Salvation in Darkness

Indie RP Blog for an original character based in the new Star Wars trilogy. Blog will contain mature content and potentially triggering themes. Read Rules and About before interacting. Written by Mari Est. Jan.2018

[dracoserrulata-blog]

Sorry I haven’t been around here much the past week or two. Been having some serious health scares with my mom so all my focus has been on her and making sure I’m taking care of myself too.

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If you spoil Infinity War for me you’re out of my life. I’ve been waiting since 2012 when the first Avengers movie came out and now these spoiler-free reviews are getting me hella hyped. Don’t be a dick please and if you do decide to post spoilers (for whatever reason it just didn’t click in your brain that people don’t wanna be spoiled) then TAG THEM!!! PLEASE!!!

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[Kylo | forceboxnd:]

Kylo let out a small sigh, wincing when he tried to move before he just settled on being still again. He was a large man and he didn’t want to crush Vex. “We’ll figure it out.” He spoke, hoping that they actually would. 

She’d spent nights tending to his infected wounds until they had healed. He’d grown fond of her, admired her. Kylo had hoped that he had proved to her that he was not as bad as he was portrayed in the tales that had been told. 

“Are you sure?” He asked, his eyes trying to find somewhere else to look. It was either her or the metal wall, he much preferred to look at her. He could see her chewing her lip and his eyes got almost transfixed on it. “I… I think I’ve cracked a few ribs on my way down.” He looked down, trying to look at his side with no luck, his head just bumped Vex’s, his breath brushing her neck. He straightened his posture after realising how close he’d been. 

The bump was nothing; it was the feeling of his warm breath on her neck that caught her attention. She stiffened instinctively, though it wasn’t unpleasant; not how it probably should have been. A small gesture of her hand was used to show that she was okay, though the pacing of her heartbeat told a different story.

“I’m fine. I promise. Here, let me look at your ribs,” she spoke softly, her hands reaching for the hem of his shirt. Her eyes flicked to his own briefly before she began to push the fabric upward. She wasn’t a medic by trade, but her experience with her crew and assisting in the infirmary for the First Order had acquainted her with medical practices. The tips of her fingers glided smoothly across his ribcage, softly pressing in a couple of areas. Not hard enough to hurt or displace any possible fractures, but enough to feel for any unnatural softness.

“I don’t think anything’s broken, per say, but I do feel some swelling. They’re probably bruised. We can have the medics do a scan when we get back,” she explained, not noticing how long her hand lingered on his skin as she looked up at him again.

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Llio had been told not to go easy on Vextrana by Kylo, she had to be broken, she had to lose her temper and get mad before Llio began to really train her. The more Llio knocked her down or pinned her the angrier she got. A weapon change here and a weapon change there just to make it all the harder for her to get into. 

Llio could see it, she could see the rage in her apprentices eyes, one more fall and she’d break. This time Vextrana did better, lasted longer but inevitably ended up on the ground. Llio watched her, already prepared for the wave of anger. 

The short dark haired Knight of Ren didn’t so much as blink when Vex came nose to nose with her. Llio stared her down fearlessly, unafraid of anything the apprentice would try. It was silent like this for a few minutes until Llio spoke. “Well done, Vextrana, we will make a Knight out of you yet.” It was the only slither of praise Llio had spoken. Every other word out of her mouth before now had been barked orders and telling Vex she had failed. 

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It was strange, letting her anger overtake her. She’d always berated herself for being too emotional. It was always a weakness of hers. Someone would find the right nerve to strike, and suddenly her actions were no longer ruled by logic.

It wasn’t smart getting in Llio’s face. She knew that, but she couldn’t help it. Frustration built up within her until it was overwhelming. With her trainer’s encouragement, she couldn’t hold it back. Her hands trembled with anger in balled fists; her fingers twitching in anticipation of what came next. She was just waiting to be berated again.

