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honestly i think imma migrate to bsky for the most part. follow me if u want

dazey (@dazeyouterspace.bsky.social)

23. She/They. You might know me from things, or not. Things include but are not limited to: Being gay, the real world, making music, being a

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seeing poster after poster, photo after photo of gay/trans events in Giant Expensive Megalopolitan City Where Everyone Lives Why Don’t You Live There & saying ‘sure wish they’d do that out here’ each time with more exhaustion

[iamoutofideas]

either take your posters offline & stop fucking with us or bring your trans yuri slime rave out here

[eggboob]

no need. i'm already on it

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oh btw just because i'm more open about my mental health doesn't mean im going to trauma dump. i'm very happy talking about my mental health but i realize i shouldn't just willy nilly post about it on the internet for strangers and i need to share to friends first and foremost, and then if its relevant and not too revealing, i'll talk about it.

because i've realized i used to have a hair trigger and blab to anyone and everyone because i felt like i needed to, but i don't need to anymore. i'm stronger now.

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i used to really identify with dave strider from homestuck and it didn't go over my head that his character arc was about ironic detachment being really bad and can even kill you and you need to be genuine. you can still be snarky, but never get consumed by irony but that lesson didn't fully get learnt til just now. i only JUST realize how much ironic detachment i really had and found hard to let go of due to trauma

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if u couldnt tell, reconciling w my trauma also made me a different person. i'll talk about it more but i'm a lot less grumpy and anxious and tired at a baseline (untreated GAD will do that to you) and im a girl so im a bit more girly with it but yknow

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THE REBRAND

i also might start using tumblr more? i stopped using it because again. i was in a terrible place and i was extremely privileged to move out and i will forever be grateful but yeah i was in a terrible place and doing nothing but being on tumblr all day was a massive contributor to my declining mental health. but i find myself quite busy nowadays and i think i can come back to tumblr in a healthy way.

i'm also a lot less anxious so i don't give a fuck being a lot more blatant and promoting my music more. i'm void maiden! i started making music last year under the name void maiden, and you can check out all my shit HERE! FOLLOW ME ON EVERYTHING!

i might change my tag to that because im not very connected w my old screenname (skelltan) but yes. welcome to the new era of voidmaiden blogging

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i was going to write a story about my trauma of living in a small city but i've realized as much as i hate that city, most of my issues were actually trauma so.

it was gonna be an ARG type thing where it IS just a text story, but its all on a blog. i even started the blog ( @herdamnedrebellion) because i thought i was going to start it this year but.

i'm on the fence. now that i don't hate my old city as much, it feels a bit less genuine to write about. that being said, the city definitely contributed to my trauma and worsened my anxiety. and, y'know, it is basically a story very similar to silent hill and we all know It's Trauma! at the end of the day

but now that i've recognized my trauma i think i want to use all that material on things like standup comedy and music. her damnation may not be cancelled but it's certainly in development hell. i think i can still absolutely write it and have a very cathartic and genuine experience, i'm just gonna see how the rest of my art pans out first

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your local autistic comic nerd girl's thoughts on the new teen titans roster

i have a couple gripes and i really hope the writer can pull of the team but i'm mostly positive! in depth thoughts below.

SPOILERS BENEATH CUT! for dcko: the kids are all fight special and the new 2026 titans run

these were my very honest cynical thoughts to my friend. im not actually that mad and as a quick explainer:

"they tried that! and it sucked!/no good titans since OYL"

so yknow again this is my own opinion. i tried following every titan run post rebirth and i didnt really like any of them very much. we haven't had a titans book that isn't just dick and friends nor a younger titans team for like, what, 5 years at this point? i'm very glad to have more titans.

"its fucking comic books, whatever/stargirl fucking whatever"

comics are ruled by editorial, what sells, retcons, blah blah blah... lots of stupid things happen in comics and i feel like you may as well accept it and go with the flow unless its a MASSIVE retcon you really dislike (oh boy i'll get to that later re: geoff johns golden age!)

