unloveable

[voidbaby]

it’s exhausting being inside my head all the time

[voidbaby]

maybe i was actually looking forward to spending time with just you

but you canceled and chose him instead

i just want my best friend back

my best friend that i could tell anything to

now it doesn’t feel like that so much anymore.

[voidbaby]

maybe i should just take all my pills and do everyone a favour

they don’t need me

no one does

[voidbaby]

i’m literally fucking shaking and crying right now upset all by myself

that’s how i always end up

all by myself

because no one ever likes me enough to be a permanent part of their lives

replaceable

that’s all i am

REPLACEABLE.

[voidbaby]

i haven’t struggled this bad in years

i want it to just end

[voidbaby]

i’m probably gonna be left behind again

i can feel it

and i’m not ready for it

[timeaway]

I’ve never belonged anywhere I’m always just in between

[voidbaby]

finally got a job and starting to “be an adult”

but i ask her to pitch in and help with the washing and suddenly it’s my fault and “it’s too much for me to do”

if i knew getting a job would lead to gaslighting i just would of fucking killed myself.

[voidbaby]

dwelling on the memory of when i had a meltdown/breakdown when i was nine or ten.

i was so visibly distraught, screaming and crying.

all i remember my parents doing is laughing at me.

i haven’t felt so strongly like that again until today.

i am truly so close to the edge

[raindrop4444444444]

[kscribbles]

[colorfulrealm]

[voidbaby]

maybe i’ll just lay in bed all day and not eat for a few days

maybe then things will get better

[voidbaby]

i just want things to get better for me

but i don’t think they ever will

[prozac80mg]

the secrets of anonymous quiz takers

[voidbaby]

i’ve cried so much my skin around my eyes is starting to burn

[voidbaby]

i’m sorry i’m so high maintenance

i don’t mean to be

i really don’t mean to be

i try to jam myself in the smallest corner so people don’t worry about me

but i can’t do this alone

but i don’t know how to ask for help

so i’m sorry if you find this when i’m dead or something

but i really tried

i just wish it was better

i wish you happiness

it hurts to see you hurt and i don’t want to bother you with my problems that probably aren’t even that bad compared to others