When Llio instead praised her, something she thought would never happen, she was taken aback. Her brows furled upwards as she took a small step back. “What do you mean ‘well done’? I fucked up again.”

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@vncyda​ continued from [ Here ] 

Kylo had tried to grab at the sides as they had slid down the narrow trap, he couldn’t find anything to grip onto so now they were stuck in this narrow shaft, Kylo’s chest was pressed to hers and his head turned to the side to avoid breathing onto her. She was a couple of inches shorter than him at most. 

He was thankful it was her and not a trooper that he was stick with. Since she had aided him in his bandage changes and the struggles with his healing he had grown to appreciate her presence. Although he still found her irritating at times but that was such an easy feat when Kylo was in one of his moods. 

Kylo couldn’t ignore how close she was, he swallowed thickly as he shook his head slightly. “We are looking at an hour, maybe longer.” He shifted his eyes to look at her, his head turning to look at her slightly. He couldn’t help but stare, they had never had reason to be in such close proximity, she was incredibly beautiful. “Did I injure you at all on the way down?” It was a rough fall and a rough landing, he just hoped it was only him that was injured, not that he’d tell her that. 

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“Wonderful,” Vex groaned. She was impatient by nature, so being stuck in a trap like that where the only option was to wait was certainly not a bright spot in her week. “Hopefully we can figure something out before then. Or maybe our captors will find us first and we can eliminate them after they get us out.”

Admittedly, she was glad it was him that she was stuck with. She’d gotten to know him far better in the passing weeks than she had gotten to know anyone else in the First Order. At first the idea of befriending the infamous Kylo Ren seemed impossible, but over time he became her preferred company. She enjoyed the time they spent together, though that remained unspoken.

“No, I’m fine,” she responded, her breath hitching in her throat as she noticed him staring. What was he thinking as he looked at her? She could feel heat rising to her cheeks and quickly averted her gaze, gnawing at the inside of her lip as she peered back up at him. “What about you? Are you okay?”

[persephonememes]

sentence prompts ➝  poetry starters

‘  life— the thing that happens to us.  ’

‘  you owe no one your forgiveness.  ’

‘  how’s that for a happily ever after?  ’

‘  silence has always been my loudest scream.  ’

‘  when I die, do not waste a minute mouring me.  ’

‘  “no” is short for “fuck off.”  ’

‘  you shine brighter than all the starlight there has ever been or ever will be.  ’

‘  i bet you regret making an enemy out of me.  ’

‘  we cannot control what we remember  ’

‘  i don’t even believe in people.  ’

‘  it takes courage to grow up and become who you really are  ’

‘  i am a world of uncertainties disguised as a girl.  ’

‘  whatever it is that stirs your soul, listen to that. everything else is just noise.  ’

‘  i like the disaster of the night sky, stars spilling this way and that as if  they were upturned from a glass.  ’

‘  resist much, obey little.  ’

‘  be patient and tough; one day this pain will be useful to you.  ’

‘  i am a dreamer with empty hands and I like the chill.  ’

‘  i deserved someone who was willing to stay  ’

‘  you’re everywhere except right here and it hurts  ’

‘  time doesn’t obey our commands  ’

‘  girls like her were born in a storm.  ’

‘  only the brave and the broken are kind in this world.  ’

‘  people aren’t born sad; we make them that way.  ’

‘  some people are born with tornados in their lives  ’

‘  there is nothing scarier in their minds than a girl who knows the power of her flames.  ’

‘  tell them to be proud of every bit of themselves—  ’

‘  some are made of witchcraft and wolf and a little bit of vice.  ’

‘  these scars have never diminished your worth, they are the stories that make you whole.  ’

‘  and you say you are broken, but broken mirrors like you create the most beautiful patterns of light.  ’

‘  but what could you possibly see in her?  ’

‘  everything, I see everything in her, because the stardust that makes her is the same stardust that makes me.  ’

‘  did you really think she was a tender flower you could trample upon, and damage her very soul?  ’

