[ithrowupwhenimnervbous]

[voguebleue]

I can’t even act like Drake isn’t life affirming to me like I was suicidal but new Drake songs just dropped and I can’t wait to wake up tomorrow

[sevenincheels]

[voguebleue]

Terrible shift at work

$21 cocktail and nigiri at the sushi bar alone at 10pm

Reading Lena Dunham’s memoir while house music plays

Drunk texts to my loving boyfriend

Riding home from Beverly Hills in a BMW with an Armenian Uber driver.

[voguebleue]

Whenever I have a dream about someone they text me out of the blue within the next couple of days… really makes you think

[voguebleue]

I am operating on levels of misery that are genuinely harmful to my health at this point and I fear the only thing that would fix it would be $2500

[voguebleue]

Genuinely being severely allergic to lamotrigine is one of the worst things that has happened to me recently because for the two weeks I was taking it I actually felt hopeful and happy and stable for the first time in literal years and then I had to stop and I’m more of a wreck than ever. Also abilify is not doing shit.

[dontmutilatemymink]

[voguebleue]

Spent the last $60 in my checking account on an Isabel Marant dress on the RealReal 🧘‍♀️🧘‍♀️

[voguebleue]

Can someone out there please just pray that abilify will work for me because I genuinely don’t know how I’m gonna survive the next couples months living this way

[voguebleue]

How it genuinely feels eating at my boyfriend’s 90 pound French mother’s house where every single meal is a salad and the smallest cut of protein imaginable with no seasonings while I’m a big fat Polish girl

[voguebleue]

Rabbit rabbit rabbit

[voguebleue]

Strange how everything old is gone but nothing has changed.

[voguebleue]

It’s so strange being on tumblr still all these years later, it’s like walking around a vacant museum of my adolescence

[voguebleue]

Reading julia fox’s memoir (ik) and its awakening something visceral in me not because i can directly relate to any of her experiences at all but because as someone who also has BPD the feeling of being willing to do anything just to feel love and not feeling alive until you’re in a chasm of complete emotional ruin is… yeah relatable

[voguebleue]

Could I have $925 for this bottega bag

[voguebleue]

This also happened on the day that I saw my evil ex best friend who I was hysterically in love with and who ruined my life hanging out in LA all together with our old friends from college and if there is one time in my life where I don’t want to get triggered and spiral it is now…