"id rather see her than harper or duke"

i know they both get a lot of flack but this is VERY MUCH moreso because im a massive cass fan. i think thematically, harper or duke would probably make more sense as the bat character to this trinity, but like i said i love cass and i think she fits fine enough

"yara is a failure" this is one of the harsher things that i really dont mean. i mean that obviously they really tried to push her, give her a cw show... dc has been trying to make a "jon/damian age wonder girl equivalent to complete the trinity!" for as long as jon and damian have been a pairing. sadly, yara didn't pan out, partly due to the writer, editorial, everything. this is less a comment on her as a character and more her circumstances. like i said, she doesnt HAVE to be a failure and i think she has potential to be a modern icon

"the OCs are cynical cashgrabs"

ok so again idfk who the cube guy is, i think he was in joshua williamson's/jeremy adams/whoever the fuck took over after spurrier's flash? i remember vaguely reading up on him and i think he's an apoklyptan idk. if that IS the case sure whatever

but i really have massive issues with the whole Golden Age thing they tried pushing. geoff johns, who did basically the best jsa run, came back to jsa and rather than picking up the already massive amount of characters he had to play with, some of which have been missing from main continuity or barely have much canon presence in general and could REALLY USE IT! (tom bronson/tomcat, kent v nelson, judomaster, to a lesser extent cyclone, damage, hourman 3/matthew tyler, pieter cross........... need i go on?) he just dumps even more characters who more than anything feel like they were just shat out so he could get royalty checks. i'm not saying you can't make new characters but he made an abundance of new characters in a niche that already has SO MANY FUCKING CHARACTERS YOU COULD USE. also hourman 3 DOES show up but hes an evil henchman. sure. fucking whatever dude.

but like, there's already so much legacy and sidekicks in the JSA/all star squadron/whatever the fuck lineage... why did we need to RETCON that jay, hourman, mr terrific (although like i said this one is a little less egregious to me), DOCTOR FATE and then a bunch of fucking second stringers had secret sidekicks that were erased by history. why did we need to retcon a sidekick to john fucking henry jr, the guy from dc: new frontier and. american history/myth.

sigh... some of them DO have plot relevance like boom or salem but i just dont give a shit. salem was a character arc i do not care for at all when done as unbelievably especially in this context (uh oh... is she secretly EEEEEEEEEVIL or does she just have mysterious motives? O_o). i will give credit to some of them like wing or airwave cos yknow. they're actual fucking characters that did exist and were lost to time either literally in canon or in the terms of real life and mark waid did a good job of incorporating him into JLU but i still kinda dont give a shit about judy garrick and think geoff could've just made a new flash family member that wasn't his literal daughter or like. jesse and rex having a child or something sorry....

that being said like. again im not a hater i just speak very bluntly cos of autism and im mostly positive!

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waaaaalp i'm finally caught up on the mainline series (no new years specials or champion of champions yet)

SO. MY TASKMASTER TIER LIST!

reminder: i don't hate anyone here, some people just task better than others

i watched 3 episodes of season 13 and 15 and felt like there weren't any standout tasks/contestants so i just moved on because i got bored

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MY PITCH FOR ABSOLUTE TITANS

i love the younger dc heroes and i think an absolute version would be cool, but i think it would be a mistake to try and force sidekicks for every hero like absolute superboy or absolute impulse, so

i'm a sucker for the "superpowered teams vs a government institution that is responsible for them" so my pitch would be a bunch of that, essentially, using teen heroes who aren't necessarily the 1:1 teen sidekicks to the heroes

THE ORGANIZATION: we have absolute evil, all the villains teaming up and a lot of studying of superheroes already. H.I.V.E. would be a shell organization for the other big bads used to specifically study metagenes in youth, animals, etc, building off of research on the latnerns, wally, grodd and the rest

THE VILLAINS: i think a version of queen bee could be the leader of H.I.V.E. who has power over them but is a middleperson for the absolute "justice league" and needs to impress them. i think rather than giving her mind control powers, i'd have her have a monster form with bee/wasp qualities, like giant stingers, more like insect queen from LOSH/superman

for reasons i'll explain later, black manta is hired by H.I.V.E. to kind of be the absolute universe's equivalent of how deathstroke normally functions

part of the villains' whole thing is trying to create a superarmy so i think it would be fun for them to have some sort of superman clone like cyborg superman as a twist on you expecting it to be kon. this could also have them think superman is their enemy in a future crossover

you could also see some crossover threats like deathstroke, hawkman or obsidian

THE TITANS:

Arthur Curry Jr./Aquaman - so, we don't have an aquaman in the absolute universe, right? as an inversion of aquababy's death, black manta killed the man who WOULD be aquaman, arthur curry's father. arthur jr was subsequently kidnapped by manta to live at the facility, where he seeks escape and to avenge his father

Rose Wilson/Ravager - we don't know a lot about Absolute Slade, but he appears to be a scumbag in power, so Rose could easily be a "bastard" (for lack of better words) daughter of Slade who H.I.V.E. kept an eye on and abducted her as they started to observe metahuman qualities in her. she'd be a bit less ruthless than mainline rose and be the point of view character

Jesse Chambers/Jessie Quick - as part of Project Olympus' plans to figure out what the fuck is up with the speedforce, one of their researchers, Johnny Quick, found a way to create a weaker version of the speedforce phenomena. he went on the run, but was hunted and killed, with his daughter being the only one who knows the formula

Jennifer Lynn-Hayden/Jade - Ewing is already giving us a lot of Green Lantern characters including Obsidian, so i think Todd's younger (in this continuity at least, idk their canon ages) sister being a future target only makes sense.

Roy Harper/Red Arrow - we know Absolute Roy exists. we don't know if he'll be in Absolute Green Arrow at all, but him seeking vengeance on the villains and helping out team break out would make sense to me

Maxine Hunkel/Cyclone - it would be a way to introduce professor ivo and possibly amazo, as well as me being a massive maxine fangirl. there were protoypes of a version of the Red Tornado but they kept failing, until ivo decided merging them with a human could be a way of stabilizing them

i could see myself adding all sorts of additions like one of the atom adjacent characters, breach, or stargirl... but that's my start for now

the series is the team forming after escaping H.I.V.E. with H.I.V.E. and their many assassins hunting them, as they learn to trust each other

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i don't want to post this on reddit so coming back here to be autistic for a second:

IDEAS FOR THE NON EXISTENT SUPERMAN (2025) LEGO WAVE (spoilers for movie)

now you could just do all the big setpieces (hall of justice, lexcorp tower), but i'm thinking of what sets would be realistic in a real wave. i can't do mockups but i'll include pictures of similar lego sets to give you an idea of size/price point i'm thinking of

i think in terms of your Big Ticket Item, a playset of kaiju as a brickbuilt monster is absolutely the play. you can also include a small construct build for guy gardner. goes without saying, the minifigures would be superman, hawkgirl, guy gardner and mr terrific. you could also maybe include a baby kaiju fig. i think the monster would be bigger than giant man, here, but if we account for the tower and jet, it'd be a similar piece count

2. i think for a mid tier set, you kinda have to do the mr terrific ship. it's not the most important thing in the movie, but lego loves making vehicles and its plot relevant ENOUGH. you can have lois and mr terrific - maybe some of the daily planet cast if you wanted to pad figs, or some of the justice gang if you want them more available. i think it'd have a similar part count to a modest tie fighter, because it'd be similar to the middle section, but big enough to fit 2 minifigs.

3. i think another really easy midrange set, which would also be brick built, is something dc loves doing - the mech. however, we have a character who fits this perfectly! the hammer of boravia. this would also be a way for you to get ultraman in a set. it'd have about the same part count as a general lego mech, maybe a tiny bit more for bulk

4. another important scene is the interdimensional jail. it wouldn't be too in depth, just a version of the portal and maybe a prison cell with a play feature for you to break a character out. who else would be in this set but superman, metamorpho and krypto. i think due to having 2 small builds, it'd be a similar parts count to any lego set that has 2 small things

those are the main ones! i think you have one big ticket item, a mid sized offering and two smaller sets that all cover the principle cast. HOWEVER. if we wanted to give ourselves a couple more sets.