‘  you clutter my mind  ’

‘  i close my eyes and see infinite galaxies  ’

‘  i long for a life i have control of  ’

‘  and all i have now are memories that feel like dreams  ’

‘  don’t be afraid of getting hurt  ’

‘  you have to fight to be alright  ’

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THE GREATEST SHOWMAN SOUNDTRACK SENTENCE STARTERS 

( feel free to adjust sentences and pronouns to suit your roleplaying needs! )

THE GREATEST SHOW

❝ this is the moment you’ve waited for. ❞ ❝ buried in your bones, there’s an ache that you can’t ignore. ❞ ❝ all that was real is left behind. ❞ ❝ don’t fight it, it’s coming for you. ❞ ❝ so tell me do you wanna go? ❞ ❝ the sun can’t stop us now. ❞ ❝ this is the greatest show. ❞ ❝ it’s only this moment, don’t care what comes after. ❞ ❝ it’s blinding outside. ❞

A MILLION DREAMS

❝ i close my eyes and i can see the world that’s waiting up for me. ❞ ❝ they can say it all sounds crazy. ❞ ❝ they can say I’ve lost my mind. ❞ ❝ i don’t care, so call me crazy. ❞ ❝ every night i lie in bed the brightest colors fill my head. ❞ ❝ a million dreams are keeping me awake. ❞ ❝ a million dreams is all it’s gonna take. ❞ ❝ a million dreams for the world we’re gonna make. ❞ ❝ however big, however small, let me be part of it all. ❞ ❝ share your dreams with me. ❞ ❝ i close my eyes to see. ❞

COME ALIVE

❝ you’re just a dead man walking. ❞ ❝ you can flip the switch and brighten up your darkest day. ❞ ❝ sun is up and the color’s blinding. ❞ ❝ take the world and redefine it. ❞ ❝ leave behind your narrow mind. ❞ ❝ you’ll never be the same. ❞ ❝ you’re dreaming with your eyes wide open. ❞ ❝ so, come alive! ❞ ❝ i see it in your eyes. ❞ ❝ no more living in those shadows. ❞ ❝ you can prove there’s more to you. ❞

THE OTHER SIDE

❝ i don’t want to chase you down. ❞ ❝ i know you see it. ❞ ❝ you run with me. ❞ ❝ i can cut you free. ❞ ❝ so trade that typical for something colorful. ❞ ❝ if it’s crazy, live a little crazy. ❞ ❝ don’t you wanna get away from the same old part you gotta play. ❞ ❝ cause I got what you need. ❞ ❝ stay in the cage, or you’ll finally take the key. ❞ ❝ suddenly you’re free to fly. ❞ ❝ well i hate to tell you, but it just won’t happen. ❞ ❝ cause i quite enjoy the life you say i’m trapped in. ❞ ❝ now I admire you. ❞ ❝ you’re onto something, really it’s something. ❞ ❝ i’ll have to leave that up to you. ❞ ❝ don’t you know that i’m okay with this uptown part i get to play. ❞ ❝ i don’t need to see the other side. ❞ ❝ ain’t in a cage, so i don’t need to take the key. ❞ ❝ can’t you see I’m doing fine. ❞ ❝ now is this really how you like to spend your days?. ❞ ❝ if I were mixed up with you, I’d be the talk of the town. ❞ ❝ you would finally live a little, finally laugh a little. ❞ ❝ just let me give you the freedom to dream. ❞ ❝ it’ll wake you up and cure your aching. ❞ ❝ it’ll take your walls and start ‘em breaking. ❞ ❝ now that’s a deal that seems worth taking. ❞ ❝ i guess i’ll leave that up to you. ❞ ❝ you’d want a piece of all the action. ❞ ❝ we could shake and make it happen. ❞ ❝ i wasn’t born this morning. ❞ ❝ we’re going to the other side. ❞

