. My no is enough, clarification is to my discretion. I am fully able to not sure my traumas and I felt like because I didn’t say anything that is why bad things happened.

I

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I’m never gonna stop. That is all.

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The yearn to hear good girl but also the urge to never be spoken to.

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Such a liar