5. a proper "ultraman vs superman" set other than the hammer of boravia would be cool. being realistic about budget, i feel like either a small office interior to represent lex's office or a small version of the daily planet globe you could roleplay with as a set piece would be cool. i think it'd be a pretty small set, similar piece count to the one above, so i won't use another image

6. it would also be great to represent the fortress of solitude. however, i doubt we could do the whole thing. my guess is a set similar to those batcave type sets - you get a crystal pillar or two, the chair superman spins around in with the screens and some computers. you'd definitely need some of his robots. supergirl and engineer would also be cool to put here as i haven't found anywhere else to rep them. krypto would also be great to get here, too

7. speaking of engineer, i feel like it'd be easy to get an action set piece of superman vs engineer and ultraman. the problem is, a football field isn't that super interesting to depict on small scale, so... i feel like it'd be a similar part count to a battlepack with a couple of stands w/ seats and maybe an impact crater.

i feel like there are a couple other things you could make sets of (a small hall of justice room, the kent farm, the mr terrific fight scene), but they'd start to feel a bit less toyetic and more just like Buildings. i think my core 4 have a good variety of sizes, and the other 3 are also good small/mid range padding which depict a variety of setpieces from the movie i could see there being a couple little play features for.

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finally finished part 1

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SO UHHHHHHH I WATCHED PART 2 AND THIS IS A MILLION TIMES MORE TRUE NOW MORE THAN EVER

spoilers below cut

the way louise weard genuinely makes a much more fucking despair filled tale about someone being misguided by everyone in her life to the point of detransition. the hollow smile through the entire end sequence when you know her partner doesnt care for her at all. HOLY FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

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I guess it's time for another one of my gay little vent posts, although more optimistic than usual.

I'm frustrated looking for places to live. I'm not making great progress. It's frustrating. I'm also feeling a little lonely. But, y'know, that's life.

Since An Incident a couple of days ago, I feel like I had a come-to-god moment where my resolve has strengthened. I've always felt a pressure for perfection in all means.

For example, I was stressing about the move. "This is going nowhere, it's so hard, no one wants to live with me" But you can't be doing that. Moving is hard. It's gonna take a while. I'm probably not going to find somewhere as soon as I'd like, but I just need to keep going. I want to get out of here, so that's what I'm going to do.

It's a bit hard to explain. My point is I'm not going to spend my time stressing about what may be and being sad that it's going nowhere when I can plow through and keep trying until I get there.

Re: the loneliness... The Christmas/New Year season isn't treating me well. Everyone is busy, so I've not had the chance to get out much, but I just need to survive one more week before things go back to normal and I can start going out a bit more often.

So... begrudgingly, I continue, because I'm not going to get stuck in the mud and die here. I'm going to push through til my very last breath.

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they say going on estrogen generally makes you more attracted to men if you already are to an extent

i've been denying it but shamefully, i think its starting to be true

i mean, on one hand, its kinda cool to open your horizons

but i'm pretty misandrist. i have very little hope or faith in men. even my guy best friend, i like him, but he's a man. there's certain points where its like "right, mate. sure."

so yknow its a conflict in me. im starting to find guys a bit hotter but i have to be aware that as im becoming more feminine, the more guarded i need to be against men, and even if i were to hypothetically hook up with a guy, i need to be extremely guarded and have them on a shorter leash than my worst enemies.

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i feel like a lot of people esp in trans spaces are like you should kill the part of you that cringes to embrace what you want to be and externalise that

i feel like for me thats scummy egotistical rockstar. not in a literal sense but like the type of guy jarvis cocker plays, yknow

i think i'm a real deep thinker and sexy and charming but i'm just a piece of shit kid from the suburbs but you love me for it

2026 is the year of the suave scumbag

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i'm not in a great place right now and i suppose a vent post is the best way to address that (i tried doing a vlog or internal recording but gave up both times)

i can analyze my situation all i want, the truth is i'm not reaching any insight i don't already have. i am lonely and want to escape and can't do much more other than apply for places and wait. any attempt to analyze this is just swirling in circles about shit i should talk to my therapist about.

otherwise, we move forward as we must

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i'm spinning my wheels but whats the point of shitting my pants about it

all i can do is keep spinning til i actually hit land and can go somewhere