NEVER ENOUGH

❝ i’m trying to hold my breath. ❞ ❝ let it stay this way. ❞ ❝ can’t let this moment end. ❞ ❝ can you hear it echoing? ❞ ❝ take my hand. ❞ ❝ will you share this with me? ❞ ❝ cause darling without you, all the shine of a thousand spotlights will never be enough. ❞ ❝ cause darling without you, all the stars we steal from the nightsky will never be enough. ❞ ❝ towers of gold are still too little. ❞ ❝ these hands could hold the world but it’ll never be enough. ❞

THIS IS ME

❝ i’m not a stranger to the dark. ❞ ❝ we don’t want your broken parts. ❞ ❝ i’ve learned to be ashamed of all my scars. ❞ ❝ “run away,” they say. ❞ ❝ i won’t let them break me down to dust. ❞ ❝ i know there’s a place for us. ❞ ❝ we are glorious. ❞ ❝ i’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out. ❞ ❝ i am brave. ❞ ❝ i am bruised. ❞ ❝ i am who i’m meant to be. ❞ ❝ look out 'cause here i come. ❞ ❝ i’m marching on to the beat i drum. ❞ ❝ i’m not scared to be seen. ❞ ❝ i make no apologies. ❞ ❝ i won’t let the shame sink in. ❞ ❝ we are bursting through the barricades and reaching for the sun. ❞ ❝ we are warriors. ❞

REWRITE THE STARS

❝ you know i want you. ❞ ❝ it’s not a secret i try to hide. ❞ ❝ i know you want me. ❞ ❝ don’t keep saying our hands are tied. ❞ ❝ you claim its not in the cards. ❞ ❝ fate is pulling you miles away and out of reach from me. ❞ ❝ you’re here in my heart. ❞ ❝ who can stop me if i decide that you’re my destiny? ❞ ❝ what if we rewrite the stars? ❞ ❝ say you were made to be mine. ❞ ❝ nothing could keep us apart. ❞ ❝ you’d be the one i was meant to find. ❞ ❝ it’s up to you. ❞ ❝ it’s up to me. ❞ ❝ no one can say what we get to be. ❞ ❝ maybe the world could be ours tonight. ❞ ❝ you think it’s easy. ❞ ❝ you think i don’t want to run to you. ❞ ❝ there are doors that we can’t walk through. ❞ ❝ i know you’re wondering why. ❞ ❝ we’re able to be just you and me within these walls. ❞ ❝ you’re gonna wake up and see that it was hopeless after all. ❞ ❝ no one can rewrite the stars. ❞ ❝ how can you say you’ll be mine? ❞ ❝ everything keeps us apart. ❞ ❝ i’m not the one you were meant to find. ❞ ❝ it’s not up to you. ❞ ❝ it’s not up to me. ❞ ❝ how can we rewrite the stars? ❞ ❝ all i want is to fly with you. ❞ ❝ all i want is to fall with you. ❞ ❝ so just give me all of you. ❞ ❝ it feels impossible. ❞ ❝ it’s not impossible. ❞ ❝ is it impossible? ❞ ❝ say that it’s possible. ❞ ❝ changing the world to be ours. ❞ ❝ i can’t have you. ❞ ❝ we’re bound to break. ❞ ❝ my hands are tied. ❞

TIGHTROPE

❝ some people long for a life that is simple and planned. ❞ ❝ some people won’t sail the sea 'cause they’re safer on land. ❞ ❝ i’d follow you the great unknown. ❞ ❝ we promised to never let go. ❞ ❝ we can see the whole world down below. ❞ ❝ we’re walking a tightrope. ❞ ❝ but it’s all an adventure. ❞ ❝ you pulled me in and together we’re lost in a dream. ❞ ❝ i risk it all just to be with you. ❞ ❝ i risk it all for this life we choose. ❞

FROM NOW ON

❝ i saw the sun begin to dim. ❞ ❝ a man learns who is there for him when the glitter fades and the walls won’t hold. ❞ ❝ if all was lost there’s more i gained. ❞ ❝ it led me back to you. ❞ ❝ from now on these eyes will not be blinded the lights. ❞ ❝ what’s waited till tomorrow starts tonight. ❞ ❝ let this promise in me start like an anthem in my heart. ❞ ❝ i drank champagne with kings and queens. ❞ ❝ the politicians praised my name. ❞ ❝ those are someone else’s dreams. ❞ ❝ but when i stop and see you here, i remember who all this was for. ❞ ❝ we will come back home. ❞

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NGC 6960, Witch’s Broom

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transparent :*

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“If you’re mad, why don’t you use your anger? Beat me at least once.” [ Llio ]

[ Tension Memes | @forceboxnd | accepting ]

Vextrana huffed, pushing herself slowly from the ground to stand on her feet. They’d been training for hours, and she hadn’t beaten Llio once. Vex wasn’t used to losing. It didn’t sit well with her, as she normally prided herself on her skills in combat. She could blame it on the absence of her usual weapons, but she wasn’t about to reach for excuses.

No. She’d suck it up and try again. She’d use the anger she felt from being beaten, that wounded pride that chewed at her, and she’d try again.

She rushed Llio, channeling the rage she’d instructed her to use. She fared better this time, landing a few hits, but eventually she found herself knocked on her ass again.

“Fuck!” she growled and slammed her fists into the floor. The anger was coursing through her, the rage biting at her skin from within her. She launched herself up, stepping right into Llio’s face for a staredown, her chest heaving as she seethed.

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yeah thanks tumblr for not notifying me of my asks or replies or anything...

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training turned tension starters

Or more specifically, “two characters who have been sparring or in combat training together and almost kiss at the end of their practice fight”. As requested ! Feel free to make any changes.

“Is that the best you can do?”

“I won’t go easy on you.” / “I’ll go easy on you.” / “Quit going easy on me.”

“Hit me with your best shot.”

“You need to do better if you want to meet your goal.”

“I’ve been wanting to kick your ass all week.”

“Is this necessary?”

“Try again.”

“You’re pissing me off.” / “If you’re mad, why don’t you use your anger? Beat me at least once.”

“Here, let me show you how.”

“Woah! [falls on top of __]” 

“Nice moves.”

“[pins __ to floor]” / “[pins __ to wall]”

“You’re…really close right now.”

“G–get off of me.”

“You’re heavy.” / “You’re crushing me.”

“Sorry–are you okay?”

“You’re really red right now.”

“…Do we always end up on top of each other?”

“Are you still panting?”

“I told you, it was an accident.”

“…Why don’t you just kiss me?”

“I’ll consider kissing you if you can beat me.”

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“a little close”

[ @forceboxnd​ | send “a little close” for our muses to get stuck in a small space together ]

It was admittedly an odd trap to be caught in. A narrow hole dug at least a hundred feet into the ground and lined with smooth metal….their captors were creative, she’d give them that. Without her climbing gear, which she had neglected to bring with her this day, there didn’t seem to be much of a way out besides waiting. Whether their allies would reach them before their captors remained to be seen.

The waiting would not be easy. There was barely enough room for both of them to stand, so along with the discomfort of being trapped in what was basically a metal shaft, they also had to deal with a significant lack of personal space.

“How much longer until the troopers arrive?” she asked him, her gaze firmly fixed to the metal wall at her left side in hope to ignore addressing their unusual closeness.

[vncyda-blog]

Me? Possibly doing things on this blog tonight?? More likely than you think.

[rp-meme-central]

Send “a little close” for our muses to get stuck in a small space together.

[dracoserrulata-blog]

anyway HI I’m back from vacation and I just realized that I forgot to post about it so….sorry for disappearing without warning. I’m not dead lmao it was my cousin’s spring break so I took him on a vacation.

Also I’ve managed to fix my internet on my pc (but not the wifi) so hopefully I can do things when I’m at home now.

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Mari’s Commissions

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